The two looked pale the moment they saw me.
"What are you doing here, Yuji?" Toma asked, slowly coming near me.
"I… I was just passing by-" I wasn't able to finish my sentence when Cami cut me off.
"This is it. We're over Toma." She said and walked away.
"Cami!!" Toma only yelled, and didn't even bothered chasing after her. After that, he looked at me with a very hopeless face. I was quite shocked to see something like this. Did they really just broke up infront of me?
When tears were on verge of falling down on his cheeks, I walked up to him and gave him the hug he needed. He only hugged back and didn't say a word. "Let's go home, bud." I told him.
I didn't know what was the reason why they broke up, but all that mattered right now is to get him back and make him rest first. "…no." He whispered.
"What? Is there something you're gonna do?" Don't tell me he's going t
When it was already the weekend, Toma and I planned to hang around at some place to make him feel better after his break up. Though I hate myself whenever I feel weird about Toma when the littlest things happen: like whenever we slightly touch, or whenever he stares at me, or even whenever he would call my name."…hmmm, is there something troubling you Yuji?" I didn't noticed that Toma was near me, so when I saw him beside me, I freaked out."What the hell dude! You're too close!" I immediately pushed his face far away from mine."I'm just worried, you know! You looked like you were deeply thinking about something.""It's nothing. None of your business.""Oh really?" He looked at me with doubtful eyes."Really! Geez, just leave me alone." Argh, I just can't stand this weird feeling. I tried hard avoiding his gaze so he couldn't see my face turning red."EH!? Didn't
When we were going back to our dorm, it was a coincidence that we suddenly ran to Yuu. I thought he'll just ignore us since he was walking with a group of friends, but he came to me as soon as he saw Toma and I."Hey! It's been a while!" He greeted."Yuu, nice to see you again." Toma said.Then Yuu shocked me as he completely ignored Toma and talked only to me. "How have you been Yuji? I was really looking forward to hang out with 'ya.""Oh uhh…" I suddenly felt uneasy with him around."Hmm." Toma frowned as he was ignored by Yuu. Anybody would be really upset if they were ignored like that after all. I just sighed and tried to talk properly with Yuu. "I'm fine. How about you?" Damn, it feels so awkward right now."Same, same. I'm hanging out with a few friends.""Cool.""Yeah, so I'll see you later.""Okay.""Bye Y
I'm not that stupid not to realize these recent feelings. And it's not like I haven't felt this way about Toma before. Ever since we were in highschool, sometimes I'll get this kind of feeling whenever he would get too touchy with me.Why do I feel like this about Toma? I hate it. It's just frustrating me very much, and it's not like Toma feels the same way. I should get over this. If I only can change myself..."Yuji." Ah, here it goes again."What is it this time?" I asked Toma.We're currently studying for the upcoming pre-examination and like usual, I help Toma study. He sat next to me and showed me his notebook."Here, I don't get this at all. What does it mean by that? And…" He keep pointing at all the things he couldn't understand from his notes, which is actually everything. But I couldn't focus my attention on what he's asking because I was stuck staring at his face.Was hi
Pre-examinations were already over. I survived the stressful week somehow, and it was a miracle for Toma to survive too. When we were already on our way back to our dorm to take a rest, Toma told me about his other friends that invited him to a party."They wanna celebrate that the exams were over, though there's still another examination coming again after two weeks.""That's cool. Have fun there.""Don't you want to come with me?" I'd like him being polite by asking me that, but I never really enjoyed parties. And I wasn't even invited there, so…"Nah, I'm good. I think I'll just sleep the whole night because exams drained me.""Aww I really wanted to go with you though." He said, looking really down."We always hang out. Don't you get tired of seeing my face all the time?" I know he really likes me to be with him, but I think he'll get tired of me eventually.But
"I'm back, Yuji." He muttered and laid down on me. Literally. He rested his head against my chest, and it made me feel nervous that he might actually hear my heartbeat… beating too fast."T-Toma.""Hmm?" He suddenly got his face close to mine and started to talk."You know what, Yuji? I want to confess something." It was uncomfortable…And yet, I didn't mind him leaning on me. "…I was really upset back then. Cami broke up with me just because she had to transfer to abroad." He began to talk and further lean closer on my neck that I can feel his long eyelashes on my skin."I thought she was everything I could ever hope for, and that my life is finally complete, but she… left me.""Y-Yeah, I-I'm sorry about that." I said, feeling uneasy when his arms suddenly wraps my waist."I was devastated. When Cami left, I feel like there's no sense in living in this world withou
Toma was really upset after having that argument with Yuji. He realized that maybe it still wasn't the right time to confess his feelings, so he thought, he might've fucked up. After sleeping on couch the whole night, he decided to go at Noru's place the next morning.As Noru takes a sip on his cup of coffee, he felt really uncomfortable with Toma's gazes. "I welcomed you even when you were uninvited, you should thank me for letting you sit there." He told Toma."Ugh, atleast make some coffee for me too. I haven't had breakfast yet.""Woah there, I don't work for you. You can make your own." He told Toma.Toma just pouted like a kid and got up to make himself a cup of coffee. While he was doing so, Noru smirks when he asked Toma. "Why come to me?"That made Toma stop for a moment, "I don't know.""Did you got officially rejected?""…yeah.""So, are
I walked at a park nearby so I could clear my mind. I haven't slept well last night because of the incident. The incident really messed me up right now. Now that it happened, I think I can't face Toma properly anymore."Ugh." Sometimes I think I want to be with him, and sometimes I just don't. At first I was afraid of him rejecting me, but now that he confessed that he felt the same way, I got afraid for the two of us because… I know well that a lot of people will badly react about our relationship.Two guys dating? Most people will definitely get disgusted, and I mostly… don't want to disappoint my dad."Oh, it's Yuji." I stopped walking as I heard someone mention my name. Looking at my side, I saw Hino in a casual attire."Hey there! What are you doing here?""Just taking a walk, what about you?""Same.""Ah, wanna grab some food over there?" He invited. That was
"Hino, I… I want your advice or just lend me your ears!" I told him.He just smiled and said he'll hear me out, and so I told him what bothered me. "…I've been like this since highschool around this person. Even though I dated a few girls, that person is still the one on my mind. So am I like, inlove with that person or something?"After I told him all that, he began to laugh which made me feel too embarassed. "Tsk! Stop laughing jerk!""Hahaha! It's just- hahaha! You were always looked so grumpy and cold to everyone. To think you're inlove with someone seemed impossible! Hahaha!""Ugh." It was a mistake! It was a mistake talking to Hino about my problem!"Though it's completely fine, some people can really like a person for a very long time. And it's gonna be tough moving on from that kind of love.""Y-Yeah.""But before you move on, you're going to confess to that