When dinner was ready, I gathered up all the courage I had within to face Toma even if I was too embarassed. I sort of lost my appetite from feeling too embarassed, but I still ate some of the sushi Toma made for us.
"Hey, uhm…" Toma suddenly spoke, looking like he's hesitating to tell me something. "…about uh, earlier."
"Y-Yeah?" Damn, is he really going to bring that up?
"Oh uh, I just wanted to say I'm s-sorry... sorry for making you feel uncomfortable." He looked down and had his left hand at the back of his neck. "I realized that I was too much from doing all that stuff to you just because you're my boyfriend now…"
"…"
"I-I swear I won't do things like that again. I don't want you to feel uncomfortable or anything bad!" My body moved by itself and I just witnessed myself hugging Toma.
I felt sorry the instant he told me how sorry he was for what he did this morning. I really do
After classes, Toma wanted to bring me at some place. Even though there was a lot of work needed to be finished, I tagged along because he really wanted to be with me there. When we got at th3 place he was talking about, I find it really awesome since it has the view of the whole city."Woah, you can see everything from here." Looking at the view felt great. I could feel the fresh breeze on my face and I pretty much expect that my hair is already ruined by the wind."I know, right? This place looks great!""Yeah. Thanks for bringing me here." I told him."…that's nothing, I really wanted to bring you here anyway and, I kind of want to tell you something."Not that I wasn't expecting this, I'm just not very surprised of him suddenly saying that after bringing me at a place like this. I just grew curious of what he had to say. "What is it?"Toma takes me left hand and brought out a ri
As soon as we got back to our room, neither of us were uttering a word. All I could do was stare at Toma's back as he mind his own business. What he said earlier really bothered me, and I think that I'm still not quite prepared to do it with a guy… but it's not just any guy. It's Toma.When he got inside the bedroom, I was lost in my thoughts and unconsciously followed him there. As he noticed that I was behind him, I pushed him to the wall which made him looked so shock. "Y-Yuji? What are you…""Do you think I can really make you feel good?" I asked him.His face turned bright red. Even though he was taller, he felt so small as I held his wrists. Was it because he was slimmer than I am? "A-Are you… I… Y-Yuji!" He was so flustered that he couldn't form a proper sentence.I let go of his other wrist and had the hair on his face put aside, I wanted to get a clear view of his face. "I always wondered ever since… who's
We had a rough morning when we woke up, it was kinda awkward too since something happened between the two of us last night. As I sat at the side of the bed, Toma noticed some bruises on my back. "You've got a lot of bruises here… I guess I was too hard on your back." That was probably the cause of him digging his nails on my back from last night."It's fine. I think I was too hard on you as well, uhm, can y-you get up?" I asked.Toma looked embarassed about answering, but he still did. "Y-Yeah. I think I'm going to skip today.""Ah, I'm sorry about that." And I should remind myself not to do this kind of thing withToma during weekdays. I'm surely going to lend him all my notes and stuff. "It's alright. I'll just lay here and try to get some more sleep, heh.""Okay, but after I get back, you'll have to study all the notes I'm going to write for you." I told him, hoping he wouldn't slack off 'til later.
"Say, I sort of remember that you mentioned to me before that you used to be in a drama club when you were a high school student. Was that true?" He asked.The question reminded me of a grim past that I wanted to forget, but I didn't want to feel down just because of it. So I tried to answer it without thinking about the past too much. "Yeah… I used to love acting. I really liked to perform on stage before.""Really? What made you quit?""I uhh, I really can't talk about that." I told him."Oh, okay." He said, smiling. "I wish you joined our drama club too. It must be nice performing with you on stage.""Hahaha, I'm not really that great at acting though.""Well, that won't really matter since you'll learn to perform better if you keep on practicing.""T-That might be true." I started to feel a bit hazy. Being reminded of the past isn't really good for me… it wasn't
I felt a light tap on my shoulder. Glancing at my back, Tomakawa was there."Woaaah, you really look cool Yuji! Just like a real prince!" He looked really thrilled seeing me in this costume I'm wearing, though it annoyed me again with his two-syllabus-nickname."Again with calling me 'Yuji' huh? You're so lazy at calling me with my whole last name, that applies to other people as well." I told him.He chuckled. "Come on, it saves time if I'm calling people with short nicknames.""Yeah right. And fyi, I'm not a prince. I'm playing as Romeo in this play. It's Romeo and Juliet.""Hahaha I should be Juliet then." He said casually, surely he jested... right?"Weirdo. Then your fan girls will go crazy seeing you acting and crossdressing on stage."He pouted like he was really disappointed. "Man, it's really hard being popular.""As if! All you do is be yo
While the curtain closes as a sign of the end of the play, I could hear the audience starting to applause. It made me smile that the play is finally over. "It's done…" I muttered to myself.There's still the final bow of all the actors of the play, but Osumu rushed to my side to tell me something important. She looked so worried about something. "Yujiro, your dad.""W-What did he said?""Your dad said you need to rush to the hospital." In an instant, the image of my mother flashed in my mind. Without a second thought, I began to ran out of the school. Not even changing my costume. I suddenly regret the choice of becoming a part of the play, but… I believed in my mothers' words.The time I hesitated to take part in the play, I asked for her advise and she told me: "Wasn't it your dream to be an actor? You really loved to act on stage, so you should go and do it. I believe in you, Naozumi. And don't worry about me, I'll be fine."She acted strong infront
"…ji! Yujiro!" Toma's voice woke me up.And as I opened my eyes, I saw that we're already back at our room. I could feel my wet cheeks and that my body is already trembling. Toma looked really worried and pulled me closer to his chest. Was he holding me this whole time while I fainted?"I'm sorry for being loud, but I'm just too worried about you. You were shaking, and, and you started crying in your sleep.""It's alright, I was having a nightmare." I told him. Now that I'm with him, I felt a little relaxed."What made you be like that? It's been years since I last saw you act like that.""Well, I happen to have a little chat with Yuu earlier… he's actually a part of the drama club too and… he kinda triggered me to remember the past, again.""That's why we avoid him now, don't we?! You should really stop talking to that jerk." Toma looked pissed as he advised me that."But he wasn't even doing anything wrong, I'm the one with the problem… an
I decided to spend the weekend indoors. Going outside feels tiring at the moment and my boyfriend, Toma, completely agrees with me. "…so, do you want to do it all day or something?" He suddenly asked."PERVERT!" My hands threw the first thing I could grab at him. I bet that's what made him want to stay indoors with me today."Hahaha, I was kidding! Geez! I was actually going to do a bit of my unfinished homework yesterday, so I'll be at a corner studying." He told me.It kind of left me confused for a moment... shrugging off those thoughts, I'll just use my day off to relax since I'm done with all the work.Throwing myself on the bed, I closed my eyes so I could go back to sleep. But the littlest sounds prevents me from doing so.sfx: scratch, scratch*I looked at Toma who was scribbling notes at the corner of the room. He looked really serious at finishing his work, and he also looked like his having difficulties. I sighed at the sight of him, it