Chapter 4: Seeing them

Three weeks later

My interest in going out and looking happy was reduced to zero, my good mood is on pause since Lake left leaving me a note on his pillow with a: "see you soon". 

“You're sick, really bad.” Shania says and I take a deep sigh, while we put away all the books we used in the class.

“I know.” I mean worried.

“You're getting married, Rain, and you know it's not with him.” Shania says to me and I make a sign of silence, looking at everything around me.

Wishing I wasn't thinking about it, I walk out of the classroom and bump into someone's toned chest.

“I'm really sorry, I was distracted and...” I say looking up, to be completely mute when I see the person I've collided with.

“Good afternoon, dear.” Lake says and I start crying, then I hit him.

“You're an idiot!” I exclaim with annoyance.

“I'm sorry, dear. Yeah, I'm an idiot. But, don't cry for this idiot, please.” asks Lake, while she hugs me and I feel like through crying, I let go of all the worries I had felt until now.

Lake, he never stopped writing to me and although he was slow to talk to me several times, he told me that it was because of his father, whom fortunately he left more stable since yesterday. However, that didn't stop me from crying at night, because I felt lonely.

‘I'm in love with a man who I can't have anything more than a loving relationship with without being able to marry him. But, my heart doesn't understand it.' I tell myself mentally.

Lake calms me down with claps and without saying anything, we leave towards the parking lot, where when I get into his car, I see the suitcases that he put in before going to my classroom for me.

“Have you just arrived?” I ask confused.

“I came straight here as soon as I arrived. I wanted to see my girl.” says Lake.

Lake doesn't tell me about his trip, but, the silence is not annoying, what if it is, is his absence.

“It feels good to see you directly and not by a video call.” I say and Lake nods smiling.

“You're right, this feels better.” says Lake, for later, to stop his car near his house.

My heartburn that I've been feeling for days is coming back and I'm worrying about it. Since Lake left, I've been stressed and because of that, I've had a lot of gastritis. So, I check my bag for the medicine for my stomach, but, there is none. 

So, I sigh deeply, knowing that I must buy more and soon before the pain doesn't make me think about anything else.

“I'll go upstairs and drop off the bags and I'll be back soon.” says Lake and I nod.

“See you soon, I'm going to go to the drugstore while you're coming back.

“Are you feeling sick?

“No, it's just that I want to buy a drink while I'm waiting for you.” I lie, knowing that if I tell him that I'm in pain, he'll make a whole drama.

“Okay, wait for me at the drugstore, I'll be back soon.

I sit down and the two of us get out of the car, briefly saying goodbye with a kiss, then going our separate ways. Smiling, I enter the drugstore where I take a bottle of water, while I order medicine for stomach pain.

“Do you have a prescription?” asks the employee.

“No, I must go to the doctor about it, but, I'm busy with college. I just need this medicine for my upset stomach and everything will be fine.

“Do you just have an upset stomach? Have you not felt any other symptoms?” the employee asks and I refuse.

“Good afternoon, do you have sanitary pads and medicine to calm my colic?” asks a woman entering the drugstore.

‘I also suffer a lot during my menstrual periods from cramps that make me cry. Thank goodness for this month...' I tell myself mentally and my thoughts stop.

Confused, I grab my phone and check this where is my menstrual calendar app. Wishing there were a mistake, I notice a surprising number of delays, which makes my legs weak.

“Oh, God...” I whisper.

“Are you all right, miss?” the young woman asks and I sit in the chair, while I look at the number sixteen in red.

‘I'm sixteen days late.’ I tell myself mentally.

“Pills for stomach upset over here and medicine for colic and sanitary pads over here, do you want anything else?” asks the employee.

“Y-yes.” I whisper in a daze” I need pregnancy tests.” I say in a voice thread.

‘Maybe, it's the stress. Even if you are a woman without menstrual delays, stress may have caused one, but it is better to be sure. I'm just asking to be safe’' I tell myself mentally terrified.

With trembling hands and legs, I receive two different boxes of pregnancy tests that I take and pay for immediately. Distraught, I look at the employee and he points to the left side, where I see the bathroom signage. 

So, walking like a robot, I get to the bathroom where I read the indications of the pregnancy test and with trembling hands I do both tests, imploring that things will turn out well.

“Don't be scared, Rain, you just had a lot of sex with your boyfriend during a night where we didn't protect each other, nothing special.” I whisper in a thread of voice.

'It's one thing to give him your virginity and it's another to get pregnant with him, you can't allow that, Rain. You can't complicate everything like that no more’ I tell myself mentally.

The minutes pass and I worry too much feeling that I will be in serious trouble if the results are positive. Time passes slowly and the phone rings with the alarm I set causing me to hold my breath.

The result appears and I run out of the bathroom to Lake's house. Because this is something I can't look at a second time. So, I enter his house quickly, as the door is open and I get stressed with what I see.

Frozen in the lobby of their big house, I watch as they kiss, while their suitcases are scattered between the living room and the kitchen.

“Annia, you have to stop.” Says Lake, while my gaze focuses on what she does to Lake.

“I can't stop, honey. Because I know that's not what you want.” says the woman, who kisses the chest of the man who has his shirt without buttons.

“Annia, go back to Rome. I didn't give you permission to come here.

“I missed you; our weeks together are something I can't forget, I promise.” says the woman and I can't take it anymore.

“Promised?” I ask in a voice thread, drawing the attention of both.

“Rain…

“What does this mean, Lake?!” I scream in annoyance, while my eyesight gets cloudy.

“So, you've figured it out by now.

‘What did he say?’

“Since when?” I ask in a voice thread.

“Does that matter, Rain? It's all over, honey. I don't think you can tolerate being the mistress any longer. Just go away, Rain. You've figured it all out, the fun has been ruined.” Lake says from the kitchen island where before she left, she made me hers twice.

“So, this is you.

“It was fun... while it lasted. 

“That's what ours has been summed up to.

“I already got what I wanted, it's time to change prey.” Lake says in a cold tone that freezes me.

'Is this the true face of the man I love? Is this the man I got pregnant with?' I ask myself mentally to then leave.

Even as a human I can't stand this humiliation. I was not rejected as a wolf and I'm not going to stay to see the rejection that a bad-born human has given me. I'm not going to accept it, even if... even if I'm pregnant.

‘What a fool I've been. Silly and now pregnant.’ I tell myself with pain.