Two weeks later Kane's house
It's Friday night, and I thought I would invite a few friends over. Jay, my cousin and my childhood friend Sam and their partners came through. Shalom and I have been cooped up in the house for a week. We wanted to be alone so we could reconnect, we needed to talk.
I took time off work and she came and slept over every night. I told her stories about my mother. I shared how much I miss having her around. I didn't realize I was mourning for the times she's going to miss out on my life until the moment we talked about it.
I am heartbroken that she will never know my children and they will never know her. She was an incredible woman and I know she would have loved them with all her heart.
"Why did you call her?" I ask Kane and he looks up at me. He sighs and then he gets up from the floor. He sits next to me on the bed. I stay silent waiting for him to say something. "Do you miss her? Do you want her back?" I ask when he doesn't answer me. "No, no, no!" He says his voice low but firm. "I don't miss her or want her back. I called her because I needed to process stuff." He says looking at me like that one sentence cleared up everything. "What does that mean?' I ask wondering what could have happened that he can't tell me. And of course my first and only thought is that the father of my unborn child is cheating on me. "I was having a hard time and she helped deal with it." He says and I shake my head not sure I want to hear this again. "I don't get why you had to talk to her,I'm here, you have your cousin and Jay. Why did have to be your ex?" I ask feeling my heart break. What if she wants to get back with he
"So you're telling me you don't believe in the idea of having a soul mate?" Jay says staring at me. I smile and shake my head. He's been trying to convince me that people can love more than one person at a time and I've been giving her a hard time.Of course, I know you can love more than one person at a time. I loved Kane my whole life. I met another man and was ready to move with him to China but Kane was always in the back of my mind. My feelings for him never changed.I'm just being difficult, I love how invested Jay is in this conversation. I know he's in love with his lady or else he wouldn't be looking at me like I have three heads. I bet he finds it deeply offensive that I won't agree with him."Why are you looking at me like that?" I ask and the room goes silent. Everyone is looking at me now. "why is that hard to believe?""Well..." Connie says pointing from me to Kane. I look at Kane and he's looking at me wi
"You didn't just say that to me. I say laughing a little. I hate when men go on these types of rants. there's no way they think like this."I'm serious, I don't understand why someone in your position would worry about a random girl who's showing interest in our man." He says pointing to Kane. I stare at Jay and he smiles. I know he's pulling my leg here, he's trying to get a reaction out of me. I guess Kane spoke to him about the Olivia situation. He wants to play? I'll play along. "Do you want to know why I worry/?" I say to him but look at Kane. He raises his brows at me in question. I guess he's playing along too. If he's still wondering why Olivia bothers me so much he's going to find out."Please enlighten me," Jay says making me look back at him. Farrow smiles taking a sip of her wine. She doesn't say much but her eyes speaks volumes. She thinks I'm trpping."I worry because he gave her the idea that she h
Two hours after their friends left"We don't have much left to go," Kane says coming to sit next to me on his sofa I stop rubbing my belly and smile. "We need to figure out how where we're going to live." He says placing his hand on my belly. My heart rate kicks up a gear at his comment. I knew this conversation was coming and I thought I would be ready when it happened but I'm not so sure now."You could move in with me," I say jokingly and he smiles nodding."I could do that but I don't think there'll be enough room for all of us." He says looking at me with a serious look on his face. He's not wrong, I have a three-bedroom, two-bath. Adding him, Junior, and the baby it's going to be a struggle."I know," I say not wanting to think about moving out of my house. I won't leave my mother by herself. I love Kane and I would love to raise this baby in the same house with him but I will never choose him over my mother. A man
"Thank you for doing this with me," I say looking at Noni in the passenger side of my car. I bring the car to a stop in front of a large gate. I open the window and reach out to the gate intercom. I press the button and the gate opens immediately."Are you kidding me there was no way I would miss out on this."She says staring straight ahead. Her mouth drops open when the gate opens wider and an incredible view is revealed. I gasp at the beautiful driveway and house beyond."What in the rich people is going on here?" I say in shock. Why did Kane add this house to the home wish list? This has to be expensive as hell."Girl, this is rich rich!" Noni exclaims as the car moves closer to the house."Why didn't you tell me your baby daddy is rich?" She asks and I don't have the answer. I didn't know this was what he meant when he said he was buying me a house. "I didn't know," I say parking the car in one of the em
"You look like you're thinking hard," Olive says when I open my front door. She smiles at me and takes a step into the front door. She walks past me and heads straight to my living room. "You have the look of a man that has a lot of responsibilities." She adds and she sits down. I watch her do this whole process wondering if it's a good idea. The last time Olive was mentioned in my relationship, it almost ended. "I do have a lot on my mind," I say closing the door and head to the living room. I sit in the chair opposite hers and she stares at me. I can tell she has a lot on her mind and she's trying to find the right words. I know why she's here. She found out I'm buying a house for Shalom and me. She knows we're expecting a baby and I guess this is her here to call me out. "Anything you want to talk about?" She asks her eyes filled with so much hurt. I feel guilty for putting that hurt. I wish I could tell her this was supposed to go differently but I don't think it would have gon
"How was your day?" Shalom asks handing me a plate of food. My mouth waters at the smell of the roasted garlic and butter chicken. I smile loving every bit of this. I love the fact that we have a routine now.We spend about eight hours apart working and then at the end of the day we come home to each other. We make a tasty meal and we reconnect. "My day was interesting," I say thinking about my conversation with Olive. It was both heartbreaking and freeing. I knew she would find out about Shalom and me at some point. I knew she would call me out on my hypocrisy. She wanted everything I have with Shalom for us and for years I wasn't willing to give it to her. I completely understand why she hates me right now. I hope she gets to a point where she can forgive me. "Oh? How?" She asks sitting down next to me She balances her plate on her belly and I smile. I love how cute she looks when she does that. I know she doesn't find it cute but it is. She says my baby is forcing her to do this
3 hours later After the day we've had, I'm happy to be in bed with Kane. We can finally relax and let the stress of the day fall off. "Well, that's done," Kane says pressing send on the house offer email. "Now we wait." He says looking over at me. I smile and nod."I have to admit I'm nervous about this one. It's such a beautiful house. I can only guess how many people want to call it home." I say and he touches my arm. "It's ours. I knew it the moment I saw it." He says confidently. "And I know you felt the same way when you saw it." He says and I nod in agreement. "I knew it but I don't want to get my hopes up," I say feeling even more nervous. "I know it would hurt if we don't get it," I say letting him on my fears. I loved that house with my whole heart. I wish we were sleeping in that beautiful main bedroom now. "Baby, there's no way we are not getting the house. We're raising our family in that house." He says getting excited. "I wish I had the same faith as you," I say an