Chapter 9

I sat on my bed and leaned my head at the headboard. I recalled the entire incident that led me to where I am. All I wanted as per Marco’s suggestion was to try to seduce Chad and to only find out about his feelings. I never thought that our plan will turn out the way I wanted it to be.

Our stupid plan has caused good and bad results. Good because it was what I wanted and bad because there’s a lot of trouble that may come the way and needs to be sorted.  I wondered if Dad will be okay soon. He was so upset and I felt guilty about it. Jeez! I nearly killed my father with a heart attack.  I know he was ultra disappointed about my childish act but still, I hope I'll be forgiven soon. 

I was looking at the ceiling and wondering what will happen to Vanessa. I know he's smitten by that woman and I don't know how will he explain about us to her. I felt worried about what would be our setup or if there will be in our situation. Whatever it is, I know I could deal with it. I buried my face in the palm of my hands “God, I love you. Please side with me,” I prayed.

My thoughts wandered on the passionate night that we shared. He was sober and I know he extremely held himself to stop but the desire was clearly visible in his eyes. Those kisses and caresses, damn! It felt so right.

I checked out for the time and it was already midnight but no sign of Chadrick in the house. I opted to close my eyes and in a few, I traveled to wonder dreams.

I woke up early and went downstairs to the kitchen. I found Chad seated in the dining as he drank his coffee. Breakfast was ready and I guess he was just waiting for me. I wondered if what time he was back last night.

“Sit down Alle and have your breakfast” he invited. "Good morning," I smiled. I sat on the chair and checked on the food in front of me. Pancake, egg, and sausage were placed on my plate.

We were in the middle of eating when I informed him that in two weeks' time I will be attending my graduation ceremony. He nodded “Alle about us I wa….," he was speaking but interrupted by a call. Jeez! Phone call again. I guess phone calls are by bad luck. 

He answered it right away and distress was visible on his face. He stood up “I have to go, there's a problem at the site,” he vanished in front of me in an instant. I felt annoyed that we were not able to talk again but that was more important.

Graduation day came and I’m so excited. I haven’t talked to Chad due to his business problems. He was mega exhausted every day and I have no idea how extreme his dilemmas with the business. I opted to give him more time to settle all the issues he has at work before ours.

“Chad is coming right?” Bella whispered while a guest speaker was talking at the podium. “I guess?” I replied wearily not sure if he is. 

I looked behind to where my parents and brother were but no sign of him. He never missed coming in every valuable event of my life and I'm afraid my graduation will be the first. I felt my breathing heavied because the graduation was about to end. I sighed. Maybe he was upset about what happened to us or maybe I'm not that precious to him anymore. I felt he neglects me continuously over his business. Or may he's with her.. with Vanessa.

After the graduation ceremony, Bella and I didn’t celebrate because she and her family were bound to fly to New York for some errands related to their family’s business. We parted that way and promised to keep in touch with each other.

My parents offered to treat me to dinner at my favorite restaurant. We talked for a while but Dad never mentioned Chad and I know he was aware because of business. They drove me to Chad’s place and congratulated me again before saying their goodbyes.

"Congratulations," I received a message from him when I was about to sleep. He apologized that he wasn't able to attend my graduation. "Thank you," I replied wearily. The truth, I am really sad. It was already midnight but still, he isn't home. I laid on my bed with a lonely heart as I closed my eyes. 

The next day, I went out of my room to have my breakfast. I was walking and about to pass his room when I noticed his door was half-open. I opted to go check on him and thought maybe it was the best time to talk about us already. Before I could come near his door, I heard him talking to someone on his phone. 

“Yeah, I know and I’m aware of it," he responded to the other line. "I have a lot on my plate right now just give me some more time, please?" he was careful. "I can sort this out. Okay bye, I miss you too” were his words.

My heart pounded fast as I heard those and I wasn’t able to move. My legs were shaky and I felt my stomach churned and I hate it. His voice was soft and caring, I know he was speaking with someone dear to his heart. I’m sure it was her… Vanessa.

With tearful eyes, I rushed down to the dining. I was looking at the food in front of me but I have no appetite. As I was waiting for him, I wondered why we don't sleep in the same room since we are getting married soon. I thought that we really need a talk to clarify things between us because our situation got me lonely day by day. 

A lot of questions were running in my head. “Does he really want me here in his house? Is he really letting me stay here because he doesn’t want to strain ties between our family and business? Or maybe he just wants to calm Dad for a little while?

"Well, you know it’s your entire fault, you dragged him in this situation remember?” my mind was fighting with me.

Suddenly, I heard Chad running downstairs. “I needed to rush to the site," he informed. "Congratulations on your graduation and sorry I wasn’t able to attend," he kissed my temple. In a few, he was already out of my sight.

I sighed with irritation. "Emergency at the site again!" I gritted my teeth.