Chapter 3

I am sore!

That was I already felt right now. Masakit parin ang pagitan nang hita ko hanggang sa magcommute ako pauwi nang condominium ko. Hindi muna ako uuwi sa bahay, ayoko. Memories of that night repeatedly gushing through my mind like a raging waves. Hindi pa rin magsink-in saakin na ibinigay ko ang sarili ko sa 'di ko kakilalang lalaki.

Sapo-sapo ko ang ulo ko habang nakaupo sa may wooden chair ko. Uminom na ako kaganina nang paracetamol gamot sa hangover at saka nag-shower na rin.

Sumimsim ako nang kape habang natutulala pa rin. Occupying my mind na bakit ko ba hinayaan ang sarili ko na magpasuklob sa init na pakiramdam nang pagnanasa kagabi?

I been get drunked because of alcohol but I'm pretty sure that I'll go home safely, I merely rejecting guys or even my workmates to send me home when we were partying, cause I can drive naman and I can control my self to go home alone, but what happend last night?! I've already give in to a man to a stranger! I don't even know him! And who's that fucking man again?!

Hindi naman ako yung tipong babaeng sasama na lang talaga sa mga estranghero pero yung estrangherong kasing iyon ay kakaiba. Yes, I accept the fact that I was really intoxicated last night that probably I came from the stage that I easily get mugged when he invited me to go some where else, I didn't recline or reject him and I'm pretty remembered that I was agreeing to be accompanied by him.

Pakiramdam ko, para akong batang bigla-bigla nalang sumama sa isang estranghero na naghandog lang sa'kin nang isang pagkaing hindi ko matatanggihan. Napakagat ako nang labi.

Inis akong napasuklay nang buhok ko gamit ang mga palad ko bago tumingala at pumikit nang mariin. Why I'd go to the bar last night? Of course to forget! But that's absurd! Cause even I forget my ex and thier betrayal to me. Now I can't forget what the stranger do to me last night!

I gritted my teeth when I remember something. She left me on the bar last night so that steamy night happens! Dapat binantayan niya na lang ako doon para hindi ako naging wild. O 'di kaya tinalian niya nalang ako!

Sabi ko nga eh! Tama nga naman siya! That when I get drunked I'd either passed out or have an increasingly wild behavior. But the setting was reversed! I have an increasingly wild behavior because of drunkness before I'd passed out with the man I bed with!

Inis akong humarap sa salamin at nag-ayos para pumuntang trabaho. Kumuha ako nang liquid foundation at nilagay 'to sa'king mukha and I prefer to put coral pink lipstick into my plump lips. I didn't impertinent to put some blush-on to my cheeks, because it's already naturally rosey and pinkish, It more highlighted because of my furiuos emotion now.

Umupo ako sa kama ko saka kinapa ang black heels ko, akma ko itong susuotin sa paa ko nang may maramdaman ako dito. I bowed my head down and look at the back of my foot. My lips parted when I saw some little small wounds on it, possibly it cause by the small pieces of the crystal glass of I broke yesterday night.

Kaya pala paika-ika ang lakad ko kanina.

I let out a heavy sigh and wear my heels. Ang mga maliit kong sugat sa may paanan ko ay ebidensya na hindi panaginip ang nangyari kagabi!

Inayos ko ang squaredneck shirred-ruffled brown dress ko bago lumabas ako nang kotse ko at pumunta sa may desk ko. Binati ako nang security guard at mga nakakasalubong ko papasok bago tumaas ng elevator.

Nagtumunog na ang elevator kung saan ang tamang distinasyon ay bumungad saakin ang mga kaibigan at mga kaempleyado kong nakakahalubilo ko araw-araw, ilang minutong batian at ngitian pa ang lumipas bago ako maupo sa aking desk. I fixed my table and put my things on the side.

"Zea!" pamilyar na boses ni Fern ang narinig ko kaya naman ay napatungo ang paningin ko sakaniya. Bahagya siyang tumabi sa'akin at nagbeso, bago niya ako nginisihang parang aso.

"So... How was last night?" Paunang bungad niya na nakangisi pa saka bahagya akong kinurot sa may bandang tagiliran, nanunukso. My both brows furrowed.

How was last night? You know it was the best.

Tinabig ko ang kamay niyang kumurot saakin saka ko siya tinaasan ng kilay. I swallowed hard and looked away. I busied my self from my doing trying to ignore her topic. Damn.

"What 'how was last night?' are you saying Fern? Iniwan niyo kaya ako nina MC kaya... ano, I feel tired and tipsy so... I go home e-early." Alibi ko saka nagiwas muli ng tingin. I don't wanna tell them what actually happend, because I'm pretty sure that they'll will teased me all day. Lalo na't di ko kilala and nakasiping ko kagabi, nahihiya ako sa sarili ko.

Isn't that I don't trust them, l'm just buying time and advanced thinking about the future.

Ngumuso siya na tila nagpipigil nang ngiti. "Sus... Anong iniwan ka namin?! Dont lie to me! Kilalang kilala kaya kita, you don't face who you talked to when your lying, your brows are twitching too!"

Nanlamig ako. I looked up to her and see her evil eyes and grinning teeth. If my mind are full of imagination, I already imagined her has a horn on her forehead.

"Nakita ka kaya namin ni Mara na nakakarga sa isang lalaki na halos ayaw mong pakawalan habang pinupogpog mo nang halik. You look like a wild cat attacking you're prey! Kapit na kapit sakaniya na parang ayaw mo siyang pakawalan!"

Humalakhak siya na parang si Hudas. She even slammed her hand on my desk because of dying in laughter.

My eyes grew wide as my jaw dropped from what she said. "Hoy! What's running now on your mind? Wag kang umiisip nang kababalaghan pati ako nadadamay pa ay kaberdehan nang utak m-mo!" Bumusangot ako pagkatapos noon at nag-kross ng braso saka yumuko.

Nahihiya talaga akong umamin. Ang lalaking naka one-night stand ko kagabi ay hindi ko man lang nakausap. Wala rin akong matandaang ibinigay niya ang pangalan saakin.

S'yempre one night-stand nga, kahit magpalitan pa kami nang pangalan paniguradong malilimutan rin yun dahil wala naman rin yung kwenta. Dahil hindi na rin maglalandas pa nang daanan o magkikita pang muli.

Tinaas ko ang ulo ko at binalingan siya. Nanlaki ang mata ko nang nakita ko siya nakangisi na naman saakin habang nakapangalumbaba at hinihimas ang kanyang baba na parang may iniisip.

"Hmm... I wonder. Ano kayang ginawa niyo pagkatapos niyong umalis nang club?" Tumingin siya saakin nang nanunukso.

"Saan kayo pumunta pagkatapos?" tanong niya.

Napalunok ako.

Memories of last night where I end up with a guy flashed like a raging wave on my mind. I remember how I moan, how I gasp for air, how I beg for him to give me more that night. I was really not on my self that time, I felt bewitched. Like a kitten always obey for a beast, afraid that the beast must stop from giving commands.

Napanguso ako saka napailing. I flopped my head from the other direction to Fern not see my flushed cheeks.

Kinunotan ko nalang siya nang noo. Binago ang topic para mawala ang usapan. "Uh... Asan nga pala si MC? B-bakit 'di pumasok ha? 'Di niya rin ako tinawagan kanina?" tanong ko na nakangiti. Still flushed.

'Di ko alam kong ngiti ba talaga yun o nakangiwi. Nagtanong lang naman ako para makaiwas sa topic dahil kahit alam ko naman ang sagot.

Lumipat siya sa tabi ko at nameywang bago sumagot. Pinatong niya ang kanyang kamay sa may ibabaw ng desk ko. Siguro naiwala ko na ang topic ng usapan, baka kasi kung saan pa mapunta ang usapan kung ipagpatuloy pa ang topic na yun.

Hay! Thank Goodness!

"Uh si Mara? Ayun na tulog tulog ang ingrata. Pagod daw siya kagabi at ayun nabad-trip pa kasi umuwi na galing ng Florida ang mga parents niya paniguradong malalaman nila ng malalaman ang ginawa niya kagabi, ground pa naman tapos di pa nagpaalamam. Tsaka sa din niya magpa-file mona daw siya nang leave. I don't even what was her reasons, she doesn't share a secret with us. It's too private daw." she pouted, pinaikot-ikot niya na ang ballpen sakanyang daliri na kinuha niya mula sa may buhok niya na katali.

Tumango nalang ako at inalala ang kaibigan. MC must be grounded now, panigurado na yon. Lalo na't nakuwi na sina tita at tiyo galing bansa. For sure now I know why she's on leave, presumably her cards now are already freeze also her bank accounts and she must no allowance for now. If I were on her shoe i'll must be a rebel too.

I dont wanna be cage nor be held in neck. Like a bird that been caged but have no wings to fly. So I must proud to my parents that they aren't really strict on by me. They didn't try to freeze my cards nor my bank accounts perhaps I'm few days grounded plus no gadgets, but that was fine to me. But there are sometimes orders from them that I can't just ignore, I really love my parents so I’ve always follow there commands even its contrary and opposite with my own opinion nor decisions.

Nakakasahod na rin naman ako nang sarili kong panggastos sa mga pangangailangan ko 'di na rin ako umaasa pa sa pera na pinapatakbo nang kompanya namin. I want to be independent, I'll just asked money when I really needed it or if its really important.

I jolted from where I seated when Fern mockingly hit me with her pen in my forehead. Hinimas-himas ko ang noo ko gamit ang isang palad. Sinamaan ko siya nang tingin. Kung manakit pabigla-bigla.

"Hoy pilak! Wag mo nang chini-change ang topic! So what happens next after he carry you? Did he do something to you?" nangimimbestiga niyang ani.

Remembering the 'something' he do to me makes me flushed. I remember also his face how he's enjoying it makes me flushed more. Sweating hair, closed eyes, his heavy breathing and how he sexily biting his wet redder lips.

I put my two palms in the both flushed cheeks. "T-the next happens after we out to the bar is some blurred... but I know that we kissed, we touched and we... we..." Napalunok ako.

"Aha! See?! Wala pa akong sinasabi." she suddenly teased. "Nago-overthink ka na agad! Fishes always catched by their mouth!" She laughed.

Hinintay ko siyang matapos humalakhak bago siya siya tumikhim at tumahimik.

"Okieee, Let me clarify that." winawagayway niya sa ere ang kaniyang hintuturo na para bang may sinosolve na formula sa hangin.

Tumingin siya saakin nang nangaasar bago ako sagutin. "Did you to...Uh, you two fucked? Like this," she vulgary said and she even show me her finger, her right sign a penny sign and the left hand was pointed to the right one.

My eyes widened from her vulgary!

Nahigop ako nang hangin. Mabilis ko siyang binalingan ng may nanlalaking mga mata. Kung umiinom siguro ako nang tubig ngayon kanina pa ako nabilaukan. Bakit ba ganito kabulgar masyado ang kaibigan ko? Ang akala ko naitapon ko na ang topic na iyon sa kanyang utak yun pala mas para bang na stock na.

"Yes! I mean N-no? No!...Yes na hindi!" hindi ko siguradong sagot.

"We? Wee?" she grimaced. Her eyes are now are turned chinky examining me, like cop investigating to her prisoner for some evidence that may find the convict guilty.

And I'm guilty.

My forehead began to sweat even my hand. "Hindi nga." pagiwas ko ng tingin sakanya ngunit inilapit niya pa saakin ang kanyang mukha para mas lalo pa akong bumusangot sakanya.

"Baka inuuto mo lang ako?" she wriggle her eyebrow at me. Why is she so very mischievous?

I suddenly flopped my head because of that thought. My cheeks burned thinking about those steamy night.

Nanlalaki ng mga mata niyang nakatingin saakin habang nakaperfect 'O' ang hugis ng kaniyang mga labi. Tinuro-turo niya akong gamit ang kaniya hintuturong daliri sa harap nang aking mukha. "Your blushing!" sita niya sabay turo ulit saakin na tila batang naaaliw.

"I'm not! Sinabing ngang hindi eh!" ani ko, naasar na ako.

"Bakit ka nagagalit? Binitin ka ba niya?"

Huh? Bakit niya naman ako bibitinin?

Binitin. Napanguso ako.

But when I’ve immidiately clear in my mind what she said, I abruptly spoke.

"Shut up!"

Hinilot ko ang sintido ko saka naasar siyang binalingan ng masamang tingin. "Bakit kasi 'di ka naniniwala?" kulang nalang magdabog ako, kaso nalimutan ko palang may sugat pa ako sa paa saka masakit rin ang magkabila ko pang hita.

"Ano ka? Nagsinungaling ka kaya saamin na umuwi ka agad kagabi so ano nalang iisipin ko, malamang 'di ka naman magsasabi ng totoo." she infiltrate her curly hair. Then she playfully rolled her eyes on me.

Of course umuwi talaga ako nang maaga pagkatapos nang nagyari kagabi! Anong gusto niyang gawin ko? Mag stay doon sa isang kwarto habang katabi ang estrangherong lalaki hanggang abutin kami nang umaga.

That's ridiculous!

Pagkatapos ang nagyari nang gabing iyon ay umuwi kaagad ako. Bumaba ako nang hotel at iniwan siyang tulog doon. Nagtaxi nalang akong pauwi sa condo unit ko.

"Kung 'di ka pa talaga namin nakita ni Mara na nagmamadaling umalis kasama nung guy kagabi ay hinablot ka na namin." Sermon niya.

Nakita na pala nila na inaalis na ako ng lalaki sa lugar na iyon pero di pa rin nila ako hinila paalis. Paano nalang kung may masamang intensyon saakin ang lalake? Paano nalang kung na raped ako? Kinidnapped? O kaya naman ay may gawing hindi maganda?

"Buti nalang talaga at namukhaan namin yung lalaki. So for all men that attached to you. He is the one fine that okay with us... for you, kaya me and Mara decided you to come along with that man so you can continue your..." pabitin niyang ani.

Tumingin siya saakin ng may nanunuksong tingin. Pinakita niya ulit sakin yung daliri niyang mas nakakalaswang meaning.

My two eyebrow began to connect from what she say. "What?! You allow that guy take me away from the bar? Why you two didn't stop him! You saw him already getting me!"

"Gusto mo naman."

Napalabi ako.

What are they are! I cant believe them! They let them that guy come along outside the bar not stopping him or probably dragged me. Wala naman akong sinisisinsi nangyari, kasalanan ko namang humantong ako sa ganoong sitwasyon. Even the guy I also can't blame him, presumably he was drunked too and I am the one begging for to gave me more, he just only grant that.

Gusto kong maiyak sa nangyari. Gusto ko rin iumpog ang sarili ko dahil sa talaga hinayaan ko ang sarili kong maging alipin sa init ng mundong pagnanasa.

"Stop? Haha. How would we do that? Para ka na ngang tarsier na mahigpit na kapalupot sa isang matigas at makisig na puno. So tell how would we stop him if you are the one who wouldn't stop..." she chuckled to me.

My face flushed. I remember how he carry me like a soft cotton as his lips is. His kisses were soft like a cotton candy. Sweet and danglingly.

"So tell about us what going on that night huh? Tell me. Matagal na tayong magkaibigan wag ka nang magmaang-mangan pa alam kong may nangyari. Now tell me the details." para bang excited na batang saad niya saakin.

Ang kulit niya talaga. Promise!

"Tell me about w-what?" I confused and nervously asked in her even i've although know what's the real answer.

Hinampas niya ako sa balikat. Napahawak naman ako dito.

"Sabihin mo na. Dont be shy... Wag ka nang mahiya—wala tayo noon!"

Hinimas-himas ko ang brasong hinampas niya kaganina. Sinamaan ko siya nang tingin. Ang sadista.

"Alam mo naman pala, ba't nagtanong ka pa... Yes, fine! Talo na ako sa kakulitan mo! We already did it, he took my virginity when we arrived at the room, we kissed tapos ayun na, Di na ako virgin! Tapos!" Mamula-mula ang mukha ko pagtapos non.

Narinig ko ang kaniyang marahas na pagsinghap and ang paggalaw galaw ng kanyang katawan. Parang butiting binudburan ng asin. "So... Oh my god! Its true! May nangyari nga! I cant believe it our baby Pilak is now a graduate!" Humalakhak siya. Halos tumalon-talon na siya habang nagtitili. Para siyang nanalo sa lotto nang bilyong-bilyong pa premyo na may kasamang house and lot from Camila plus two mercedez benz.

Napailing nalang ako at napangisi. Paniguradong mamaya-maya lang makakarating na ang balitang iyan kay MC. Iba talaga, may pakpak ang balita.

Napaangat ako ng tingin nang napatigil sa pagtili si Fern at nang may narinig akong pagtikhim.

Nakita ko ang isang supervisor naming bakla na masungit na nakatingin kay Fern, ayaw kasi nito nang maiiingay.

"What's that squealed about? Go back to your table, its too early for your gossipings!" masungit at maawtoridad na sambit ni sir/binibini supervisor sa kaibigan kong maingay bago patuloy na naglakad at naglibot ng tingin, siguro kanina pa niya naririnig ang pagtitili ng kaibigan ko, siguro narindi kaya pinagsabihan.

Deserved.

Tinignan ko naman si Fern na natahimik ngunit matalas na nakatingin sa likod ni sir/binibini supervisor habang nag uungot-ungot nang kung anong salita.

"What's gossips, what's gossips about? Nagtatanong pa. Ahmp! Tsismoso! Marites! Baklang ulikba 'to!" rinig ko pang pabulong-bulong niya.

Binalingan niya ako na para bang nagsasabing 'we will not done yet. We will talk later!' Nginisihan ko lamang siya bago ako tumango at iniikot ang swivel chair paharap sa desk ko.

I was busy completing my designs when my phone briefly vibrated. I pick up my phone and immidiately smiled when I saw the name of the caller.

I quickly answer it but with a little nervous. I wonder why she called, I always remember that I’ve the one who the first call, and its just awestrike me that she called first, perhaps something unexpected happens. I don't know.

"I heard about some news in media..." Mom spoked, with a dissappointed tone.

I swallowed the lump in the throat before I speak. "Uhm...what's about it mom?" I abrupt asked even though I know what's she's going to confront about.

"You and Cobb broke up." she tasteless said with some sharp sigh.

Uh-oh? about my ex... Cobb George Brecken.

I straightened in my seat. I pick my G-Tech pen and play with it, brows are frowned. I bit my lips before answering her.

"I'm sorry mom... But I didn't capable or redeem about our relationship. 'Di ko na kayang isalba pa ang relasyon namin mom! He cheat. He cheatead at my back... it worst that he cheated with my best friend." I tried to sound like a wounded and pityful kitten.

I heard her calm sigh like shes straining her madness. "Anak... I need you to understand him please! Not now...whether you like it or not!"

I suddenly grimaced. I tapped my pen on my forehead and then gripped it tightly. "What not now? What do you mean by that?!" my tone was a bit annoyed.

"You and cobb need to be okay! You need to be in a relationship again! Wag ma wag mo akong sususwayin!"

My lips parted because of a shocked. I violently put my G-Tech in the above of my papers cause's some loud thud. "W-what the heck mom?! Are serious?!"

I'm not the martyr one! If he cheat, he cheat. I don't wanna middle or join about his life. If he truly loves me he wont do anything to make our relationship in mess. And if he truly love me, he wont betrayed me along with my bestfriend.

I furiously comb by hair with my palm the dragged some hair on it, putting all my madness with them. I snorted violently.

Like how the heck? What's running on her mind now? I known for a days that my mom like Cobb to me,for her Cobb is a perfect man that can match for me, if sometimes that Cobb and me have some fights she always side with him and telling me just to only understand him, but I dont even know that its turn out like this.This is it again she's siding again with him. I can't take this.

"Just follow me. Me and your Father will go back home after two days. Veronika sinasabi ko sayo!" I sensed authority in her voice. Tiklop agad ako.

"But mom!"

I stormingly slammed my table that made some of my workmates turned their head to me. I just mouthed 'sorry' to them that made them go to work again.

I heard in her background a loud opening door of a car and the rattles sound of key chains. "I'll hang-up now baby, bye."

"N...no!" I should gibber again but suddently she off and down the line of her phone.

"Argh!" I smashed my face in table to take out my frustrations.

Why does turn around like this. I will should probably like if she called because of I go to the bar and didn't go home. Im hoping her to check on me. But this? she called because of Cobb and i broke up, that shitty man!

I expecting mom called to comfort me or... netherly check on me if I am okay, but its feels like opposites. Maybe i don't have choice but to follow her, if theres a competition about being a good child, I might be crowned as a good daughter in the world now because of being an obedient child.

Fuck, ang sarap magdabog!

I stared at my open computer. I suddenly wondered. Why my mom always worried about my relationship with Cobb, probably obvious in business matter. Cobb owned some leading company but not infamous as the company i've worked under. I have been lots of boyfriends and suitors too but not that like in the higher class but also in the middle.

My parents always said to mine to reject all of them because they can't live with me, so I do what they want. At one time when I and Cobb in a relationship i've announced them our status, so obviously they inspect to them again but sometimes mom always contrary to my boyfriends and when they found out that Cobb was in a higher class and acquire that hes a lot of money that can make me live with him, perhances when Cobb turned being showy and vailongry to my parents so he non suppositional said some matter that make my parent impress to him.

So my parents agree with our relationship but sometimes they're are so strict. Dumating na nga minsan sa punto na magme-merge ang kompanya namin dahil sa aming dalawa, dahil naman sa sikat rin sa industriya ang apelyido nila may pagasang maisalba rin ang kompanya namin dahil sa relasyon namin dalawa, pero... nagloko si Cobb. Siguro yun yung dahilan kung bakit sila nafu-frustate sa desisyon ko, bakit lagi nalang ba silang lahat ang masusunod? bakit palaging ako nalang ang nag-a-adjust? Can I make my own decisions now.

I make a deep sigh before glance at my phone and pick it up. I go to the contacts finding who can make clear of all whats happening now. What's questions hoidenish in my head. I want answers.

I clicked the contact number and position it into my ear. I tapped my fingers on my table and nibble my lower lip. After I heard three rings of my phone the call suddenly answer. I shifted in my seat.

"Hello..." the calmness of my dad voice made me comportable. Dad was the calmness man i've ever had. Palagi siyang kalamado, hindi siya yung tipong pala-panic, he always checked what the real happend before accused.

I rolled my chair before I spoke. "Daddy!" I tried my voice to make joyful.

"Baby Veronika?" dad asked confused and questioning. My parents nor my closed relatives was second name basis called on me.

"Why did you suddenly call? What happened?" abruptly he asked. Confusion readins' on his tone.

"Nothing dad. I just wanna asked how are you? Did I interupt some doings mo po?"

"No, baby Veronika. It's just me and your mom was going out somewhere." I nodded slowy. Maybe I really interupt with them.They should on a vacation but i suddenly called.

"By the way dad, mommy said you two are going back after three days. Why did it so suddenly? You two are in vacation right? Ang aga niyo naman po na umuwi."

"We have some business to do Veronika. Just go home. By the way, your cousin Dorothy is on the house and she request if she want to sleep their, and also she said to me that you go on the club."

"Uh-kasi dad..." nakakaba kong saad. Naglikot ang mga mata ko nagangapa nang mga salita. Ang madaldal kong pinsan lagot saakin ang dila niya pagnakita ko siya.

"Nevermind about that. We'll go home early because we have to tell you something." he formally said. I knotted my forehead trying to find some clues. But I just left dumbfound. Damn.

I simultaenously curse in my head. I want answers. "Daddy, mom called me. I broke up already with Cobb but she's pushing me to comeback again and---" sumbong ko sakanya. But he suddenly cut me out and didn't let me finish what I am trying to say.

"Your mom's right. Just listen on her and follow her command." authority and coldness filled in his voice.

What the...

I shrink. "B-but...Me and Cobb, I will not adjust myself to force agin our relationship! Im exhausted loving him and I'm also tire-" I didn't finish again when he hang up his phone.

I gritted my teeth. I closed my eyes tightly to calm down. Maybe I just dont mind that. Perhaps I'll just follow them like what do always. Again, ako na naman ang maga-adjust. I sighed.

This is so fucked up. If that would make them happy, I would do.

•••

"You know how much gorgeous, hot, sexy man he was! Oh god I can't belive what I heard to that grass! Haha!" halakhak ni MC ang narinig ko mula sa cellphone ni Fern. Ka videocall namin si MC ngayon, so obviously maingay na naman ito dahil sa nasagap na tsismis. Marites din.

Sumubo ako nang kanin na may ulam na manok galing sa nabili ko sa cafeteria. It was our lunch break so its our free time now, tinotoo naman ni Fern ang usapan na di pa siya tapos but now ka-involve niya na si MC. Binalinagan ko siya bago tinaasan ng kilay. I saw her wriggling eyebrow and excitement in her eyes. I immidiately rolled my eyes.

Nakarinig ako nang marahang singhap sakaniya. "I cannot believe that you two was..." bitin niyang pagkakasabi. Kinagat niya pa ang kaniyang pangibabang labi saka pigil na nagtitili. Kinalampag na na rin niya ang kanyang desk sa may harapan niya dahilan nang paggulo ng kamera.

I boredly glance at her. "Can we stop talking about him..." I dont know who's that man and I dont want to talk about him. All I do is to forget about last night, forget about him. Ganun naman diba lagi pag one-night stand.

If one-night, just one night 'di na kailangan humingi pa nang extension. Ganun din naman ata yung lalaki. Presumably for him I'm just one of his girls who just need to take out his damn heat.

"Oh my God Silver!" mariin akong napapikit sa biglang hiyaw ni MC sa cellphone. Ang lakas pa rin nang boses niya kahit na nasa cellphone lang. Di pa pala siya tapos.

Pumapalakpak siya sa sobrang kasiyahan. "Your so lucky! Wait... Can I ask? You knew that you... do it?" I nodded slowly as I chewed my meal. Why she is so vulgar? Can't she just act innocent for now? "Magaling ba talaga? Mahaba? Malaki?" she suddenly ask.

Agad akong napainom nang tubig nang mabilaukan ako.

My cheeks immideately burned and flushed. Come to think again of what of she ask. Magaling? Based on last night I probably he was good in bed and expert too seems like he experienced fucked girls long time ago.

Tinapik ko ang aking pisngi dahil sa kalaswaang naiisip. Where do I get those words?

"Oh my gosh your blushing again!" MC uttered, amazed. Tinuro niya ako gamit ang kanyang daliri nang may namamanghang mukha. Why my friends have similarities in teasing me? Parehong may saltik

I glared at her but she just cutely chuckled on me.

"My, my, my... seems like magaling nga talaga siya, base in your reaction, but I have one question left...uh, Anong position ginawa niyo? Nasa ilalim ka ba o nasa ibabaw? O patigilid? Omg! Pinadapa ka ba?!"

Pinandilatan ko siya nang mata. How could she so vulgar! it's better that she check on me in what something bad happen, they supposedly protecting me and dragging me from that thoughts not like their sacrificing me to offer me to the devil in hell.

Her eyes big wider. "Oh my gosh! Siguro nasa ilalim kalang mo?" she teased. "Bakit 'di ka pumaibabaw huh? Marami naman akong stock dito baka gusto mong panuorin, 'di naman ako selfish sabi kasi ni God share your blessing kaya dahil blessed ka feel free–"

"Oh shut the fuck up, someone might hear us, you and your sinful mouth." parang hanging bulong ko sakanya ngunit mariin.

"Now you talk about sinful mouth. How it he taste?" she rolleds her forefinger in her air with the teasing glance.

"Aish! Lets not talk about that."

"Why? Why do you not want to talk about him. Eeee...Your so possesive huh?" bulalas ni Fern na ng tapos na pala siyang mag-order kaya malaya na naman siyang makitsismis. Ganadong-ganado parang nakakabusog lahat nang malalakap niyang balita.

"I'm not being possesive tss. Titikom mo yang bibig mo o titikom mo?" panakot ko sakanya sabay gigil na tinutok sakanya ang tinidor ko.

Umakto naman siya parang natatakot. May pa hawak-hawak pa sa dibdib niya. "Oww. Im scared," pagkatapos ay humalaklak siya.

Umiling ako at umirap sakanila. Actually I regret and blamed myself for giving my virginity to the man that I didn't know. Nawala ko lang yun nnang isang iglap sa isang gabi. Matagal na panahon kong pinangalagaan iyon. I was very careful to my self that even to my ex Cobb, when were in the relationship back then I didn't let my self touch him, Just kiss and hug are just okay with us.

But why I did my let self give in to that guy? I am ashamed of what happened like I wish the ground will eat me. I fully regent it. But I can't turn back the time, nangyari na wala na akong magagawa. Kasalanan ko rin naman iyon dahil sa pagkakasunod ko sa sarili sa pagnanasa. Naibigay ko na ang sarili ko sa 'di ko kilalang lalaki, at siguro kailangang kalimutan ko na rin iyon, paniguarading hindi rin naman ako maalala nang taong yun dahil one-night stand lang naman.

"Bakit? Sino ba yung lalaki? Tss. Kahit namn makilala ko siya wala naman siyang maaambag sa buhay ko." now out of nowhere I asked. It's supposed to be rhythm on my head but I just blurted-out out.

My friend forms their mouth to 'O'. Natahimik rin sila saglit atsaka ay tinignan ako na para bang may dalawang ulong tumubo sa ulo ko. After that they became exaggeratedly.

"What fuck Silver!" si Fern nang muntik na siyang mabilaukan dahil sa tanong ko.

"Oh my gosh, Darling. Damn-shit!" ani pa ni MC.

Tinaasan ko sila nang kilay bago kumain at tanungin sila. "What's the matter?" may pagkain pa rin sa bibig ko.

"Really Silver, you didn't know about him?" parang namamanghang saad pa ni MC saakin.

I swallowed the food in my mouth. My forehead creased. "So... who is him?" I'm trying my voice to sound unconcerned.

I glance at them and raised my left brow.

"He is Isagani Aquilio Cerellano. One of the owner of CLW Hotel and Casino and also he is the chief executive officer of one of the top leading company in the world of entrepreneur. He is the bestfriend of our CEO of the company we under work." mahabang lintaya niya nagpakabigla saakin.

What the Fuck?! Really? Shit!