LOGINThis can’t be it, can it? He can’t possibly be my baby’s father? That would just be too cruel for words and fate can’t be that vindictive a bitch. I mean, surely I’ve maxed out my quota of bad luck for one lifetime.
Dmitri probably just walked into Lifelines, saw me, and decided to fuck with my head like he usually does. A little after-work entertainment.
I mean, why not? He’s a god amongst men and deities tend to pursue their own twisted pastimes. Torturing mortals being one.
“‘Discuss’?” I repeat in a croaky, pipsqueak voice that makes me sound like Elmer Fudd. “Did I miss something in the board meeting today? I took extensive notes. I even—”
“Why are you here?” he interrupts impatiently.
“I’m, er… meeting someone.”
One eyebrow arches gracefully as he slides into the table I was just attempting to vacate. “Sit back down.”
I stare at him uncertainly. “I really can’t—”
“Your meeting has begun.” His gaze flickers over my chest. “Red is eye-catching, but green is more your color.”
I stiffen instinctively. Oh, God. I fall into the booth opposite him and reach for my empty glass, wishing that it was full of something other than virgin anything. This situation requires hard freaking liquor and lots of it.
I stand corrected: Fate? Yeah, she’s a cruel bitch.
And apparently, she’s not done with me yet.
“You are my sperm donor.” It feels weird saying the words out loud to Dmitri. It’s like talking to your mother about sex.
His expression is a cross between annoyance and discomfort. He puts his forearms on the table and clasps his hands together. Why do I feel like I’m being judged? “I’m no donor, Ms. Turner. It seems that I was subjected to the same spectacular incompetence that you were.”
My hands keep skirting around the table, looking for something to hold onto. Stop fidgeting, for Christ’s sake! Act cool! “I didn’t peg you for the kind of man who wanted to be a father.”
Shit. Did I just say that?
Out loud, no less?
He leans forward on his elbows, his lips curling into a half-sneer. “And I didn’t peg you for the type of woman who was capable of being a mother.”
It’s like he’s just poured a bucket of ice cubes down my back. That piercing gaze of his skewers me unapologetically, waiting for a reaction.
Well, screw him—I’m not gonna give him the satisfaction.
“I handle your bullshit all day long. Compared to that, a baby’s gonna be a piece of cake.”
His upper lip stiffens and he leans back. I’d like to consider that a retreat, but if there’s anything I’ve learned about Dmitri Egorov in the last fourteen months that I’ve worked for him, it’s that the man never backs down.
You don’t amass a billion-dollar company at the ripe old age of thirty-six by being nice and deferential. At this point, I’m starting to think that no one gets anywhere by being nice and deferential.
It certainly hasn’t done me a damn bit of good.
“Just because some of my DNA has inadvertently found its way into your womb, Ms. Turner, doesn’t make you any less my employee. It doesn’t make me any less your boss.”
My jaw clenches. “I’m off the clock.”
“I told you when I hired you: this job is twenty-four-seven. Much like this second job you’ve decided to take on.” He tilts his chin toward my belly just in case I was unclear on what this “second job” might consist of.
My heart is thrumming hard against my chest. I’m so sick of playing it cool. I’ve got a breakdown percolating in the center of my chest and the pressure to release is building. His presence is not helping matters whatsoever.
Of all the men in the world, why did it have to be him?
“What are we going to do?”
I want to cry, but those sterling silver eyes of his leave zero room for vulnerability. “Let me make one thing clear, Ms. Turner: there is no we. There is you. There is me. And then there’s the fetus.”
The word makes me flinch. Fetus. It’s cold and clinical; it doesn’t capture even a fraction of all the emotions bound up in this little bundle inside of me. “Let me make one thing clear, Mr. Egorov: I’m keeping this baby.”
His lips twitch. “Why?”
“‘Why’? Is that a real question?”
He presses forward, sending a fresh wave of his scent wafting toward me. “That sorry excuse for a doctor made a stupid mistake. This is not the route that either one of us was planning into parenthood. So why continue with it?”
For the first time since my pregnancy was confirmed, my hand lands on my stomach. “Because, mistake or not, this baby is mine.”
My forearms erupt in goosebumps. Mine: it’s not a thought I had at all in the months preceding Rose and Jared’s deaths. It was always their baby, never mine. There was never a moment when I felt any sense of possession over the child I’d agreed to carry for my sister and brother-in-law.
Then again—back in those days, I wasn’t pregnant yet.
And they were still alive.
Things have changed.
“Wren.” My eyes snap to Dmitri’s. It throws me for a loop any time he says my first name, and now, it’s happened twice in one day. “Be reasonable. You can have another baby under better circumstances. I’d pay for the procedure myself, if that’s what it takes.”
Hot color rushes to my cheeks. I’m undecided on if I’m more shocked or insulted by the offer. “I presume that, since you were using the same fertility clinic as me, you wanted to have a baby, too.” He says nothing apart from flattening his lips into a thin line. I take that as a yes but with caveats. “And yet you seem intent on trying to convince me to get rid of this baby. Am I to assume that this is not about the baby at all? This is about me?”
He reclines in his chair and starts tapping the table with one finger. In the quiet of the cafe, it feels unnerving. I can only assume that’s intentional.
“I’m not good enough to carry your baby?” I press. “Is that it?”
His eyebrows cave inwards in a deep scowl. “If it were solely a biological question of carrying my baby, I’d tolerate—” Tolerate, jeez, what a gentleman. “—having you as my surrogate. But I’m guessing you’re not willing to relinquish your maternal rights.”
“No,” I snap forcefully. “I’m not.”
WRENThis can’t be it, can it? He can’t possibly be my baby’s father? That would just be too cruel for words and fate can’t be that vindictive a bitch. I mean, surely I’ve maxed out my quota of bad luck for one lifetime.Dmitri probably just walked into Lifelines, saw me, and decided to fuck with my head like he usually does. A little after-work entertainment.I mean, why not? He’s a god amongst men and deities tend to pursue their own twisted pastimes. Torturing mortals being one.“‘Discuss’?” I repeat in a croaky, pipsqueak voice that makes me sound like Elmer Fudd. “Did I miss something in the board meeting today? I took extensive notes. I even—”“Why are you here?” he interrupts impatiently.“I’m, er… meeting someone.”One eyebrow arches gracefully as he slides into the table I was just attempting to vacate. “Sit back down.”I stare at him uncertainly. “I really can’t—”“Your meeting has begun.” His gaze flickers over my chest. “Red is eye-catching, but green is more your color.
When I get to Lifelines Bistro, I order a margarita immediately. If I don’t, I’m gonna have a nuclear meltdown. My nerves are frayed beyond belief and I can’t stop my hands from shaking.Alcohol usually does the trick in these kinds of situations.Unfortunately, no sooner have the words “make it strong” come to the tip of my tongue than do I remember that the entire reason I’m here in the first place precludes me from getting drunk at all.So with a sigh, I amend to say, “Make it… virgin.”I pick a table in the corner with a vantage point of the front door and sit down. It’s quiet in here tonight, which is a little weird for a Chicago Business District bar on a Wednesday at happy hour, but that’s one of the reasons I picked it.I want as few onlookers as possible to witness what might be the most awkward conversation of my life.Uh, yeah, so we don’t know each other, sir, but it seems like we’re about to have a baby together.Cue cringe vomiting.The virgin margarita disappears down t
Apropos of absolutely nothing, my mind immediately fills with images of all the things he and I could do if we “stepped into his office.”I could plant his toned ass in his chair, wrap his tie around my fist, and shove his face up my skirt to see how well he can tell time with a face full of lady bits.I could knock him flat on the ground, rip open that infuriatingly well-tailored button-down shirt, and graze my nails down his abs while riding him ‘til the cows come home.I could make him devour me.I could make him worship me.I could make him beg me to let him finish—and beg me and beg me and beg me, just for the sheer pleasure of leaning down, brushing my glossy lips up against the shell of his ear, and whispering one of his favorite words right back to him: “No.”“ … Ms. Turner?”For the second time today, there’s a man snapping his fingers in my face and asking if I can hear him. Admittedly, this one is much easier on the eyes than Dr. Saeder.But despite my little hate-crush on
He freezes and the words die on his tongue. The only sound in the room is the irritating fluorescents—my God, I wish they’d just shut up already!—and the sound of his gulp.“Don’t you dare suggest I get rid of this baby,” I continue. I jab a finger in his direction. “My sister is gone. I buried her, Dr. Saeder. She and her husband are ashes six feet under the ground right now—and you want me to get rid of the only piece of them I have left? You want me to put this baby there, too? I. Don’t. Fucking. Think. So.”He gulps again. His throat is so scrawny that I can see every inch of the motion. “V-very well, Ms. Turner. I only meant to explain your opt—”I hold up a hand and he stops talking once again. My head suddenly hurts so, so badly. And the fluorescent lights just will not stop. “There are no options, okay? I’m having this baby. I just—fuck, my head is pounding—I just want to know one thing. One thing, okay? And you’re going to answer me—because if you don’t, I’m going to leave t
WREN“What do you mean, ‘You gave me the wrong sperm sample?’”I can’t quite believe what I’m hearing. I take a look around the room to check my surroundings and confirm that this is in fact reality and not just some terrible, twisted, Häagen-Dazs-fueled nightmare.Unfortunately for me, everything seems to be in order.The placard on the wall reads SAEDER & BANKS FERTILITY CLINIC OF CHICAGO in a sleek, modern font. The fluorescent lights overhead sound like buzzing mosquitos, casting pale white light over every inch of the exam room. There’s not a speck of dust to be found. Normally, I’m the last person to complain about a clean room, but in this case, it’s just contributing to the sense that none of this is real life.I pinch myself. It hurts.Shit. Maybe this is real after all.Dr. Saeder blinks down at me. Or up, rather. He’s perched on his gleaming black wheely stool and I’m sitting on the edge of the exam table with my feet dangling in the air like a naughty kid in the principal’







