Teach Me How To Burn

I sat crossed legged on the rooftop as I stared at Kai's bewildered expression. He looked like I had just confessed to being a serial killer, a psychopathic one at that.

"So let me get this straight" he almost whispered. "You want me to-" I placed a hand over his mouth silencing the next string of words about to come out.

"I'm mortified enough already Kai, you don't have to repeat what I said." I groaned lying flat on my back.

The cold night air seeped into my bones, causing goosebumps.

It was my 18th birthday in a month and I had just asked my best friend to have sex with me as my birthday wish.

His facial expression would make me cackle on a different occasion but right now, it made me want to jump of this roof and into a different timeline.

"In my defence, I have a solid good reason" I blurted out, trying miserably to salvage what was left of my pride

"Humour me little birdie, cos I'm sure as hell ready to listen to the brain behind this crazy wish" Kai teased, pulling me into a sitting position facing him.

"Okay, just listen okay, don't go cutting me abruptly" I poked his chest. "First off, you know how picky I am, I honestly don't think anyone's worthy of seeing me naked"

Kai snorted. Right in my face. "But I am?" He smirked, cocking his egoistic head to the side.

"What did I say about cutting me off Kai?" He did the motion of zipping his lips shut.

"You were lucky enough to see my 10 year old invisible breasts, so I count you lightly worthy" I said laughing.

Kai's hand shut up like a student signalling to his teacher that he had the answer to a question.

" You're insufferable you know?" I chuckled "You may speak"

He dramatically unzipped his lips before looking straight at my breasts without shame.

My nipples perked up in response to the sudden attention. He smirked.

"Kai, my eyes are up here" I squeaked.

"I know, I'm just trying to see what exactly is different from the breasts I saw back then" "meh, not much difference" He smirked still looking at my breasts.

My hands went over them defensively.

"You liar!!" I screamed in embarrassment. He threw his head back in a victory chuckle.

"There's definitely a difference you asshole, You just can't see them because I'm wearing a sweater".

"Really? My bad. Never noticed." Kai teased. Winking at me.

That was the thing with Kai. He'd been an asshole since we were kids, and now he had graduated into being a Playboy and an asshole. A deadly combination for someone as hot as he was.

I cleared my throat.

"Back to my good reason, or reasons for my wish" "try your best not to interrupt me jerk face"

"Fine, list your very good reasons for why you want to fuck me" Kai whispered in my ear, his breath fanning my ear.

My face turned crimson red.

"Oh my god K! Why'd you say it like that?" I mumbled, looking anywhere but his satisfied face.

"It's funny how you want to have sex and can't even stand a little dirty talk birdie" he laughed pointing at my blushed cheeks.

"Wren" he called my name with such subtlety. "You want me to sleep with you but you can't even look at me right now"

"You know how I feel about all that attention recently, my body's been short circuiting" I laughed awkwardly picking at the hem of my sweater.

"That's why I need to get whatever this is out of my system so that I can focus on my finals" I whispered, ashamed.

"Hey, look at me". He lifted my face up with my chin, urging me to look at him. He smiled gently, like a mother comforting her child.

"You're not short circuiting birdie, you're growing, and your body's changing, needing more attention than you're giving her. That's normal" He cooed staring straight into my soul as usual.

That was Kai for you, flirting in one second and mothering his 17 year old in the next.

" no one interests me enough to get naked for Kai, but at the same time I just want to be touched, badly, and not by a random dude." I whispered.

"You're the only one I can trust to save me from this misery Kai" I chuckled Weakley, poking his chest.

"Ovulation sucks, am I right?" He teased caressing my hair. I leaned into his touch, my eyes fluttering close in ecstasy.

"You don't know the worst of it" I cooed squeezing out every bit of attention I could get.

We stayed like this for a while, curled into each other, breathing in his scent, as he Caressed my hair.

"Would you at least think about my ridiculous request?" I whispered into his neck.

I could feel him gradually tense up.

"Birdie" he groaned. Frustrated that I was asking him for such an impossible thing.

Why did I think that he'd jump at the opportunity to sleep with me. He probably classifies it as incest.

"I'm sorry I asked, forget about it." I said, frustration hiding my shame.

I pulled away from him and on my feet.

"Good night Kai" I turned. Going down the outdoor stairs and in through my room window.

I flopped on the bed, face down into my pillow and willed the world to go back in time, to save me from my own stupidity.

I heard the ladders groan from the weight and then my window slide open.

I felt him on my bed, but didn't dare look at him.

"Sex is a big deal Wren" I heard him say.

"Says the one who's banged half the school" I flung back.

He chuckled lightly.

"That doesn't make it less of a big deal birdie" "I don't think you thought this through, it was probably your horny ass talking"

I sat up abruptly, insulted that he'd think I didn't crack my brain for weeks before having the assurance to tell him.

"First of all, I did think this through, I'm not crazy enough to tell my best friend to have sex with me without enough thought. You're the only one I know I  care enough to do this with."

"Let me spell it out for you Wren" Kai said exasperated and tired of my stubbornness.

"You're telling me to kiss you, all tongue and spit, finger you, and by that I mean my finger's gonna be in there, I'll probably have to eat you-" "Kai stop, please stop" I whispered. He may have been making a salient point as to why this was a ridiculous idea but my body thought it was a marvelous one. It yearned to hear more of all he would do to me.

"You see, it's sounds crazy to you right?" He said gently

"You shouldn't tell a horny girl about all you can to please her and expect her to think it's crazy Kai" I said chuckling awkwardly. He seemed to realise this.

"You're disgusting lil birdie" he chortled.

"I'm going to leave now, before you jump me"

"You're very wise K, my self control and dignity is wearing thin"

"How about you think about it this night and get back to me tomorrow when you're less animalistic?" He said ruffling my hair.

"Kai Anderson, are you telling me to dream of having sex with you?" I said sarcastically.

"You're crazy Wren, you'd regret this when you're sober" he said, leaving through the window.

I'm sure I would.