Pleasure After Pain

PrologueThey say, "Cheating is a choice." That it’s never unintentional or an accident. I used to believe that—well, kind of… before.But right now, I stand against whoever the hell came up with that saying.Because cheating on my husband feels like the only way to survive—to feel alive again. A huge part of me feels dead. Something inside me has stopped breathing, lost its sense of… everything.I don’t want to cheat. I never wanted to. I don’t want to become the kind of wife consumed by infidelity. I am married, and my life was perfect… until recently.So, how did it come to this?I don’t want to, and yet… I’m doing it. I’m cheating on my husband. Right now.Not by choice, not by intent…Or maybe it is? Maybe I am doing this by choice, with intention.I’ve convinced myself this isn’t a choice, that this isn’t what I wanted. But maybe that’s just my way of protecting myself—a defense mechanism.I don’t know anymore.I’m lost in the chaos of my mind. I’m drowning in the pain consuming

Chapter ThreeFlashbackArgh! Taylor isn't answering my calls!I tossed my phone into my bag as I walked along the sidewalk of the city. I love Brooklyn, New York. I was born and raised in Manhattan, but after marrying my loving husband, Taylor, we decided to move to the borough so he could be closer to his firm.I’m in a foul mood after my client canceled at the last minute without any prior notice. Now I’m left with nothing to do for the whole day. My car is at the repair shop, needing an overhaul, and now my husband isn't even picking up the phone when I need him to pick me up.Weird, considering today is his day off.I’m an interior designer at CX Company, while my husband owns a law firm in partnership with his colleague, Rafaela.I took a cab and fixed my hair as I gazed at the tall buildings, wondering if I should go home or explore the city. I’ve been here for two years, but I haven’t explored all of Brooklyn. On my days off, I usually go to Manhattan to visit my dad and broth

Chapter FiveI know I’m already wet down there and right now, I’m soaked!One of his hands travelled down on my thighs, lifting my leg wide as he positioned himself in between.“No…” I resisted but my voice came out the opposite of what I wanted to sound like. It seems I’m asking for more than trying to stop him. Damn it!In one swift move, he thrust his already hardened member inside my soaking cave and a long moan of burning pleasure escaped my mouth. He thrust in me hard that I can feel him deep inside me.“Fuck, you’re still too tight.” he whispered.“S-Stop…”I didn’t had the chance to say anything because he started to move in and out my hole, driving me to the edge of my sanity, feeling my orgasm coming fast.“Ugh, even tighter…”The hands he had on my chest moved up to my neck, gently but hard, choking me. Not too much for me to get hurt, but enough for my breath to hitch, maximizing my climax that I felt my walls clenched.“Look at me, Lila.” he ordered and I obeyed unconscio

Chapter SevenHe played with his lower lip using his thumb as he thought. I was distracted, but I fought myself to stop watching that finger brushing against the softest lips I had ever tasted.“I’ll be the host, and you’ll be the guest,” he finally said.“That’s... literally what we are now,” I laughed, but it came out awkward, so I cleared my throat, blushing after. “Okay, then?”“I’ll ask, and you’ll answer. Then you have to ask me a question, and I’ll answer.”I nodded. “Mmkay.” That sounded fine—and, again, safe.It’s good to get to know each other anyway. Though, realistically, this phase should’ve come first before the sex part. Normally, we should have become more familiar with each other before jumping into bed but... oh, well. Alcohol is to blame. And problems. Okay, blame me too.I sighed.“Whenever you’re ready,” he said.“Oh, you can start.” I sipped my drink slowly.“What’s your favorite sex position?”I almost choked on the wine I was drinking. What the—!“Pardon me?”“

Chapter NineI lost count of the days I stayed at The Hill with Kyler but one thing I am sure was: I liked being with him. I still doze off and think of my problem with Taylor sometimes but its nothing compared to the times I didn’t think about it.Being with Kyler is a great experience, and the guy is a good entertainer.And a good lover, too.We had sex in every corner of this townhouse and even outside! Everytime our bodies will bumped or our skin touches or our eyes locked with desires, it’s automatically leading to sex that kept my mind blown.I can’t even count how many orgasms I had with him but I’m thinking that its more that what I had with Taylor.And I like it a lot. Not Kyler, the sex. Am I kidding myself?Although I know we are not going down the road of taking a step of leveling up, we sure enjoy each other’s company. I think I’m contented with just that.“What if we got lost?”We are on our way to the forest to get some woods for the fire pit that we planned to use to