Chapter Five: Revealed Feelings

Caroline’s POV

Boris quickly led me out of the restaurant and we went straight home without even informing my manager. Well, she saw what happened earlier and decided to head inside so I was certain she'd understand.

As soon as we got to the house, I sat on the sofa with my hands on my head and the maids took the kids inside.

I shook my head a few times, trying to put myself together after what just happened earlier.

I thought he was gone for good. It had been many years. I thought I was never going to set my eyes on that man anymore. I was already beginning to get over him. Why now? Why did he even show up at this time? To what end?

I had no answers to those questions. All that I knew was that my head was everywhere. It was an emotional rollercoaster. Tears made their way down my cheeks and I could do nothing to stop them.

“I've told you to stop crying,” Boris tried to console me. He walked to the sofa where I was and sat beside me, placing his hand on my back. “You need to stop letting him do this to you. He's in the past. Leave him there. He can't just walk back into your life and try to be a part of it after abandoning you for so many years.”

“But it's not that easy, Boris. I sincerely wish it were,” I sighed. “If I could get him off my mind, I most definitely would. It's just…”

“You're a strong woman, Caroline. I know this for a fact,” he voiced, wiping the tears off my cheeks. “If anyone can do this, it's you. You've been through so much, yet, you've been able to put it together. I believe this is no different. I'm here for you too whenever you need me.”

I was thankful for his words but this wasn't just anything. It was Jon; the same Jon that I fell madly in love with for so many years.

I felt his presence even before he stepped foot into the restaurant. Turns out that contrary to what I thought when he rejected me, the bond remained. I couldn't understand why. It was always said to go away after a rejection. I even felt a strong pain afterwards. It was all too strange to me.

“What was that back there in the restaurant?” I asked him as I recalled what transpired between them both. “He said you are a dangerous man and called you all sorts of names. Do you both know each other?’

He sighed. Unlike the last time, there was no shying away from the discussion and he knew it. “You would believe that man over me?” He arched his brow. “Yes, I know him. I mean, we're Alphas of two prominent Packs who have been in conflict for a long time, so yeah, I know him. That's the reason why he can't say anything good concerning me. Believe me. There's nothing more to it.”

I had no reason to doubt him. He had proven time without a number that I could trust him without a shred of doubt. “What about the wedding?”

“Oh. That…”

“Yes. You told him that we're getting married soon but we both know that's not true, right?’ Right?” I asked, holding on to get a response which I didn't. “You have never mentioned anything like that to me since I got here. Was that just to get him to leave me alone?”

“I wish that was true, Caroline, but it's not,” he sighed and gazed into my eyes. I could hear the sound of his feet as he tapped them on the ground. “Of course, we're not getting married soon, not until you have consented to it but I meant every word when I said that I'm in love with you.”

Immediately, my eyes widened. I didn't know what to say. I had thought he was just defending me because I was in his care. I had no idea that he had feelings for me and I didn't know if it was a good thing or not.

“I do. I have loved you from the first day that I set my eyes on you,” he confessed. “For months, I tried to fight it but I couldn't. I should have said something about it. I know. I just couldn't say anything because I didn't want you to think that I was only trying to save you because of that. That is not the case. But I do love you, Caroline, above all else and I hope we could get married someday.”

“You love me? How so? What about Sarah?” I asked, wary of his words. “I know that you two aren't just friends. You're more than that. I believe you're in a relationship. How then is it that you love me?”

He took a deep breath. “I know that is what it might seem but that's not exactly what it is,” he explained as I keenly paid attention. “Sarah and I have a thing for each other but it's not love. She's just my Mistress, that's all. It's an arrangement of convenience. Until you came, I had never seen anyone that I could call my love. She knows that too. She knows that I don't love her. She offered to be my mistress until I found someone whom I would want to make my Luna. Then, she would cease to be my mistress.”

“What about her?” I questioned. “Do you know if she is in love with you? What if she is? What would become of her then?”

“It's not Sarah who matters here. It's you. She can't be in love with me because I told her that I don't love her,” he insisted. “Even if she is, it doesn't matter. It's you that I want, not her. If you would only say yes to me, that is more than enough.”

Being with a man who had a woman like Sarah who hated me, as a mistress wasn't exactly what I wanted. It was only going to bring more problems to me and I didn't want that. Yet, Boris was a good man; one that was surely going to make my life better if I chose him.

“Can I have some time to think about it?” I asked. “The truth is that I've still not gotten over Jon and with everything that just happened, my mind isn't exactly in one piece. Let me think about it very well and I will give you an answer. Is that okay?”

“Anything you say, my love,” he smiled at me. “I'll wait for as long as you want. I just have a request to make of you.”

“Which is?”

“Stay away from Jon as much as you can. I wouldn't want to see you hurt again. It hurts me so much to see you in tears and I've made it my life's purpose to ensure that you and the kids are happy,” he voiced. “If he tries to follow you, please give me a call. Can you do that for me?”

“Sure. I will,” I replied with a bit of hesitation. I didn't know what he planned to do to Jon if he found him and as much as I was angry, I didn't want any harm to come to him.

I just wanted him gone from my life. I wanted to have nothing to do with him. I didn't want to ever see him in my life, but as he came to my mind once again, I couldn't help but remember the good times we shared.

I turned and faced Boris who had a grin on his face, but it wasn't Boris that I saw. It was Jon.