6

Sometimes, crying is the only way your eyes speak when your mouth just can’t explain how broken your heart is. I closed my phone and lay on bed. I looked up before sighing.

Devie came out again earlier, it's a good thing Theo didn't come today because something bad might happen to him and I might have another problem. Fortunately, I hid all the locks in the house so that Devie could not get out. It's hard, it's good to be prepared.

I lay for a few seconds while just staring at where. Nothing enters my mind. I can’t think of things I should think about. I read a journal earlier— Article for responsibilities and obligations as a person for others.

Life is colorful when you have a problem to face and you have a solution to do. Acting to fill tasks and obligations that must be maintained. Responsibilities to follow and dreams to reach. Activities that give meaning to a person’s life, like a color in a book. Signs and lessons to be improved.

I closed my eyes tightly, as if those words were repeated in my hearing until my heart and mind reached. Does this mean, my life is meaningless? I have no problem in living as normal and ordinary as others are given a solution. For me, there is no solution to my problem. What is my problem? It's big, so big.

First, I have no obligation because I have nothing else to do. Just eat, sleep and wake up. Work? Yes, it's just right for my day-to-day expenses.

Second, I have no responsibility because I have no partner in life. I have no family or relatives, friends or close acquaintances. I don’t have to be responsible to others so I’m avoiding right? That's why everyone avoids me too.

Third, I have no dreams. Yes I will admit I dreamed before but it all disappeared like a bubble. Eased as if erased and vanished like ashes because my dreams were replaced by a dark world.

I sighed loudly. "My life in this world doesn't really have any meaning so what's my value? Why am I still alive? Tsk."

I shook my head nonchalantly before closed my eyes firmly. I calmed myself down when I felt eyes staring at me. I quickly opened my two eyes before immediately turning to the open door. It's Theo.

"Don't you know how to knock?" I asked him, but he just stared at me as if i was a puzzle that was very difficult to build. I approached him before pushing him out causing him to look shaky. I secretly noticed, he was really weird. I closed the door and quietly followed him down.

"What are you doing here again? I thought, you're going to stop me at last."

He chuckled before messing my hair. "You wish, it's not gonna happen." I hope so, it's like I'm a statue of what I thought.

"Is there any problem?" I swallowed before shaking. I feel like a tree that walks because I walk very straight. I haven't been able to move on from what I thought. Why was that the answer in my mind? Isn't the conversation I'll just let him go until he's bored but why does it seem like something has changed? Weird.

"Tsk.. Tsk.. I just disappeared for a while then you were now like that. I might think differently of that." He suddenly said.

"What is that again?" He frowned when I asked him but he just shrugged his shoulder.

"We're going somewhere." I was blown away by the juice I was drinking because of what he said.

"Where else are we going?"

"Well, it's a secret." I close my eyes tightly, I thought Janna and Devie were more annoying—But no! The man in front of me is even more annoying! His name is Theo Zenick Ares! A man answered no if it was not a secret.

"Okay, I'm not coming. It's just you, you know my condition, don't you?" I passed him but he immediately grabbed my arm so I stopped and faced him.

"You're coming."

"Are you crazy? What if something bad happens and I can hurt someone or worst kill. Can you stop me Isn't it? You said you knew something about mental condition —So, you should know I'm a dangerous person. "

"Yeah, I know but your wrong too. You're not dangerous because I know you won't lose—"

"You're wrong, I've been losing a long time Theo. I have accepted my condition for a long time." He was stunned by what I said, I saw the sadness pass in his eyes before blinking.

I glanced at my arm he was still holding, I slowly removed it before turning my back on him. He called me but I did not say a word and just kept walking until I reached the stairs.

When I closed the bedroom door, I immediately sat down in front of the study table. I took a rope with a ribbon to tie in my hair. I turned on the aircon before taking out the low grade glass only. I'll just read like I always do.

It was only a few minutes ago but I heard knocking from outside. I ignored that and continued reading. But that person was just naughty because it made the knocking even louder. Annoyed, I put down the book I was holding before glancing at the door. I think I knew who is it.

"Hope, open the door!" He hissed, looking disgusted as well. I put the mirror I was wearing back in the pouch.

"Please Hope, talk to me!" I shook my head before deciding to just open the door.

"What's your problem mister?" I asked in bored way.

He stared at my face for a while before looking down. "Come with me, promise. There's no one where we're going."

"Huh? What do you mean?"

"Well, I chose the place so I know no one is there."

"How can you be sure?"

"Tsk, just come with me." He was still struggling as his eyes pleaded.

"I'm not going out—"

"Hope, I won't leave you. I'll take care of you, don't worry I won't hurt you." I know, I blinked before secretly sighing! Why does my mind suddenly respond to him!? What's going on? And because of that I lost my attention he said.

"Hope! Hey, what are you going to do?" I looked at him before sighing.

"That's not the problem, it's me. I don't want to hurt any people Theo. I don't want to have a problem. There are things we don't expect." I bowed while saying that.

He was silent so I thought he was going to give up but I was wrong because he took my hands and lifted them. I looked up at him. "I trust you Hope, I know you can. Come with me please... Do I still have to beg you?"

I sighed. "Fine! Tsk, you really don't want to stop me ah!?"

He finally smiled then kissed my forehead. "Go, change your clothes. This one, I won't let you hide your face. I'll take care of you, when we're out."

I couldn't answer and just turned around, holding to my chest. The speed of it's pulse, as expected was not due to my personalities. This is because the man did nothing but to do whatever he want that I just let.