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Dissociative identity disorder (DID) was formerly called multiple personality disorder. It is a mental illness that involves disruptions or breakdowns of memory, awareness, identity and/or perception. The condition is further explained. And that’s what always happens to me, no matter how hard I try to remember what my other personalities have accomplished I can’t.

When I woke up, Theo hugged me while my head rested on his chest. I was touched by my hair, as if I could still feel his caress on it. I shook my head, what's happening to me? I gripped my cap tightly and opened the gate.

"What are you doing here again?!" Shocked, I said. Theo just shrugged in response.

"Well, it's already lunch..Can I join you?" I looked at him sharply before sighing. No matter how many times I asked him what I or Janna did, he didn't say anything. He always changed the subject.

"How can you share with me if I don't have food. Look, I'm just going to buy my food."

"That's not a problem, I have foods here." Theo lifted the paper bag he was holding before gently touching my wrist.

"So you don't have to go out and buy anymore. Let's go inside." He turned me in so that I could do nothing more.

He quietly arranges the side dishes and puts them in a clean container on the island counter while I just watch what he does. He laid it on the table before sitting down in front of me.

He looked at me. "Let's eat."

"O-Okay.." I could do nothing but pick up the chopstick that was on the side of my plate before grabbing a spoon to taste the soup he first signaled to me.

"How is it?" Theo asked sofly while still looking at me, directly in my eyes. I secretly swallowed before looking at him.

"It's good.." I just said, he looked at me intently as if not satisfied with what I said.

"What?" He did not answer and sipped the broth as if tasting it. I want to laugh, really hard. Suddenly he answered me.

"It's delicious! Not just good!" He hissed. I shrugged and looked at him before facing him innocently.

"Really?"

"Yes! I was able to do all this —Made it for us—" I immediately choked on what I was eating before coughing violently.

"Damn, careful!" He said half hissing, half whispering. I immediately drank the water he reached for before slapping my chest because it seemed like it was clogged.

"Stop!" I looked up at him as he held my hand. I nodded so he slowly returned to his place.

Silence prevailed between the two of us, I was just enjoying the food he made and he was ignored. If he really cooked them, he's very talented. He runs fast, he can join in sport — Running. The same goes for food, he can be a cook. So it's really surprising that he's just difficult or should I say poor.

I secretly looked at what he was wearing, the wristwatch he was wearing in the past was gone. The same goes for earings. He was wearing a simple black shirt and jeans. Even so it still mattered to him.

"Ahm, thanks for the food but I hope you don't bother anymore." I said softly while speaking carefully. I don't want to be rude or mean to him. I just can't take that I'm with someone— I didn't really know. Not as stranger because I knew his name.

He just grabbed both of his pockets before looking at me. "I didn't bother."

My forehead furrowed as I looked at him. "Huh?"

A smirk form on his lips. "You're not bothered of mine."

"Huh?" He lost his grin and smirked at me.

"Tsk, nothing." I sighed before sighing. He's weird too, I nodded. Yes, he's different but weird

"Really? It's okay? You agreed ah. There's nothing left to lose!" I blinked before glancing at him.

"What are you saying? Wait—Are you saying something?" He just shook his head but still didn't lose the silly grin on his lips. And based on his reaction, he said something!

"You promise me."

"What are you saying!?" He watched my reaction before laughing softly. He slowly approached me before gently touching my chin to lift him up.

"Well, you just promised that I can come here whenever I want. That I can follow you and you won't stop me from doing anything." My mouth fell open.

"I didn't promise anything!" I hissed but he just chuckled then trace his finger on my skin—forehead down to my cheeks.

"You did Hope, you nodded. I don't need a word for my promise. It's just a sign or signal, I don't really care." I blinked at what he said before stopping his caresses moving around my cheek. It was as if I could feel something in my stomach at what he was doing.

"But promises are meant to be broken! I can break it. It's depends on me!" Gone the smirking man, he now looks cold than earlier.

His deep bright eyes are looking at me firmly. I stared at him because of that, I started to get nervous especially when he took a step back while still not stopping the vulgar stare. It was as if my throat was dry and my mind was blank.

"But not in my vocabulary, I don't depend especially when it comes to promise Hope." He almost whispered but it reached my ears.

The nervousness was replaced by disdain especially when no one spoke to us after he said that. The two of us face each other, neither far nor near. We could breathe freely but as he looked at me I seemed to have difficulty breathing. He seems to be gaining the ability to take my breath away because of what he is saying.

"The promise must be kept and because I'm promising you right now. I promise that I wouldn't leave your side, you won't be alone as I see it. I will give a light to your dark world. I can be your psychotherapy, cook, reminder or whatever you want. I'll stay by your side no matter what." My eyes widened and my mouth fell open as I looked at him.

Theo just looking at me, watching my reaction is. At that time I seemed to want to hug him but I restrained myself. What's going on? why in his words alone my mind seemed to have meaning, so did my heart. What he said was soft but .. I know what he promised is impossible.

No one has stayed by my side ever since, family, friends or not. It's big NO, it's either they need it or they'll hurt me. But his voice and his eyes, full of sincerity. That it was as if he could and could do it.

I shook my head before chucked nonchalantly. "What are you saying? Are you making me laugh? We've only met a few times but you act like you can do everything for me —"

"Because I really can, I can give you everything. I can be your everything. Why don't you try me Hope? I can stay by your side, and if you planning to make me stay away. I'm ahead of you, I won't stop you even you beg me to." He said then left.

"That man! Does he know what he's saying! He act like he's responsible for me! Argh! For the first time, I'm disgusted and annoyed!" None of my own words as the one frowned as I watched what he came out of.

I shook my head. "Let's see, no one can stand me Theo. No one. You'll also take back what you're saying now."