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"Boring." One word. Isang salita lang. That's all it took para mawasak ang three years kong relationship. "Excuse me?" I stared at Marcus, my ex-boyfriend, standing sa doorway ng apartment ko with his bags already packed. "Did you just call me boring?" He had the audacity to shrug. "I mean, yeah. You are, Naomi. You're predictable. Safe. Vanilla." Vanilla. The word hit me like a slap. "We've been together for three years, Marcus. Three fucking years, and ngayon mo lang sinasabi sa akin 'to?" "Because I tried, okay?" He ran his hand through his hair, frustrated. "I tried to spice things up. I tried to get you to loosen up, pero ayaw mo. You're always so... controlled. So boring in bed." My hands clenched into fists. "Get out." "Naomi—" "I said get out!" My voice cracked, and I hated myself for it. I hated that he could see me breaking. He sighed, picking up his last bag. "For what it's worth, I hope you find someone who's okay with... that." He gestured vaguely at me, like I was some defective product. "I found someone who actually knows how to have fun." And just like that, he left. I stood there sa gitna ng living room ko, staring at the closed door, feeling like the floor had been ripped out from under me. Boring. Predictable. Vanilla. Those words played on repeat sa utak ko, louder and louder until I couldn't think of anything else. Three days later... "Girl, forget him. He's an asshole." My best friend Kira slammed her glass of wine on the table. We were at our favorite bar, and she'd been trying to cheer me up for the past hour. "Easy for you to say," I muttered, staring into my drink. "You're not the one who got dumped for being boring." "You're not boring, Naomi. You're just... selective." "That's a nice way of saying boring." Kira groaned. "Stop it. Marcus is an idiot who didn't deserve you. End of story." But it wasn't the end. Hindi ko maalis sa isip ko yung sinabi niya. What if he was right? What if I really was boring? Too safe? Too... vanilla? I downed my drink in one go. "I need to prove him wrong." "What?" "I need to prove na hindi ako boring. Na I can be wild. Adventurous. Everything he said I wasn't." Kira raised an eyebrow. "And how exactly are you planning to do that?" I didn't answer right away. Instead, my eyes drifted across the bar—and that's when I saw him. Raze Vitale. He was sitting sa VIP section, surrounded by people, but somehow he looked completely alone. Detached. Dangerous. He wore an all-black suit that fit him like a second skin, and even from here, I could feel the intensity radiating off him. I'd seen him before. Everyone knew who Raze Vitale was. Business mogul. Playboy. The kind of man mothers warned their daughters about. And I'd fantasized about him more times than I cared to admit. "Naomi, no." Kira followed my gaze and immediately shook her head. "Absolutely not. I know that look." "What look?" "The 'I'm about to do something stupid' look." I stood up, smoothing down my dress. "I'm just going to talk to him." "Naomi—" But I was already walking toward him, my heart pounding so hard I thought it might burst out of my chest. What the hell am I doing? But I didn't stop. I couldn't. Because if I stopped, I'd lose my nerve. Raze looked up as I approached, his dark eyes locking onto mine. Walang expression sa mukha niya, but I felt like he could see right through me. "Can I help you?" His voice was deep, smooth, and laced with boredom. "I..." My throat went dry. "I need to talk to you." He leaned back in his seat, studying me. "Do I know you?" "No. But I know you." A slow, dangerous smile curved his lips. "Everyone knows me, sweetheart. You'll have to be more specific." I took a deep breath. Now or never, Naomi. "I need you to teach me." His eyebrow arched. "Teach you what?" "Everything." The word came out steadier than I expected. "I want you to teach me everything you know. About... pleasure. About being fearless. About—" "About fucking?" he interrupted, his tone casual, like we were discussing the weather. My cheeks burned, but I forced myself to hold his gaze. "Yes." For a long moment, he just stared at me. Then he stood up, towering over me, and leaned in close—so close I could smell his cologne, feel the heat radiating off his body. "You have no idea what you're asking for," he murmured, his breath hot against my ear. "Then show me," I whispered back. He pulled back slightly, his eyes searching mine. And then, finally, he smiled—a real smile this time, sharp and predatory. "Alright, Naomi Chavez." He said my name like he'd known it all along. "Let's see if you can handle me." Oh God. What have I just done?NAOMI's POV Nagising ako sa init ng sikat ng araw at sa amoy ng kape. For a moment, akala ko nananaginip lang ako. Pero nang slowly kong imulat ang mga mata ko, nakita ko ang kwarto ni Raze. Ang malaking bintana. Ang itim na bedsheets. Ang— "Good morning." Napalingon ako. Nandoon si Raze, nakaupo sa gilid ng kama, hawak ang dalawang mug ng kape. He was smiling—a soft, genuine smile na hindi ko pa masyadong nakikita sa kanya. "Hi," I said, suddenly feeling shy. Kahapon lang, nag-confess ako ng feelings ko. Kahapon lang, nag-agree kaming subukan ang relationship na ito. At ngayon, nandito ako. Sa kama niya. Wearing his shirt. Living a reality na akala ko imposible. "Coffee?" He offered me a mug. "Thanks." Umupo ako, pulling the blanket up. "What time is it?" "Seven. I know you have work at nine, so I figured I'd wake you up." He took a sip of his coffee. "Unless you want to call in sick?" Tumawa ako. "Tempting. But I can't. May presentation ako today." "Right. The marketing p
NAOMI's POV Ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko habang papunta ako sa penthouse ni Raze. Ilang beses kong sinubukang mag-back out. Ilang beses kong sinabi sa sarili ko na baka mali ito. Na baka mas lalo lang akong masaktan. Pero hindi ako tumigil. Kasi alam kong kung hindi ko ito gagawin ngayon, magsisisi ako forever. Nang makarating ako sa building niya, nag-hesitate ako sa harap ng elevator. Ang code—1109—naalala ko pa rin. Pero may karapatan pa ba akong pumasok? Bago pa ako makapag-decide, bumukas ang elevator doors. At nandoon si Raze. Mukha siyang hindi natutulog ng maayos. May dark circles under his eyes. Ang buhok niya ay messy. Naka-white shirt at jeans lang siya, pero kahit ganoon, he still looked devastatingly handsome. "Naomi." Ang pangalan ko sa bibig niya ay parang panalangin. "You knew I was coming," sabi ko, stepping inside the elevator. "I was hoping you would." Pumasok din siya, at sumara ang doors. Nag-isa na kaming dalawa sa maliit na space, ang tension ay halo
NAOMI's POV Isang linggo. Isang linggong hindi ko siya nakita. Hindi ko siya kinausap. Hindi ko siya minessage. At pakiramdam ko namamatay na ako. Sinubukan kong bumalik sa normal na buhay ko. Pumasok ako sa work. Nakipag-kita ako kay Kira. Nag-pretend akong okay lang ako. Pero hindi ako okay. Every night, nakahiga lang ako sa kama ko, staring at my phone, hoping na mag-message siya. Na tawagan niya ako. Na sabihin niyang nagkamali siya. Pero wala. Walang kahit ano. "Naomi, you need to eat," sabi ni Kira, pushing a plate of food toward me. Nandito kami sa apartment ko, at nag-attempt siyang pakainin ako. "You've lost weight." "I'm not hungry." "You haven't been hungry for a week." She sat beside me. "This has to stop. He's not worth it." "But he is." Tumingin ako sa kanya, tears welling up in my eyes. "That's the problem, Kira. He is worth it. And I can't just turn off what I feel." "Then what are you going to do? Wait for him to come back? Wait for him to realize he made
NAOMI's POV "You're—" He stood up, pacing. "You're someone I care about. Someone I think about constantly. Someone who's made me question everything I thought I knew about myself." My heart was pounding. "That sounds a lot like—" "Don't." He cut me off. "Don't say it." "Why not? Why can't we just admit what this is?" "Because the moment we put a name to it, everything changes!" He turned to face me, and for the first time, I saw fear in his eyes. "I've spent my entire life avoiding this. Avoiding feelings. Avoiding attachments. Because I've seen what love does to people. It destroys them." "Not always—" "My parents loved each other," he said bitterly. "And it destroyed them both. My father cheated. My mother became bitter and resentful. They stayed together for appearances, but they hated each other. That's what love becomes, Naomi. Resentment and pain." "That's not love. That's—" "That's reality." He ran his hand through his hair. "I can't give you what you want. I c
NAOMI's POV Dalawang linggo na. Dalawang linggo na kaming ganito ni Raze—kung ano man ang "ganito" na ito. Hindi na kami nag-uusap tungkol sa lessons. Hindi na kami nag-pretend na purely physical lang ito. We just... existed together. At ang nakakatakot? It felt natural. It felt right. Pero alam kong may mali. Kasi every time na magkasama kami, every time na hawak niya ako, every time na tinitingnan niya ako na parang ako lang ang tao sa mundo—nararamdaman ko ang sarili kong bumabagsak. At hindi ko alam paano pipigilan. "Nandito ka na naman," sabi ni Kira nang makita niya akong pumasok sa apartment ko. It was Tuesday afternoon, at galing ako sa penthouse ni Raze. Again. "Naomi, you practically live there now." "I know." Naupo ako sa couch, pagod pero masaya. "I know it's crazy." "It's not crazy. It's dangerous." She sat beside me, ang mukha niya ay puno ng concern. "You're falling for him, aren't you?" "No. I'm not—" Pero hindi ko natapos ang sentence. Because it w
NAOMI's POV Nagising ako mag-isa. Ang kama ay malamig na sa tabi ko, at wala na si Raze. For a moment, nag-panic ako. Did he leave? Did he regret what happened? Pero then I heard sounds coming from the kitchen. Bumangon ako, suot pa rin ang kumot, at lumabas ng kwarto. Nandoon siya, nagluluto ng breakfast, naka-sweatpants lang, ang likod niya ay nakatalikod sa akin. Ang muscles niya ay gumagalaw with every movement, and I couldn't help but stare. "You're awake," sabi niya without turning around. "Hungry?" "How did you know I was here?" "I always know when you're near." He turned, holding a spatula, and smiled. "Pancakes okay?" This was... weird. Good weird, pero weird pa rin. Raze Vitale, the notorious playboy, was making me pancakes? "You cook?" I asked, sitting on the bar stool. "I have many hidden talents." He plated the pancakes and slid them toward me. "Eat. You need your strength." My cheeks burned. "For what?" "For round two." His eyes darkened with promise. We ate







