LOGINCurtis paused to savor the view. She was totally open to him, her lower lips slick and swollen. Her whole body trembled, and that more than anything showed him just how close to the edge she already was: she was losing control, and he loved seeing it. Not able to stand it for one second longer, Curtis kissed her inner thigh, trailed his tongue up its curve. Tessa gave a small gasp as he slid between her folds, his tongue gliding up to her pulsing clit. He gave it a teasing little lick, then moved down again. She moaned in frustration now, felt his satisfied grin against her pussy. **** Curtis Manning is built from silence and scars; an ex-boxer, former soldier, and bouncer at Dangerous Curves who learned early that love costs too much. Commitment was never an option.... until Tessa walked in, all blonde curls and emerald eyes, and claimed his heart without even trying. Curtis has loved her from the start. Now she’s destroying herself – and he’s powerless to stop it. Tessa Mahoney is a former ballet dancer clinging to control in a life that never gave her any. Food is the enemy, numbers are safety. She’s determined to shrink herself back to nothing, even if it kills her. When Curtis forces Tessa to confront the truth, he expects to lose her forever. Instead, she forgives him, and gives him everything he’s ever wanted. Then Curtis’s past comes roaring back, violent and unforgiving, threatening the woman he loves. As his darkest truths surface, Curtis must face the hardest question of all: once Tessa sees who he really is, will love survive? And if it does,will Curtis be able to live with himself?
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For every woman struggling with her self-image (so… this book is for most women, unfortunately). May the day come (soon) that we all know that we’re far, far more than a number on a scale or a clothing tag. ****Tessa Mahoney shoved her sweaty hair off her forehead, and squinted at the Stairmaster timer. She’d been on the machine for two-and-a-half hours so far that morning, and had thirty minutes more to go. She buckled down, pushed past the exhaustion and soreness in her legs. Her fat, floppy, flabby legs.
She stared at the wall in front of her, focused on the number ‘109’ in black magic marker. It was written on a piece of plain white paper stuck on the wall, and it was her goal for that week. She weighed two pounds more than that now, but she’d sleep for a bit, and then do another three hours on the Stairmaster before starting her nine p.m. shift at Dangerous Curves that night.
Her stomach growled, and she ignored it. It was almost nine a.m., she’d left the bar at six o’clock, and so far that morning, she’d had just plain yogurt to eat. As usual, she’d have just plain salad after her workout that night before heading into Curves. Dinner at work was optional, in her opinion, but Tessa got the feeling that she’d maybe have to eat something, just to keep Gabriela Torres happy, and off her back.
Gabi… and him.
He came to mind now, full-blown and gorgeous and terrifying. Steel blue eyes, cold and hard. Close-cropped blond hair that he ran his large hands through when he was angry, which seemed to be happening quite a lot lately when she was around. A huge, intimidating, wickedly distracting body, especially those arms and that chest. The man was pure, solid muscle and Tessa knew that first-hand, either fortunately or unfortunately. She’d been held tight in those arms, held close to that chest… and she still felt breathless when she shut her eyes and recalled those few brief moments.
Curtis.
Longing for him rose in her, starting in her stomach and moving up her body. It was like honey, thick and sweet, and it slowed her down, made her relax and made her attention wander. She lost her stepping rhythm, faltered, recovered with a gasp. Damn him. Damn him for being in her head, for crawling under her skin. For making her lose her focus.
Him doing all of that was all the more annoying because the man was – in no uncertain terms – an asshole. Tessa scowled as she remembered him telling her that she was losing weight too quickly, and that she needed to take better care of herself. Like her body was any of his goddamn business. Just who the hell did he think he was, anyway?
But then that memory crept up on her, the one that she’d fought night and day to ignore and forget ever since it had happened four weeks earlier. She struggled with herself mightily and – yet again – she failed to push it down, push it away. Tessa was beginning to suspect that she didn’t manage to do so because, on some level and for some bizarre reason, she didn’t want to ignore it. She also thought that she was equally reluctant to forget it.
She’d been at her boss, Jax Hamill’s, engagement party. His radiant future wife, Sarah Matthews, had just offered Tessa some food, and she’d told Sarah that she’d already eaten. It had been a lie of course: Tessa had barely eaten that day, and she certainly hadn’t touched anything at the party.
Tessa had fled to a far room to pull herself together, and gaze out the windows at the Rocky Mountains. She’d just managed to calm herself down when she’d heard that sexy, rough voice say her name behind her.
She’d jumped, spilled her water all over the place. His blue eyes had stared down at her like an x-ray, hard and deep, not missing a single thing. Curtis had looked her up and down, up and down, and Tessa had just wanted to run screaming from the anger on his gorgeous face.
But that wasn’t what had thrown her. Oh, no, not at all. What had thrown her had been him telling her how happy he was that her boyfriend Kevin Masters had dumped her a few weeks before.
Curtis had actually stood there and told Tessa that Kevin had never loved her for herself, that Kevin had just wanted a hot piece of ass on his arm for his work events… and that that wasn’t her. Curtis told her that she was so much more than just that – and that he wished that she’d see herself as other people did. As he did. God, the look on his face when he’d told her all of this: it was a look she hadn’t thought Curtis could ever show.
His mother looked up at him from four photos all gathered together in a single, heavy, wooden frame. In three of the pictures, she was with Curtis, but in the last one, she was by herself. In all of them she was smiling, and so was he.“Tessa,” he said, dumbfounded. “My God. How did you –”“I called your aunt and uncle in Florida,” she said. “I asked if they had any pictures of your Mom, and your Aunt Grace sent me these. She said she’d kept these pictures of you and her sister for a long, long time, waiting for you to come and ask for them.”“I had no fucking idea that she even had any.” Curtis was almost paralyzed with the shock. “She never mentioned my Mom again after she was killed… she never wanted to talk about her. Not once.”“She’s sorry for that,” Tessa said. “She wants to know if we can come and visit them, maybe in the spring?”“God, yes.” Curtis couldn’t tear his eyes from his mother’s face, so young and beautiful, surrounded by flowing, blonde hair. Seeing her again after
"Tessa. You awake?”She snuggled closer to Curtis, made a small sound. “I could be. Why?”“It’s past midnight, baby. It’s Christmas.”“Ooooh.” She struggled to sit up, and he helped her. “Really?”“Umm-hmmm. You want your present?”She gave him a slow, hot smile. “I thought you were going to give it to me tomorrow morning.”“Not that one,” he huffed. “That one’s not exclusive to Christmas.”“God, I hope not.” Her long hair fell over her shoulders, hiding her lush breasts from his view. “So you want to give me my other present now?”“Is that OK?” he said, suddenly unsure. “It’s just that – I’ve never had anyone to give a gift to before. I kind of can’t wait.”“God, Curtis.” Her heart broke for him, just a little bit. “Of course it’s OK.”“Be right back.” He kissed her mouth carefully, avoiding the worst of the swelling and bruising, jumped out of bed, and wandered out of the bedroom totally naked. She practically drooled at the sight of his amazing ass and shoulders, then almost drool
Her smile was stunning in its beauty. “Yeah. Of course. I knew that if I got everything documented, and on the record, and I threw his name all over the damn place, he’d be arrested for assault and kidnapping.”“And you’re ready to… take it all the way? If you have to?”“You mean to trial, if it comes to that?”“Yeah.”“Of course,” she said again. “I’ll do whatever I have to do to get his ass thrown in jail for a few years. I want that fucker to leave you alone at long last.”Curtis hated to break it to her, hated to educate her in the realities of the legal system, but he didn’t want her to get her hopes up, either.“You know that the chances of that happening aren’t great, right?” he said, hesitantly. “Chances are, he’ll plea bargain out of jail time. Do community service instead, get a suspended sentence.”“Yeah. I know that.”He furrowed his brow at her. “You – you do?”“Sure I do.” She shrugged. “I watch ‘Law & Order’.”He laughed, surprised. “Uh-huh. But you put yourself through
His eyes flashed. “He hurt your mother. He killed her. He showed up here today looking for money. He held me hostage, he punched me, he threatened to rape and kill me. He did all of that, Curtis. Him.”“Tessa…”“No. You need to really see this, OK?” Her voice was more gentle now. “You need to see that even though there are hundreds are ways that you’re not him, there’s one huge thing that separates you from him, that makes you so totally different from him. This thing means there’s literally not one damn hope in hell of you ever becoming him. No matter how much you may look like him. No matter how well you can punch, or how violent you can be when taking down some drunk with a knife… this one thing means that you’re not him. You’re better than him. You always have been, and you always will be.”“What?” he asked, desperate. “What’s the one thing?”“Regret.”He froze, staring at her."You’re sorry for things you’ve done, even if you didn’t intend to get anyone hurt by doing any of it,”












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