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Sable's fingers pressed against my wrist, counting. Then stopped. “Is something wrong?” She smiled, quick and practiced. “Just being thorough.” Her hands moved to the monitor beside the examination table. She adjusted a dial I didn't recognize. “First full workup since your arrival. Standard procedure.” “This doesn't feel standard.” I nodded toward the machine. “I've been to doctors before, Sable. Nobody's ever hooked me up to something with this many wires for a checkup.” “Blackthorn has higher standards than most clinics.” “Or you're looking for something specific.” She didn't answer. She simply reached for another instrument, calm as still water. I decided to let it go. For now. “How long have you worked for Roman?” “Long enough.” “That's not an answer.” “It's the one you're getting.” There was something almost warm underneath her words, like she didn't dislike me. She just wasn't going to hand me anything easily. “Ten years,” she added. “Since before he took the title.” “So you knew him before he became…” I gestured vaguely. “This.” The corner of her mouth twitched. “I knew him before a lot of things.” Her jaw tightened. Just slightly. I filed that away. She turned back to the monitor. Then went completely still. “Sable?” She didn't answer. Her eyes were fixed on the screen. For the first time since I'd walked into the room, her composure cracked. “What is it?” “Nothing.” She reached for the controls. Too quickly. The display changed. She recalibrated something and ran the test again. I watched the numbers climb. Then spike. Sable's face lost what little color it had. “Sable.” She hit a button. The screen went black. “What did that say?” “Equipment malfunction.” Her voice had changed. Thin. Careful. “I'll have it serviced.” “Your hands are shaking.” She looked down as if she hadn't realized. Then folded them neatly in her lap. “It's cold in here.” I stared at her. “It's not cold in here.” For several seconds, she said nothing. Then she met my eyes. “Mira.” There was something in her expression now that hadn't been there before. Something I couldn't name. “I need to draw blood.” “Why?” “Because I want to confirm the reading.” “Confirm what reading?” She looked away. “Can you roll up your sleeve?” I did. Mostly because I didn't know what else to do. And partly because some part of me still wanted to believe her. The needle barely pinched. Sable worked quickly, filling the vial before removing it and pressing gauze against my arm. She labeled the sample. Then set it on the counter. I thought that was the end of it. It wasn't. She picked the vial back up almost immediately. Held it toward the light. Her expression changed. “What?” “Nothing you need to worry about.” “You're staring at my blood like it just insulted you.” That almost earned a real smile. Almost. “It’s unusual.” “How?” “I don't have an answer yet.” She placed the vial into a rack. Then covered it with a cloth. Deliberately. Like she didn't want me looking at it anymore. “When I do,” she said, “you'll be the first to know.” “Will I?” I didn't bother hiding the doubt in my voice. She didn't answer. Again. I was reaching for my jacket when she spoke. Almost too casually. “Has anyone in your family ever talked about old blood?” My hand stopped. “Old blood?” Sable's eyes flicked toward me. “What does that mean?” “Nothing.” “You just asked me about it.” “It was irrelevant.” “No.” Her expression tightened. “It wasn't.” I stared at her. “What does old blood mean, Sable?” She looked toward the covered vial. Then back at me. “I shouldn't have asked.” “That isn't an answer.” “No.” Her voice softened. “It isn't.” She turned away and opened a drawer. “What did you find?” “Mira” “What did you find in my blood?” “I need more tests.” “You're avoiding the question.” “Because I don't have an answer yet.” “Or because you have one you're not allowed to give me?” She went still. That tiny pause told me more than an answer could have. Finally, she closed the drawer. “Same time next week.” “Sable” “Next week, Mira.” I left because there wasn't anything else to do. Pushing harder never seemed to get me anywhere in this house. It hadn't with Greta. It hadn't with the guard. It hadn't with Roman. I was beginning to wonder if that was exactly what everyone here counted on. I was halfway down the corridor when I heard Sable's voice. Low. Urgent. Coming from behind a door left open only a crack. I stopped without deciding to. “can't wait until morning.” A pause. Like she was listening to someone on the other end. “I understand it's late.” Another pause. “I need to see the Alpha tonight.” My stomach tightened. Alpha. Roman. I moved closer before I could stop myself. “It's about the surrogate,” Sable said. My breath caught. She lowered her voice. “He needs to know before” Silence. I couldn't hear the rest. I stood frozen in the corridor. My own blood suddenly felt like something that didn't completely belong to me anymore. Sable had looked at my results and decided Roman needed to hear about them before I did. Whatever she'd found, it wasn't a routine medical concern. It was something important enough to wake the Alpha in the middle of the night. And somehow, I was the last person in this house who was supposed to know. I stepped away from the door before she could see me. But one thought followed me down the corridor. What had Sable found in my blood?CHAPTER 47 Breakfast tasted different that morning.Not the food, but the ease of it. Roman's fingers brushed mine over the teapot without either of us pretending the contact was accidental. Somewhere during the night, we'd stopped hiding, even from ourselves.I kept catching myself looking at him.He kept catching me.Neither of us seemed particularly interested in stopping."Did you sleep?" he asked."Like the dead.""Poor choice of phrase.""Like a very peaceful log.""Better."He poured my tea. Two sugars, no milk."Are you hungry? Do you want eggs? Something warmer?""I have toast.""One piece.""It's a large piece.""It's a small piece." He nudged the butter toward me. "I could ask the kitchen to send up porridge.""Roman.""Or fruit.""Roman.""Fruit is excellent for""Has being in love with me turned you into a personal breakfast supervisor?"His mouth twitched."I'm making sure you're comfortable.""I'm pregnant, not incapable of deciding what I want to eat.""I know that."
CHAPTER 46 Nothing needed to be said.The fire had burned low, Roman's hand was still in mine, and when I leaned toward him this time, neither of us hesitated.There was no question about what we wanted. No need to pretend we were only drawn together by the bond or that the feelings we'd confessed could be tucked away again when morning came.For once, we were simply two people choosing each other."Mira."His voice was low against my hair."Are you sure?"I lifted my head."Roman.""I want to hear you say it.""I'm sure.""Not because of the bond?""The bond has never once asked me anything." I touched his cheek. "I'm asking. I'm the one standing in your room.""You are."A faint, crooked smile appeared on his face."I'm trying to be very careful.""I noticed. Stop being careful.""That's an order?""It's a request.""From my..." He paused, searching for the word, then abandoned it with a quiet laugh. "From you. I'll honor it.""Good."His hand rose to my face, his thumb tracing my
CHAPTER 45 He asked again that night, alone in his room, with firelight throwing shadows across the space between us."What were you thinking at dinner?"This time, I didn't deflect."That I love you," I said. "That's what I was thinking."Roman didn't move.The fire popped once, filling the silence."Say that again," he said, very quietly."I love you.""You're certain?""Roman." A breath of laughter escaped me. "I just worked up the nerve to say it twice. Don't make me conduct a third audit.""I'm not auditing." His voice was rough. "I only needed to hear it twice to believe it once.""Believe it.""I'm trying.""Try faster."He let out a sound that was half a laugh and half something I couldn't name. Then he crossed the space between us.He stopped in front of me, close enough that I could see the pulse beating in his throat."You don't have to take it back," he said."I wasn't going to.""You don't have to protect yourself from my answer.""I'm not." I drew a breath. "I'm frighte
CHAPTER 44 I used to think falling in love happened all at once, like stepping off a ledge.It didn't.It happened in a hundred small moments I only noticed once I was already standing at the bottom, unable to remember when exactly I'd started falling."You're doing it again," I said.Roman glanced up from the steward's ledger. "Doing what?""Holding my hand."He looked down.Our fingers were laced together on the breakfast table, his thumb tracing slow circles over my knuckles. He'd been discussing household expenses with the steward for ten minutes without letting go once."So I am.""In front of him."The steward suddenly became fascinated by the ledger."He's looking at the ceiling," I added. "Very hard."The man coughed and studied the plaster with renewed concentration.Roman's mouth twitched."Would you prefer I stop?"I considered pretending I would.Instead, I tightened my fingers around his."I didn't say that."His smile deepened. He returned to the ledger, still holding m
CHAPTER 43 "Tell me something you've never told anyone," I said.Roman was quiet for so long that I thought he wouldn't answer.Then he looked down at his hands."I talk to her sometimes. Lyra. Not out loud. Just in my head." He swallowed. "I think I've been afraid that loving you would mean I have to stop."I didn't move.Neither did he.The candle on my table flickered once before settling into a steady flame."What do you tell her?" I asked."Small things." His fingers tightened together. "What the council said. What I decided. Whether she'd have agreed with me.""And?""I ask questions she can't answer.""How long have you been doing that?""Since the funeral.""Does anyone know?""No.""Why not?"His mouth twisted."Because it sounds like I haven't accepted what happened. Like I'm someone who can't let go.""Is that what you think?""I think it's what they'd think.""I asked what you think."He stared at his hands."I think I've been afraid that if I loved you properly, I'd have
CHAPTER 42 The envoy sat across from us with the careful stillness of someone who knew more than he intended to reveal.His questions had been polite from the beginning. His expression remained composed, his voice measured, and his posture perfectly diplomatic.Yet every question circled the same unspoken concern.How much did Mira Vale know about what she was becoming?"Miss Vale," he said, folding his hands over one knee. "How long have you lived at Blackthorn?""You already know that.""I prefer to hear it from you.""Since spring.""And during that time, have you undergone any unusual examinations?"I studied him."Define unusual.""Anything beyond the ordinary care a surrogate would receive.""The Alpha's physician looks after my health.""Has she noticed any changes since your arrival?""My pregnancy.""Besides that."Roman leaned forward."Alpha Draven's household is not an open ledger. Her private affairs are not subject to diplomatic inspection."The envoy turned toward him







