CHAPTER 52

I lay on the bed, my arms circling around my waist with my eyes fluttering open only to close. The room was dim, only chants being heard, just drowning in my ears and blending with the nothingness that I felt. A shiver ran down my spine, goose bumps on my skin just for that second as I tightened my arms around my body, too taken to bring the cover even further up to cover my arms. There was a hole in my chest, my mind thinking and over-thinking everything.

This was how my days were spent, just lying in bed blinking the days away with the girls chanting. I licked my lips, my heart bleeding, missing my husband, missing the man who was so weird, having me laugh all day with his weirdness. I closed my eyes, not sure what I felt really. He was turning to a ghost day by day having me scared, no longer feeling safe as I lay next to him at night. Some nights he would not come back not sure if I was relieved or frightened. I bit my lower lip, my belly round now, all