It's Milano's birthday today. His 40th! My man is old lol. He doesn't really like celebrating his birthday so we're just going to order some food and give him some presents.
Ford’s pov“Nivia forced you to be here, didn’t she?” Rayn or Rayan said. I had a difficult time remembering all the names Nivia had shared with me.He is the gamma, if I remember correctly. And Storm’s stepbrother, I suppose, since his father is married to Storm’s mother.“Indeed, she did.” I replied.“You don’t talk much, do you?” Riker, the beta and Nivia’s uncle, asked.“Indeed, I do not.”“Like never, or just not now, because it’s fucking intense with all these guys? Or are you like Os, silent, but deadly as fuck?” Cyrus asked.He had invited me for what he had dubbed “boys night” at his farm. It meant sitting around a fire and chatting, I suppose.I had absolutely no desire to go, but Nivia seemed to think it would benefit me to hang around men. And since she’s been forgiving, I figured I owed her this.Osiris chuckled and rolled his eyes at Cyrus. Nivia explained they are best friends, yet they bicker like they are married. “You make it sound like I’m a fart.”“An old fart.” S
Nivia’s povInstead of sitting on his lap, I figured it was best if I sat beside him for this.Ford chuckled nervously, “I now understand your trepidation. It’s daunting to start apologizing. Truthfully, I do not know what strategy is best. Do I just confess my sins as you did?”It was cute seeing him nervous. He was being really fucking cute all morning, and my heart couldn’t handle it.Honestly, I had already forgiven him. Well, my heart had. But rationally I knew we needed to work through this first, or it would come back in the future to bite us in the ass.“Well,” I said, trying to help. “As far as I am concerned, I like to know the whys and the hows.. Like, if it’s just an apology, it doesn’t really feel like enough. I need the other person to explain why they did what they did and how they can do better in the future. If that makes sense.”“It does. Thank you, darling.” Goddess! Too fucking cute.His face… his handsome face… His jaw when he’s nervous tenses. His eyes keep looki
Ford’s povNivia attempted to undress, yet I stopped her before she caused herself pain. The silver-tipped arrows laced with wolfsbane caused her wounds to heal slower than other injuries.One arm at a time, I carefully lifted Nivia’s shirt from her body until she stood in front of me in her underwear.“The wounds are healing nicely,” I commented, as she got rid of her underwear hastily.I felt embarrassment through her bond, yet I only cared to know Nivia was alright.To ensure Nivia did not think I would take advantage of her or was simply here to gaze at her naked form, I only undressed my top half, letting my shorts remain on.“Come, darling.” I said, as I took the shower head and began cleaning my mate.We had made progress this morning, and I could not take the credit, for it was my mate who had been forgiving and smart. I was unaccustomed to being vulnerable and unsure how to act around my mate.But it appeared she had truly fallen for me, and she did not wish me to alter my pe
Nivia’s povWhat the hell is going on?Ford is… Wow… Ford is… I don’t even have words.I have feelings, though, a lot of them. Too many of them.‘He is trying.’ Gwyn spoke for the first time since I was shot.‘You’re back.’‘I’m sorry you had to go through this alone,’ Gwyn howled. ‘I wish I was there to support you.’‘You’re here now.’ I tried to reassure her. ‘You’re not mad that my carelessness cost you a pup?’Gwyn's voice was kind when she answered me. I had been nervous she’d hate me, because she had tried to make me take a test before. ‘We will have a pup when the time is right.’‘I’m really confused,’ I admitted. Especially because one of the main things I felt besides compassion when Ford spoke was a deep desire to fuck his brains out.And well, I’m still having a miscarriage, so we can't have sex anyway.It used to be the time when I would feel close to Ford, but now, sex would just confuse me.And if I’m being completely honest, the only reason I would sleep with Ford right
Ford’s povThe amount of discomfort I felt about this entire situation would normally have infuriated me.However, I had a moment to mull the situation over while Nivia slept in my arms. And I’ve come to the conclusion that anger will not serve me this time.I have not found what will. For everything I said or did felt like a performance.‘Not the pedicure…’ Callum pointed out.No, he was correct. I did not have words of comfort to give, and I am not a person who enjoys awkward embraces.‘You tried to find a way that fit you; perhaps you could do such a thing more often.’ Callum suggested.Perhaps… If Nivia allowed me to.I had thought she’d be grateful for my change in behaviour, yet she only seemed confused by it. How else would I win her back?Callum could not reply, for Nivia and Leia stepped out of the hospital room.“You coming? We’re heading back to the packhouse.” Leia smiled at me.“If that is acceptable?” I looked over at Nivia.“Yeah, sure, but you can’t stay in my room.” S
Nivia’s pov“Ford?” I opened my eyes feeling groggy.Grandma Leia held my hand, “hey sweetheart.”“Of course not… Why would he be here?” I muttered to myself.“Well, actually….” Grandma started.“Actually, what?” I tried to sit up, but my back was still sore. I thought it was a dream that I smelled Ford, but why was his scent still here? Was I hallucinating?“Ford, -“The door opened before Grandma could say more, “you called for me, Leia?”Grandma chuckled, “I didn’t, Ford. I was just trying to tell Nivia you came here with me, but that she’s free to kick you out if she'd like to.” She turned to me. “It’s your fucking choice.”Why was she all buddy-buddy with my mate?I assumed Ford would hate my grandma because she is just like me, only worse. Grandma Leai really doesn’t give a fuck. She’s authentically herself. Loud, silly, and wild when she wants to be.“Nivia?” Ford asked, and he looked at me with an expression I wasn’t used to. Like he actually cared.“You can stay for a bit,” I