IVY (WHAT HAPPENS TO IVY).The room fell silent for a moment, aunt Linda’s words seemed to mellow the mood, but that didn’t last long at all. Not long before that someone started the conversation again, i couldn’t even remember who exactly, all I knew was that i was tired of the whole thing. A lump formed in my throat, my head was hurting, the room was spinning. I pressed my hand to my chest, trying to keep myself from losing my cool, but none of that seemed to matter to the people in the room, all they cared about was themselves. Somewhere along the line, someone suggested placing me in some government welfare agency across the state, since I had long passed the age for foster care. A few murmurs of agreement came from my dad’s side of the family, but my mom’s side looked around uncomfortably, though it seemed like they were for me, they weren’t offering any help to her situation. It was only aunt Linda who cursed them out calling them all sorts of foul names which had shocke
IVY (SUPPOSED FAMILY) The life I once knew had shattered, and now everything felt out of my control. But there was no escaping this way of life, even as I mourned my parents’ death. Less than a week after laying my parents to rest, I sat in the living room, surrounded by relatives who congregated in the living room. It felt like I was seated in some official business meeting. They spoke amongst themselves, but they didn’t speak to me. I just sat in the corner, feeling very small and lost. I knew they were talking about me. About what would happen to me now. But no one asked me how I felt. I just sat there listening. I didn’t know most of them. Some were from my mom’s family. Some were from my dad’s. Dad’s family didn’t visit much before, so I didn’t know them at all. I looked at their faces, hoping to remember who was who, but that proved to be a waste of time. I could only recognized few people from her mom's side of the family. My dad's side of the family, i could barely r
The day of the burial came too soon. I wasn’t ready. I don’t even think I moved when I woke up that morning. The rain had already started - just a light drizzle - but it felt like the whole world was warning me, ‘today’s going to hurt’. Everyone was in black. Umbrellas everywhere. But halfway through, the rain didn’t care about that anymore. It poured, soaking everyone. No one moved. No one spoke. Just the sound of water hitting coats and skin, and the occasional sniffle. I held Aunty Linda’s hand. Tight. Her hand was warm. Mine was cold, all over. But I didn’t let go. If I did, I felt like I’d fall apart. I couldn’t stop staring at the caskets. Two. Side by side. That was them. My parents. Right there. White lilies covered the tops. They loved those. I remember them in vases all around the house. I shut my eyes hard. I had told myself - don’t cry. Not today. Be strong. You don’t want them to see you fall apart. You want them to be proud. But inside, I was shaking. I wa
IVY I woke up to a very bright room. I blinked a few times to get my bearings, it took quite a moment though got my eyes to clear and adjust. I looked around the room, everything felt strange. I couldn’t tell where exactly I was, or what had happened. My nose rather picked up on the smell of antiseptic which was way too strong, and my nose wrinkled in disgust. I tried to move, but my head ached badly. I looked around again, but nothing seemed familiar. The room was too clean, too white. It felt strange. “Where am I? “ I whispered. No one answered. The only sound that answered me was the noise of the machine behind me. No one else did. My hands felt weird too, heavy, like they weren’t even mine. Confused, I blinked and tried to piece things together. Then suddenly, a nurse was standing beside my bed. Her face was unreadable but calm. It must’ve been years of practiced compassion, because how could she not be smiling, yet still seem like she was? “Ivy, honey, you fain
IVY What? What do you mean, accident? What kind of….. What does that even mean? What accident? My head was already spinning. My ears started ringing, I wasn’t even sure I was hearing her right. An accident. Accident where? With who? Like how? My parents? No, no, no. God forbid. I immediately rejected the thought. I just saw them this morning. They dropped me off. They waved. They were fine. They were smiling. The woman was looking at me. You know that kind of stupid sorry face people do when they’re about to ruin your whole life? That one. She was just doing that. She looked like she didn’t even want to say it. And then she said it. “It’s your parents.” Boom. Just like that. Just like that. No softness, no build-up. Just your parents. My whole body locked. Everything inside me went cold. But also hot. My skin felt like it was burning and freezing at the same time. I stood. Or tried to. My legs gave out. My knees didn’t even bend, they just d
IVY After lunch, there was a change in the atmosphere. The place was turning noisy as more people gathered together in groups. Something was happening. No, rephrase that, something strange had happened. Students were standing in groups whispering amongst themselves, some people would occasionally look in my direction, like they made it so obvious they were talking about me. Was this still about the rumors?, I thought. Doubt that, because things had been really cool this past few days. It was hard to explain how, or why, but the side talks had stopped. No more pointing fingers, no more staring. So, what was the problem now? “What have I done wrong again?” I just couldn’t shake off that feeling of dread clouding my mind. Even when I tried to brush it off as normal students gossip, the knot in my stomach proved otherwise. My heart skipped when my name echoed over the school speakers. ‘Ivy Report to the principals office immediately.’ I looked up. Everyone