Chapter 1

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Kabanata 1: Screwed

Sumimsim ako sa hawak kong cocktail at nilagok ko ang isang buong laman nito. Inistrectch ko agad ang kamay ko sa may lamesa para makakuha ng isa pa.

I immediately lift my hand with a glass of another cocktail and drink it fast like there's no tomorrow. Marahas ko ring binaba pagkatapos.

I wanted to forget. That's my intention for drinking simultaenously right now, drowned myself until I got drunk and slurred. Someone they say that drinking can passed away your pain.

Mariin akong napapikit nang makaramdam ako nang hilo. Isinandal ko ang likod ko sa leather sofa nang club habang nakapikit pa rin. Wala akong ibang maramdaman ngayon kundi pagod, hilo at sakit. Napakuyom ako ng kamao ng maalala ko kung bakit ako nagla-lablab ngayon sa loob ng club.

It's never wrong to fall for someone even when you know they will only break your heart. It's hurts like even the pain reliever can never take away my broken heart cause it's not just physically hurt, I'm also hurt emotionally.

Did you feel being betrayed? cheated? fooled? and being controlled?

I hate all of that.

I shifted from my seat to get another drink that the waitress served to our table. Sunod-sunod ang paglagok at pag inom ang ginawa ko bago mapapikit ng mariin para pigilan ang luha ko.

Gusto ko mang umiyak pero hindi ko na ata kaya! Naubos na ata ang luha ko sa kakabuhos kagabi at kanina pa. Pagod na akong umiyak! Pagod na pagod na! I'm tired and hurt right now. Probably, I'm feeling numb because of the pain.

My boyfriend fooled me. He cheated on me. He cheated with my closest best friend.

He make me fall in love with him, and at the last then when I already fell for him, he broke up with me. And here l am the one naive and stupid girl to let my feelings fell for him, fell for his trap. Just like a blink of an eye, I've received a news that I'm just a freaking bet?!

A freaking bet? Pinagpustahan?!

How fucking ridiculous! I teared up.

Gano'n ba sila kababaw para maloko ako? o ako talaga itong uto-uto na hinayaan ang sariling mahulog sa bangin kahit may mga warning signs namang naka paskil.

Akala ba nila 'di ako nasasaktan? Tao pa rin naman ako, may pakiramdam rin ako, nasasaktan rin ako? Bakit? Ano ba akala nila sa'akin bato?

And it worse that my fucking anaconda friend planned all of that to me. Why I let myself pet a snake. She played with me and betrayed me. How did she manipulated me? Bakit ako natuklaw sa kapanlinlangan niya sa'kin?!

Am I really that naive to be not aware of all of that?

Magsama sila. Bagay naman sila isang basura at isang basurahan.

Napahalak-halak ako nang malakas dahil sa kalasingan. Napapantastikuhan naman akong tinignan ng kasamahan ko. I raised my hand and give them a middle finger. They laughed.

"Bro Zulien, bantayan mo yang kapatid mo oh, lasing na." binalingan ko ang kaibigan ko ng may naglalasing na mata ng madinig ko ang pangalan ni Kuya Iron.

Where here at the Club, the loud music bombared the whole room, the dim and neon lights traveled all along in the midst of the crowd. There some smokes coming from a cigarette, also some bubbles flying from the above made from some liquid causing to make bubble when someones blows it. The spectrum lights danced and wiggled in the whole room.

"Cause when she turned drunked? Its either she'll passed out or she will increasingly turned her wild behaviour!" My crazy cousin laughed in drunkeness.

I glance at my brother expecting that he will forbid me from letting myself drunked, but it doesn't. Seems like he's alreasy drunked too because of his pose.

Nakanguso siya like anticipating from someones kiss while the eyes are tightly closed, yakap-yakap rin niya ng mahigpit ang isang bote ng alak habang bumubulong-bulong nang kung ano-ano. Nakataas ang mga paa niya sa may lamesa habang ang isa ay nasa nakahulog sahig. Magulo-gulo na rin ang kakulay kong itim na itim na buhok at nahulog na rin sa sahig ang pinakakaingatan black-framed glasses niya.

Napahagikhik na lamang ako sa nakikita. My poor big brother.

Kakasabi niya lang kanina na hindi niya ako papayagang uminom ng marami at babantayan niya ako dahil mabilis daw akong malasing baka pagsamatalahan ako nang ibang bastos na lalake dito sa bar pag nawala ako sa ulirat. Haha. Seems like he'll be the one victimize of those bitchy itchy leech.

I chucked drunkenly. My other invited friend are holding a phone, taking a picture of him, maybe used for black mailing him when they needed something. I chuckled more, kuripot pa naman si Kuya ko.

Kumuha ulit ako nang isang kopita nang cocktail at inisahang lagok iyon. Agad na dumaloy sa lalamunan ko ang init at lamig ng alak sa aking pakiramdam. I don't know how many cocktail I'd drunk because I can't stop myself from drinking. I just can't stop it.

We went to the bar to celebrate my promotion in the company we'd worked for also it's my birthday. I'm now twenty-two years old at ang lungkot-lungkot nang birthday ko. I really hated my birthday because everytime my birthday comes some unpleasant and unexpected happens. Look at now, I just caught my boyfriend cheating.

Some of my workmates asked why I don't have a man to be lived forever? Pero twenty-two palang ako pero wala pang boyfriend, meron naman noon, kaso nagloko. And that's not good to feel.

'Di bale na 23 years old naman exact time para mag-asawa kami eh, may one year pa at 'di naman ako nagmamadali.

May mga naging karelasyon nga ako niloko lang naman ako. Ang hirap, sana hindi niya nalang ipinaramdam saakin na mahal niya ako kesa namang masaktan ako sa katotohanang hindi talaga ako ang kanyang gusto. Kung paglalaruan lang naman pala ang puso ko.

Siguro ganoon talaga ang mga ugaling playboy. Mga manloloko at... malalandi. Para silang mga teleponong nagri-ring hindi titigil kung hindi mo sasagutin.

Nakakagigil sila, ang sarap nilang pagti-tirisin!

"Zea, Isa pa! Tagay pa oh!" I heard Fern said while giving me another shot. Nandedemonyo na naman. She's clunging to her fling, her boytoy for today. Mukhang madidiligan na naman. Sana all.

"Oh! Kunin mo na oh, ayaw mo?! Do find it a sin na naman ha?!" She said slurredly while clinging to her boy. Nakasubsob ang mukha niya sa leeg nito, nakakandong.

I looked at her almost pouting. "Shut up. It's more sinful to not to share," then I immediately accept the shot and drink it fast.

"Shit!" I murmured bago ilagay sa lamesa ang shot glass, at dahil nga nasa malayo-malayo sa'akin ng kaunti ang lamesa ay nahulog yun sa sahig at nabasag.

Napaungol ako sa inis. Tanga-tanga.

I didn't mind the broken glass in the floor even its cause some small wound on my feet because I'm wearing on my heels , I'll do just stomped my feet to them like it will vanished if I do that. Ang local naman ng mga shot glass nila.

Napapasada nalamang ako nang buhok dahil sa kanina pa ako inom ng inom ngayon ko lang tunay na pagkalasing. Halo-halo na ang nararamdaman ko.

"Hoy, Fern! Wag mo na ngang bigyan ng shot yan! Alam mo namang 'di yan masyadong mahilig sa pag-inom!"

Napangisi ako bigla.

Agad na napabaling ang tingin ko kay MC na nakatabi na pala saakin. I knotted my head at her. "Baka pagalitan tayo nina Auntie Aerida at Uncle Sean pag naabutan nilang lushang yang unica hija nilang yan paguwi!" Nahalata ko rin ang panlasing niyang boses habas pinapasada ang kamay sakaniyang buhok.

Inirapan lamang siya ng mata ni Fern bago muling lumambitin at kumandong sakaniyang boytoy saka ito naglamukusan ng halik. Napaiwas nalamang ako ng tingin at muling bumaling kay MC.

I stared at her. She had there wavy shoulderd brown hair and two almond eyes that define her eyebrows. In first sight aakalain mong inosente pero ang totoo wild. She's my cousin and my friend also.

Ini-off ko na ang phone ko sapagkat alam ko namang paulit-ulit na namang magriring naman iyon sa kakatawag nina mama dahil paniguradong nagsusumbong naman ang pinsan kong maraming dila lalo na't dahil 'di ko siya pinasama dito sa club dahil kung ano na namang sekreto ang mabubunyag nang chismosa niyang bunganga kapag nalasing.

"Argh! Our life was really a shits!" asik ni MC sa tabi ko habang nagdadabog. I noticed that her eyes were also puffy and red as well as her nose. Did she cry?

Bumuntong-hininga siya at suray-suray na kinuhang muli ang heels niya saka iyon sinuot, mukhang sasayaw na naman siya. Nang maisuot niya na ang heels niya ay tumingin siya saakin at ngumisi.

"Let's both forgets about our situations together and... let's just enjoy the party! Nabubwesit na ako sa mga problema, di mawala-wala!" She laughed at me like a devil probably because of drunkeness.

"Come on let's dance!" she happily said and dragged my arm. Maybe because of my drunkness I let her dragged me or maybe this is her last dance from now because malalaman at malalaman nang parents niya na tumakas siya.

Kahit pa pagewang-wang ako at malabo at dumodoble ang paningin ko ay nagpatianod nalang ako sakaniya, minutes passed nang biglang napagtanto ko nalamang na nagiiisa nalang pala ako sa dance floor. I pouted.

Agad na hinananap ng mata ko si MC at nakita ko siya na may kasayawan na siyang lalaki na naka-acquintance niya na noon. I pouted more. She's the one who dragged me here but she the one who left me! Traydor!

Naglakad ako sa gitna ng dancefloor kahit na umaalon-alon at umiikot na ang paningin ko, at nang makapunta ako sa gitna ay agad akong sumayaw. Humataw ako.

I neither sway my hips more and more as I'd danced sexy when the music gotten wild. Napapasipol ang ibang nakakakita sa'kin. Totoo nga ang sabi ni saakin noon ni Fern na magaling ang mga DJ dito sa bar nila. When the music got changed into a wild beat, mas lalo akong humahataw.

Itinaas ko ang mga kamay ko. Nakangiti at nakapikit ako habang ginagawa ko iyon habang nagiindayog. Masyado akong nadidiliryo sa musika, pagsasayaw at sa mga masasayang sigawan ng mga tao sa crowd na nakikipagsabayan ko.

Kaya 'di ko na namalayan na mayroon na palang sumasayaw sa likuran ko. I gulped. Nagulat pa ako nang idiin niya sa likod ko ang matigas na dibdib niya. Kaya tuloy ramdam ko ang init na dulot niya sa pag diin niya ng matigas niyang dibdib sa likod ko at para sakin hindi iyon basehan sa hindi ko pagtigil sa pag indayog.

Patuloy lamang ako sa pagsasayaw, not minding the guy who's intimidating me from behind. Even in the truth I'm already nervous while dancing. Tumulo na rin ang pawis ko mula sa noo pababa sa leeg ko, dahil sa naiinitan ako hinawi ko ang buhok ko at inilipat ito sa kabila. I feel refreshed.

"Fuck." I heard from the guy behind cursed.

I swallowed hard when I feel his hand on my waist and harshly grabbed me, I feel his hand is too warm and big, his gripping me tight when I too much more swaying and dancing in the beat of a wild music.

Kung kanina isang braso lang ang nakayakap sa'kin ngayon ay dalawa na, mula sa likod ramdam ko ang pagiging maliit ko. Masyado kasi siyang malaki. I heard him cursed for a multiple times behind my back when some guy hit me or trying to move with me.

"Damn that fuckers. Aagawan pa nila ako." He uttered deep and huskily.

Pakiramdam ko biglang nawala ang pagkahilo at pagkalasing ko lalo na nang maramdaman ko ang hininga sa may batok ko. It's smells like a cigarette and alcohol. Damn, Nakakalasing.

Humigop ako nang hangin at dahan-dahan humarap sa kaniya. Binago ulit ng DJ ang music sa more wild na tugtog ay lalong naghiyawan at nagindayog ang crowd nang tao sa loob nang bar kaya naman nang bigla akong nasagi nang nagsasayawan sa likod kaya nag resulta ay napasubsob ako sa dibdib nang lalaking estranghero.

I sniffed there and I found that he smells so good, parang gusto kong sumusob nalang doon maghapon. Lasing na napangisi ako. Napahawak ako sa dibdib niya and damn! I bit my lips drunkly, Pwede na yata akong maligaw sa sobrang lawak noon.

"I apologize." I huskily mumbled at umalis sa pagkakasubsob doon.

I looked up on him. Kahit na nakaheels ako ay hanggang dibdib niya lamang ako. He has a huge and fixed muscle, it's look so tight beneath with his button down sleeve. Hanggang siko ang pagkakatupi nang kanyang kulay navy blue na polo at nakabukas rin ang tatlong butones ng suot kaya naman bahagya kong nasilip ang kanyang well-fixed na dibdib. Hindi ko man yun nahahawakan ay alam kong yun ay matigas.

I bit my lip for being tempted.

His big rough hand on my waist crawled to my tummy and it's tickles me. Probably because of drunkness I have not time to supress my giggles and just let it out.

Nang ginawa ko iyon ay narinig ko sari-sari niyang malulutong na pagmumura at hinigpitan ang pagkakahawak saakin. He seems annoyed and... angry.

Nararamdaman ko rin ang paghaplos ng isa niyang kamay saaking baywang. Kaya ramdam ko ang malaki at magaspang niyang kamay sa may baywang ko. Kinagat ko lalo ang labi ko. I'm just wearing splint front frill trim marooned half shoulder that why its makes my tummy reaveled and I paired it with a leather short skirt exposing my milky legs.

Bumibigat ang paghinga ko ng maramdaman kong tumataas ang haplos niya lalo na noong napunta ito sa baba ng gitna nang aking dibdib. I bit my lip to resist a moan.

Napatigil ako sa pagsasayaw. Malalim ang paghinga. Hinihingal. Pakiramdam ko tumakbo ako sa marathon sa sobrang lakas nang tibok nang puso habang lalong lumalalim ang paghinga hindi ko alam kung sa kaba ba ito o ano. I'm just came here to forget about my ex-boyfriend and bestfriend betrayal also to celebrate my birthday but I don't know that I will be in this convergence setting with this stanger.

Not minding about the heat that I am feeling, I slowly lift up my head to see his face. Sa katawan at amoy ko palang sakanya alam kong may ipagmamalaki ang itsura nito. He had this coffee brown eyes reflected by the divercicolored spectrum lights. Namumungay ang mga iyon habang nakatingin sa'akin. He also have this perfect line jaw that makes him more alluring, he had a tall pointed nose down to his thin and red voluptuous lips that looks so soft and inviting.

Tumatas ang kamay niya mula sa magkabila kong baywang, pataas hanggang sa aking tiyan, napalunok ako nang tumigil ang kamay niya sa ilalim nang dibdib saka iyon dinakot.

Nanginginig ang labi ko. "Damn, Ahh..." A soft moan escape from my lips when he massaged my soft breast.

What the fuck Zuleika?

Mabilis kong kinagat muli ang labi ko. Mas lalo siyang lumapit sa pwesto na parang kulang pa ang distansya namin kaganina.

"Damn. Your so fucking beautiful..." He huskily said, now biting my ear.

Nagtindigan ang mga balahibo ko.

I immediately flopped away my head on him because of ticklings sensation that I fell... also from the heat that spreading overall to my body. I feel so high without a drug. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang kakaibang reaksyon para sa isang lalaki.

I heard he chuckled. And that was so sexy to hear.

"Uh-huh... A-alam ko," I responded to his complement. Napakapit pa ako sa balikat niya when he lick and sucked some part of my neck. My lips parted.

He sexily chuckled again and now hugging me, my breast pressed over his chiseled chest. I keep reminding my self not to moan.

Damn it.

Napamura nalamang ako saaking isipan sa mga naglalarong ideya saaking utak kung saan ang kahihitnanan nang pangyayaring ito. Like I am not the girl do one night stand for a stranger. And I am not expert about cuddling, licking, also the positions, kissing, nipping, also the blowj-

Bigla akong napatikhim saaking mga naiisip.

Damn it again. Bakit ko ba yun naiisip?!

I stilled when is calloused hand from my soft breast move to my nape up to my ebony hair, he got a handful of it and fisted it in his. He pulled that why I looked upon him with a parted lips. Napamura siya

Tumingin-tingin siya sa paligid patuloy parin ang kaniyang pagmumura. Namumungay at malamlam ang kaniyang mga mata na diretsyong nakasulyap na sa'kin. He lick his lips with his tounge to look it make it more redder, my eyes bore onto it, I skimpy bit my lips while staring at his.

"Hm. Are you bored? Want some night exercise, hm? Wanna go somewhere?" His voice was deep hoarse. Nakakaakit.

Tempting... what he said is very, very fucking tempting.

I smirked at him seductively. "Hm... let me think about it," kunwari akong nagisip kahit gusto ko naman ay sumama nalang sakaniya.

Lasing na talaga ako.

In a state of shock. Nanlaki ang aking mata nang bigla niya niya akong siilin ng marubdob na halik. Mulat na mulat ako habang siya nakapikit at nakakunot ang noo, why looking at him, my eyes fluttered and no choice but to closed my eyes and savour his sweet fucking lips.

I put my palm to his chest to push him but It turned out just like a sand that slowly frazzling just when he expertly pinched my peak! I didn't know that he's big hand were already inside my brazzire!

Ang bilis nang kamay niya!

He continuely kissing me torridly and expertly sucked my lowerlip. I let a soft long moan. Hindi ko mapigilan ang aking init na nararamdaman. Nawawala na ako sa wisyo kaya hindi ko mapigilan ang mapadaing at tumugon sa kaniyang mga halik.

Ramdam ko ang kanyang pag-ngisi niya sa pagitan nang halik. Mabigat at mabagal ang aking paghinga dahil sa kanyang pagtigil sa halik at pagtitig saakin. His eyes was staring back at me with full of lust and desire, he's looking at me like lion that can't wait to eat his prey.

And I am his prey he can't wait to eat for tonight.

Hindi ko alam kung bakit bigla siya napamura at namangha dahil sa pagkakatitig sa mga mata ko. Namumungay rin iyon at batid kong malamlam na dahil sa kakaibang init na nararamdaman ko.

I don't know kung dahil ba sa alak ay nalalasing ako o sa mga halik niya tunay akong nalalasing?

I bit my lips while looking down at his red tempting lip. Fuck! I wanna taste that again!

Because of the same intimacy of the heat his giving me. I rushedly put up my hand as I rolled up my arms to his neck tightly, I pulled him and then reached for his lips and kissed it torridly like what he do to me. His hand back again to my waist and gripped it tightly as he kissed me back through the same intimacy.

He bit my lower lip and I bit his lip too. We both groan. Mas humihigpit ang yakap niya saakin gaya nang pagkahigpit nang pagkayap ko sakaniyang leeg.

Nang tumigil ang paghahalikan ay hinawakan niya ang panga ko at saka nagsalita. "You're a fast learner huh?" he sexily said while grinning.

Muli niya akong hinapit at parang may bilyong-bilyong kuryente ang dumaloy saaking katawan at bawat hibla nang aking katawan ay parang dinaluyan ng ilang libong boltahe ng may tumutusok saakin na kung anong matigas na bagay.

Napasinghap ako nang bigla nalamang may naramdam akong umbok sakaniyang gitna na tumatama saaking tiyan. And I am not a saint to not even know 'bout that!

Just Fuck! He's turned on! What am I going to do?