5. The pain

Killian's POV

What just happened in there, did she just tell me to continue whilst someone was in the room? And why didn't I stop? Well, to be honest it kind of turned me on even more. She is wild, and she awakens a part of me that I never knew existed.

Part of me doesn't even want to leave her house. But the other part is pissed, she is a thief and con woman. She is also so mean and cold. I am sure that I am the only one who felt the connection. I was so furious while coming out of the bathroom, but on seeing her beauty. My heart melted for her, all I wanted was being in her arms. I have been with many pack girls but never have I felt like this about any of them, excluding Trisha that is. The connection I felt was different from the mate bond, but it was quite intense. She took my breath away literally.

Now I have to pay for it because I will have to walk all the way to my pack. I will have to walk for a really long time before I can get to the forest.

It takes me two hours to get back to the back. I find my beta Thomas in my room waiting for me because I mind linked him.

“Man, you look horrible.” That's the first thing he tells me the moment I open the door. I just smile, ignoring him. I head to the shower, ran a cold bath on myself so that I can cool off my muscles.

“What happened to you last night, Killian?” He asks me in a most concerned tone.

His question brings back all the horrible memories from yesterday, Trisha’s words come rushing back, causing me the same pain I felt. I feel my forehead sweating all of a sudden, my heart begins to cringe, causing more pain than yesterday.

“Oh my what's wrong Killian, what happened to you.” I hear Thomas's panicky voice as I struggled to steady my breathing, clutching on my chest. I had thought that I was already over her because all I could think of was Quinn. But I was wrong.

“I found her Tom, I really did, but she rejected me instantly without even thinking about it.” I say as I break down in tears. I have so much pain in my heart and I don’t know how it will end. All I want is to feel better now.

“Oh man, I am so sorry, brother.” He simply says and slides on the floor and lets me cry on his shoulder. I have never been this weak and broken. I am happy I have Thomas as both my friend and Beta. It takes me a while to fully calm down.

“It will be fine bro, you will see alright.” He assures me.

“I hope so because the way I am feeling right now, it’s like I cannot do a thing. All I feel is pain all the way. I hope it subsides soon enough.” I just wish my words were convincing me too, all I feel is hopeless, entirely. Why did it have to be this way, I just wish this mate thing wasn’t there? It’s just so hurtful. I don’t wish this pain on anybody at all.

“I know you will be fine Killian, you are the Alpha after all, you are the strongest Wolf in this pack. I trust you and the moon goddess will eventually give you a second chance mate to ease your pain, you will see.” Thomas encourages me, I smile at him, nodding. I don’t believe his words, though. What I know is, it’s always hard to find a second chance mate. So, I am not entirely dependent on that.

“I will leave you now Killian, there are some pack businesses I have to deal with them. As you know, our soon-to-be Alpha is nowhere to be found.” He jokes. I laugh out loud, before he taps my back and leaves.

I look at my watch and realize that time is moving fast. I need to go see my parents, but first, I need to clean up and dress well. I don’t want my parents finding out that I am not alright.

After cleaning up, I head to the main pack house.

“Hey, its brother.” My sister's voice lights up my mood. I smile as I see her running towards me, joyfully jumping into my arms. “Where were you, my brother, I missed you so much.” She says, kissing my cheeks.

“Yes Cate I am extremely fine, how is Matty, mom and dad?” I say, carrying her up the stairs. I spend the day with my family. I feel better after laughing all day, and listening to my mom’s scolding each and every time we tease each other. My sister complains when I excuse myself, I need to leave. My things are still with that Quinn woman. So, I have to head to the human side. But Thomas will have to take me, since I don’t want to run all the way there.