Finding truths

I spun in my chair, turning away from Ian, it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I know now, that what we had was never true love. But contempment, just buying our time from the inedible. We weren't ment to be together forever. You don't run away from those you truly love, when things get hard. You stay and figure it out with each other.

Ian sat there and begged me to say anything to him. To scream and shout at him, to show him just how angry I was with him. He said " He would rather me, tell him to fuck off and die, instead of nothing, no glances, no words, just utter silence."

What Ian didn't know was, I wasn't mad at him anymore. I was filled with complete sadness. Hurt from being left alone, when I needed him most. Tear strucked with sorrow of what the future might hold for us moving forward. I don't know if I'll ever be able to forgive him for letting me go through all this on my own.

When all I wanted was to be held by him, my rock, the one pers