Mag-log inCASSANDRA
After what happened last night, I’m not sure that I’m sane. Maybe I’ve had some mental break after I hit Frank. It’s quite possible. I’ve read about such things. Temporary insanity. In reality, I might be strapped to a bed in some psych ward, and this was all some hallucination. Because I cannot be a werewolf. It’s ludicrous. Werewolves are fiction. What was this? Was I trapped in the Twilight Saga?
But what about the voices in my head? I heard the hot guy’s voice as plain as day in my head. Nope, definitely something horribly wrong with me. Unless…
Now we’re on our way to the head honcho of this place-pack, whatever. The Alpha. I snickered to myself. I should just go with this insanity and see where it leads. So long as they don’t cut me into little pieces and offer me to the moon goddess or some shit. Yeah, moon goddess. Red Beard or Joel, my supposed father, tried to explain things to me. My head was still reeling. Didn’t understand a word. I’m not speaking to Agnes. Period.
“Please behave, Cassie,” Agnes cautioned in a hushed tone as Joel led us up the stairs of the biggest house in the area. The three-story house was a log cabin, like all the others, but bigger. It reminded me of a hotel in some horror movie I saw. Well, maybe not as creepy. It had a pretty garden in the front with lots of flowers and there was no dead woman staring down at us from the top window.
“Don’t disrespect him and watch your language.” Agnes carried on.
I ignored her. Still can’t get over her lying to me.
“Connor isn’t like his father, Agnes.” Joel remarked. “He’s not an unreasonable man. I’m sure he will accept Cassie into the pack.”
“And if I don’t want to be accepted? I want to get the fuck out of here and go back to civilization.” I snapped, defiantly stomping my foot as I came to a screeching halt in the middle of the passage.
“Why wouldn’t you want to be accepted?” a husky voice behind me asked.
I turned around so fast that I bumped into his chest. Solid, hot chest. Hands on my shoulders kept me from bouncing back. Damn, he smelled good. He must have some expensive cologne. Slowly, I let my gaze drift up to his handsome face. The smile he beamed at me would put movie stars to shame. It left me tongue-tied and deflated.
“Come, I’ve had breakfast prepared for us.” He took my hand and pulled me behind him, inclining his head for Agnes and Joel to follow. I followed him meekly, but intensely aware of our linked hands and silently hoped mine wouldn’t become clammy.
He guided us into a spacious, sun-drenched room, bathed in the warm glow filtering through the windows perched along the slanted ceiling. The lounge looked so welcoming, with its pastel blue couches and chairs huddling together. It looked homely.
One side of the room showcased a wall unit with a grand television and a bookshelf brimming with a vast assortment of books. So, our alpha was a reader. Who’d have thought?
And a collector of model cars as well, I noticed. Everything looked so normal. Except for Joel insisting that our handsome host can turn into a black wolf.
We made our way to the dining area, which was equally cozy, and there was a table set with delicate plates, all waiting to be filled. My stomach growled impatiently in anticipation. I couldn’t eat the dinner Joel had prepared last night because I was too upset.
“Thank you so much for inviting us, Alpha Connor,” Agnes said as he pulled out a chair for her to sit.
Before I could sit, he did the same for me, with one exception. His hand stayed on my shoulder while standing behind my chair. Then he took the seat next to mine and Joel took his next to my mother.
“Joel told me something of your history with him, Agnes. May I call you Agnes?” His voice was smooth like velvet and Agnes blushed like a girl. Trust Agnes to fall for a pretty face and sweet words. I will never make that mistake. Ever.
“Yes, yes, of course, Alpha.” she smiled prettily, and I thought how different she was now we were free of Frank. At that moment, I felt guilty for being angry with her. She deserved happiness. I got it. But for heaven’s sake…
“Connor. There’s no need to be formal.” He looked at me when he said, “Let’s eat first, then we can discuss everything.” Probably heard my complaining stomach.
Two girls about my age came to serve us. They openly fawned over Connor, and it made me sick to my stomach to watch them. For goodness’s sake! He was freakishly handsome, but really… Get a grip.
The food was awesome. I ate like a starving girl while the three of them made small talk. Too busy stuffing my face to pay attention. But when Connor put his hand on my thigh, I choked on a piece of toast so badly it flew out of my mouth and onto Agnes’ plate. That got my attention.
Connor yanked me out of my chair and started patting my back. Violent coughs racked through me, and tears streaked down my cheeks.
“Jesus, Cassie! Smaller bites!” Agnes berated me, shaking her head disapprovingly.
“Are you alright?” Connor asked, bending over me.
I put up my hand, unable to form a coherent sentence. He handed me a glass of water. When I finally found my breath, I said, “Dude, next time if you want to cop a feel, just give me a heads-up, okay?”
“Cassandra Browne!” Agnes gasped.
Joel uttered a sound of dismay sounding like a deflating tire. Connor chuckled, but a reddish tint spread from his neck to his cheeks.
“Sorry, I wasn’t trying to cop a feel, like you so delicately put it. I asked you a question, but you were miles away.”
“Oh, so you just put your hand on my thigh to get my attention?” I said, hands on my hips, challenging him. “I guess it worked. What did you want to know?”
We stood facing each other while Joel and Agnes watched with tense anticipation.
“I asked if you completed your studies.”
“No, I was busy with mid-terms when…” I almost killed my stepfather, I wanted to add. But…
“We had to leave before she could finish,” Agnes interrupted. So, she doesn’t want Connor to know about Frank? Noted. Joel probably doesn’t know either. Agnes was good at keeping secrets, apparently.
“I’m sure we can work something out.” Connor turned to me, the smile still fixed on his face. “You can always finish online.” He took my arm and steered me to the living room area. “Make yourself comfortable, Cassie. I need to speak to your parents for a bit. In private.”
Both Joel and Agnes got up from the table and followed him out, leaving me alone. I had an uneasy feeling I was in trouble.
MilesHow long have I been asleep?It's so dark, an absolute blackness that swallows all sight.Where was I?Connor?Sage? Cassie?What happened? Oh, wait! I remember. The cave. A blinding flash, and then... nothing.The first time I came to Connor was gone. I was in a dark place, so deep and lightless that even my wolf eyes couldn't pierce it. A chilling cold seeped into me, an empty, lifeless void.Was I dead?Oh Goddess! Did Connor die? “Connor?” I called out, my voice swallowed by the suffocating silence. “What is this place?”I was weightless, drifting in a silent limbo. Time lost all meaning, stretching into an eternity.Then, a faint tug, a gentle pull. It drew me back, pulling me into Connor's mind.“Yes, yes! Of course he wasn't dead! He's an alpha.” Relief washed over me, a surge of pure joy. “Connor, it's me, Miles. Your wolf. I'm back.”But when he didn’t answer me, I was afraid.I panicked. Ran around in circles only to come up against an impenetrable barrier, again and
“You!” my enraged father’s voice shook the room. “I warned you, son!”I’ve never seen Joel so out of control. Connor could banish my father for attacking him – or worse!The unexpected attack had momentarily stunned Connor. I acted fast before he could retaliate. Getting between them was the only way to stop them because no matter what, they would never risk hurting me.“Connor! Wait! Daddy, it’s not what you think…” I pushed back against my father’s chest, feeling his heart racing like a runaway freight train.“Cassie, move!” Joel snarled, his rage boundless. “Don’t you dare cover for him.”“No! Not until you get your wolf under control.” I met his fierce gaze with the same intensity. “Calm down. That’s an order!”Joel grumbled, but his wolf withdrew control, acknowledging my status. I exhaled a slow breath. Thank goodness. I didn’t want to pull rank on my father, but in this case it was necessary.The two men I loved stood glaring wordlessly at each other. Connor wiped his bloody no
Connor pushed me behind him. “Get out, Natalia. I won’t allow you to hurt Cassie.”“Hurt me?” The audacity… “I will rip your heart out, you bitch!” I lunged at her, but Connor had his arm around my waist. Anger swirled through my blood, but with it came a feeling of abject terror. Will he leave me for her? Was our bond really broken?Natalia laughed, so sure of herself. Regina appeared behind her. “That’s enough, Natalia!” she shoved her out of the way. “Cassandra, please let us explain. Come in. You’re drawing attention.”Sage glared at the bloodsucker through my eyes and growled. Doors opened in the hallway. I heard urgent whispers wondering if they should call security.Connor forced me into the room, his grip rough enough to leave marks on my arms.“Let me go, Connor! You’re hurting me.” I rubbed my bruised arms and gave him my most accusing stare. It didn’t even hurt that much, but he deserved to feel bad for what he put me through.He released me at once. “Sorry, I didn’t mean t
CassandraWhat the fuck! The entire night I worried about him while he was in there…Did he fuck her? Both of them? oh my God!The images kept flashing through my mind. Him, naked and erect. Regina and Natalia, clothes torn. My heart shattered.I ran, stumbling down the hall. Didn’t bother with the elevator. Took the stairs three at a time, nearly fell. Everything swam before my eyes.Connor shouted my name, but I kept on running until I burst through the fire exit. Outside, the cold air slapped me in the face. I took in deep gasps of the frigid air, holding onto the walls for support. How could he do this to us?“Cassie! There you are,” Ray caught up with me. “Take me home.” Anywhere would do. I thought about Neil. It was just a passing thought.Ray’s hands were on my shoulders, grounding me. “I’m sure there’s a reasonable…”“Don’t you dare cover for him!” I shoved Ray’s hands away. “I have nothing to say to him!” Ray’s face swam before me, and I blinked hard, refusing to cry.Ray’
ConnorThe screams, the intoxicating taste of their blood… I was drunk on all of it. I ripped through them like they were nothing but meat sacks. Felt no remorse, no human emotion except hunger. Insatiable, overpowering hunger.But now, sitting in the dark in the hotel room, sated but full of self-loathing, avoiding the man in the mirror. What would Cassie think of me now? I killed, no, I destroyed those men. I could argue that they were evil men, preying on the weak. But did that make me any better?My hands shook as I reached for my phone. I should call Cassie. Tell her where I am. I almost did. Changed my mind and placed the phone face down on the nightstand. She wouldn’t understand. She’d try to fix me. I don’t know if I could be fixed. Maybe Regina had the answer. What did I have to lose?***I spent a restless night on a bed that held faint scents of earlier occupants. Nightmares made me get up before dawn crept in at the window. Cassie would still be asleep. I pictured her lyin
CassandraNeil. I had almost completely forgotten about him. That one stupid kiss was all it took to make me doubt everything. Well, not exactly everything. I loved Connor. Simple. Wasn’t it? But Neil had been there when I needed Connor. And where was my mate now? Trying his best to avoid me.Neil answered on the second ring.“Mel?” his deep voice droned in my ear, and it shouldn’t sound so good.‘You shouldn’t talk to him!’ Sage bared her teeth at me. I ignored her. It’s not like I’m cheating on Connor.I took a deep breath before I answered. “No, it’s me. Cassie.” Why was my heart beating so fast suddenly?Stunned silence on the other end for a few tense heartbeats.“Hey,” he said at last. “I’ve been trying to get a hold of you.” His breath hitched over the phone. “Did you… did you block my number?” he asked, and the slight hurt in his voice made me feel guilty despite myself.Sage grumbled disapprovingly, ‘It was the right thing to do. He’s not our mate.’I felt Mel’s eyes boring i
ConnorOn the way to Alpha Harald’s pack, Joel told me how he deducted that Agnes’ husband had gotten hold of them. I listened in silence, holding back my anger at his disobedience. Although I had to confess, I was angrier at myself. I blamed myself for putting Cassie and my pack in the position we
ConnorBy the Gods, she was pushing my boundaries. If only she knew how much effort it took for me to leave her there at Joel’s house, when all I wanted to do was take her to my room and ravage her.‘Ravage her?” Miles snorted in my head. Those were not the words you were thinking at all. Sounded m
Cassandra“Lift your hands, Cassie. Protect your vulnerable parts.” Sam stood close behind me, helping me learn the proper fighting stances and blocks. Were all of them so good-looking? I have not seen a single unattractive person here. It was very distracting being surrounded by powerfully sculpte
ConnorI was up before dawn, having spent a restless night thinking about Cassie and what I planned to do. She needed to be accepted into the pack as soon as possible. Maybe even tonight. Of course, there had to be a ceremony, as was our custom, and a party afterward. I only wished it could be our







