CELESTETila gusto kong bumalik sa kwarto ko ng bumaba ako sa hagdan at magtungo sa kusina when I saw him there. Ohh god he just ruin my day, if I could just go back upstair and just lay down on my bed but I can't! I need to go at school. I'm really confuse why he commonly having a breakfast here in our house. I wonder hindi ba ito nag aalmusal sa kanila his always here every morning at ikinaiinis nya iyon cause she can't find another and differents alibi to not see him paniguradong magtataka na sila. Hindi man lang ba ito sumasabay sa pag aalmusal sa pamilya. I don't believe if he can't cook for himsef cause I know that his good at cooking well his good at everything to the point that his good at ruining someone moods and day."Sit Celeste stop giving as some alibi para hindi makasabay sa almusal, sit right now" I let a heavy sigh at walang ibang nagawa kundi ang tumabi kay Mommy and i'm so unlucky his just in front of me. I want to comfront him honestly why his always here. I know t
CELESTEI was looking around the parking lot but I still didn't see him. Hindi ko alam but I was waiting for him for an hour now. Kanina pa ako pabalik balik rito. My class end at 6:00 pm but it's almost eight and his still not here. I let a heavy sigh at tumayo sa kinatatayuan ko. Masama ang loob ko, I was fuming mad at hindi nya ako masisisi kung may galit akong nararamdaman ngayon at isa pa hindi ko ata ito makakalimutan. Sya lang ang pinaghintay ako ng ganito katagal and worse literal na umasa lang ako.But there's a part of me saying that it was also my fault since umasa ako sa kanya na susunduin nya ako, he made fool of me! I hate him! I want to curse him to death! Pero katulad ng sinabi ko, kasalan ko rin dahil naghintay ako. Ito kasi ang hirap sa akin ang bilis kong magpaniwala sa kanya kaya heto ngayon umaasa na sisiputin pa rin nys pero mukhang malabo na iyong mangyari dahil halos ilang oras na akong nag-aantay rito na parang tanga.I bit my lowe lip to stop the tears seems
CELESTEBahagya kong binangga ang balikat ni Noah ng umalis ako, I saw how his jaw move on annoyance halatang hindi nito nagustuhan ang inasta ko. I don't know where did I get that confidence to defend myself. I just know that I was fuming mad. I wanted to ask Noah so bad, I want to curse him death!Its already clear that he will never choose me. Pampalipas oras lamang nya ako. Maybe he find our situation exciting and getting caught by my sister is what excite him. Noon pa man ay may naririnig na kaong balita patungkol sa kanya kung gaano raw ito kabilis magpalit ng babae pero binalewala ko iyon dahil sino pa naman ako para husgahan sya lalo na at ng mga panahon na iyon ay hindi pa kami magkakilala oh hindi ko pa sya kilalang lubos.Hindi ko alam ang dahilan nya about what he did. He never speak to me. He will just say that he was attracted to me and I can say that I was hurt.Yun kasi ang problema his lusting over me and I know this day he will be tired. It will fade, panandalian lam
CELESTEAwkward!That was the word I can describe the ambiance right now. Here we are still seating on the bench at park. Napaggigitnaan namin si Ivy. We are just all silence. Walang gustong magsalita sa aming tatlo. Napadako ang tingin ko kay Ivy sa biglang pagtikhim nito, but instead of meeting her eyes, ang mata ni Keith ang sumalubong sa akin. Pareho kaming nag iwas ng tingin dahil roon.Pinakiramdaman ko ang kabog ang dibdib ko. Hindi ko alam kung kaba oh kilig ito. Pero kung tutuusin ay mas madaling pakisamahan si Keith dahil may isang salita sya. Kahit kailan ay hindi pa nito ako nagawang paasahin, oh hindi kaya pareho lang din sya ng ibang lalaki? Kung papipiliin man ako between Keith and Noah Arkanghel ang pipiliin ko ay si Keith.Napakagat ako sa labi ko dahil naisip. Seriously Celeste pumipili ka? Napakaassuming ko sa part na iyon samantalang pareho naman silang walang gusto sa akin. Ouch huh reality sucks, wala naman akong nakikitang mali sa hitsura ko at isa hindi ako pan
CELESTE"Where did you go Celeste?" I let a heavy sigh and rolled my eyes at what Celestia ask. I have notice that these past few days napapadalas na ang pagiging curios nya patungkol sa akin. She mostly ask who I was with, kung saan kami pupunta at kung ano ano pa. Seriously papalitan nya ba si Mom at Dad sa pagiging mausyoso.Ever since that accident happen ay bihira na lang magkatagpo ang landas naming dalawa kahit nasa iisa pa kaming bahay. Meron sa part ko ang nalulungkot but at the same time masaya kasi nagagawa ko na lahat ng gusto ko pero tila may kulang sa pagkatao ko. At ngayon naman tila si Celestia na ang papalit sa kanila dahil sa pagiging pakialamera nya or baka naman nakakahalata na sya? Iwinaksi ko sa isipan ko iyon. That's not gonna happen, Noah and I are so careful."Do I need to report to you everytime where I go hmm Celestia. Pwede ba hayaan nyo na lang ako hindi ko naman pababayaan ang pag aaral ko" bahagya ko pa itong binangga sa balikat pero hindi ito natinag.
CELESTELabis ang kabang nararamdaman ko habang isinusuot ang natanggal kong top. Ramdam ko na pinagpapawisan ang kamay ko. I don't feel such remorse when I kiss him pero hindi pa rin talaga mawala yung kaba na nararamdaman kapag alam mo sa sarili mo na may nasasaktan kang iba. The image of my sister Celestia crying and blaming me for having an affair with Noah scared me.No matter how hard I try to convince myself that its okay to have an affair with him hanggat hindi nalalaman ni Celestia tinatamaan pa rin ako ng konsensiya. I feel like my Dad was really right I was blacksheep of the family. I was rules breaker ang problema nga lang ay puro ako na lamang ang nakikita nila."Calm down Celeste, calm down i'm just here" pagpapakalma sa akin ni Noah."H-how couild I calm down Noah, Celestia was outside baka makita ka nya. Anong gagawin ko" sobrang kabog na ng dibdib ko nawawala ako sa sarili kapag kinakabahan at hindi ako makapag-isip ng tama."Shhh don't worry she won't caught us so ca
CELESTE"Hey to Earth Celeste, are you okay?" Bumalik ako sa wisyo ng may bumangga sa akin. God i'm out of my senses! Paano na lang kung sa truck ako bumangga! Gusto ko pa naman mabuhay ng matagal!"I-Ivy" mabuti na lamang at si Ivy lang ang nakakita sa akin."Hey, Good morning. Ano bang nangyari at parang wala ka sa sarili kanina pa kita tinatawag pero hindi mo ako pinapansin kaya nilapitan kita pero your seem like thinking on something. Are you okay?" Nagpakawala ako ng malalim na buntong hininga at tumingil mula sa malaya. I was looking at the people on the quadrangle they were happily talking with their friends, they were also a lot of couples who's doing Public Display of Affection didn't mind if some of the professor caught them.Sana ganun rin ako, just chilling there at walang mabigat na dinadala. Ever since our path cross tila biglang bumaliktad ang mundo ko. I supposed to be on the top but now i'm slowly falling down, maayos pa ang pagsasama naming magkapatid until Noah came
CELESTEHindi ko na alam kung ilang minuto oh oras na akong nakatingin lamang sa kisame ng kwarto. Patuloy na bumabagabag sa isip ko ang binitawang salita ni Keith. Napakalaki ng impak sa akin nun dahil on my entire life it was my first time to hear from someone that he or she wouldn't be ashame to know me instead his even so look fine and proud of me.There was a connection between me and Keith that I can't explain. I am comfortable everytime i'm with him napapanatag ako just like how I feel when I was with Noah. Posible bang magkagusto ako sa dalawang lalaki? Napakaimposible talaga! I can be with Keith, we can be together but there's something that we can't we really can't. On the other hand Noah is like a forbideen fruit no matter how dangerous to take a bite of him but I just did take a bite no matter how poisonous it is. I take a risk, at heto ako ngayon wala atang katapusan kong haharapin ang bunga ng kasalanan ko.Napapitlag ako ng may kumaluskos sa may binatana ko. And my jaw