LOGINSELENA'S P.O.V.
I blinked up, my chest heaving hard. I could smell a bit of smoke and an accompanying woody scent, very far from the exotic scents that I was used to around Alpha Cole and his palace. Alpha Cole. The thought came back unbidden. The night of passion that we had shared, the way he had betrayed me right after. The soldiers... the rain, the smell of blood. I sat up, my eyes flying open as I grabbed the first thing in front of me. A yelp came out, and my eyes came to a slow focus. My hand was wrapped solidly around the neck of a man. He was watching me, a little surprised, but mostly just relieved. Almost happy. I looked around me. The cottage, or whatever it was, was shabby at best, with a door that was holding on to its hinges by more will than anything else. There were herbs all around, a few clothes strewn around, a small incense pot letting out smoke. "Where... where am I?" The man gave a small smile, brought his hand to his neck and gently pried my fingers from around his neck, and then brought it to rest on my side on the thin bed. "You are safe, Selena. This is a rogue settlement. I found you after you were left for dead, hunted by some soldiers from Blackmoon. You have been out for three weeks." My eyes widened. Three weeks? I was unconscious for three weeks? That night... that betrayal... it was three weeks ago? I swallowed hard and turned to the man. He looked kind enough, his eyes shining with relief and something else. "How do you know my name?" I asked, my voice low. "You said you saved me. I remember leaving the pack. I remember running far. How do you know my name?" He smiled again, and I realized that smile unnerved me more than it made me feel safe. My eyes thinned. "Answer me." "Your guard is still up. I mean, what do I expect? You used to protect the most important alpha in the alpha council." I swallowed hard, my eyes darting around the room. Something about the man in front of me did not agree with my nerves. My eyes settled on the small knife discarded next to a bunch of herbs. He opened his mouth to talk again, when I pushed to my feet, ignoring the wave of dizziness that crashed over me, and feeble weakness in my legs. Before he could make sense of what was happening, I grabbed him by the neck, his back hitting my chest, and I brought the knife to rest on his throat. "Tell me. Are you one of those soldiers? Did Isaac or Alpha Cole send you? Tell me how the fuck you know my name!" "Selena, I was..." The door suddenly creaked open. I turned, still holding him tight, getting ready to face whoever his accomplice was. Two women I have never seen walked in. They were middle aged, carrying a tray of food and a few other items. It took them a moment to understand what was happening. "Who are you?" I asked, my voice low. "You are awake," the first one said, walking forward. "We are rogues. His name is Alan, I am Lily, and this is my sister, Mila. We are the ones who found you. How do you feel?" My grip on Alan loosened, and I slowly lowered the knife. "You... are rogues?" "Yes," Lily affirmed, and Mila nodded. "Not soldiers? You were not making sure I am alive so you can hand me over to Blackmoon?" Mila gave a small, disbelieving laugh. "Oh please. We hate Blackmoon. And even if we didn't, how would we possibly be heartless enough to hand a pregnant woman over to those lawless soldiers?" My brows furrowed, my eyes darting between the three of them. "What pregnant woman?" Mila and Lily exchanged glances. "You. You didn't know? You are pregnant. Giving how it seems to be a powerful cub, it is developing fast. It even has a scent that my wolf can pick up already." I took a step back, my chest heaving hard. I have never been with a man. No, I have. But it was one night. Just one. Would that one night really be enough... am I really...? The knife left my hand and clattered to the floor, and my fingers gently wrapped around my stomach. "I... I am pregnant?" "Yes!" Mila said, excitedly. She stepped forward, dropping the tray of food she was holding. "The cub has a very beautiful scent. Like ice and vanilla, and even a hint of roses. Very delicate and perfect." Tears immediately stung the back of my eyes. Vanilla, ice and roses. Just like Alpha Cole. My legs gave way under me, and I slowly went to the floor, my vision blurring with tears. My hands wrapped tighter around my stomach, my body shaking hard with tears. What sort of cruel joke is this? What do I even do now? Do I take this child as a blessing that Alpha Cole never was to me, or would it simply be a nagging reminder of how its father tried to kill me amd abandoned us for another woman? "Be careful," Lily said as she moved closer, her hand gently resting on my shoulder. "The child smells like a blessing. Your distress will affect the cub and it will think it is unwelcome. Don't cry." I looked up to her, my chest heaving. The gravity of my situation dawned on me even worse now. I had no home. No pack. No money. Nothing to my name except who I used to be. "I.... I have nowhere to go." Lily smiled, gently cupping my face. "That is exactly what each and every one of us here said when we came here. And then this became our place. No one is forcing you to leave, especially not with a child." "I..." I said again, fighting the lump that rose in my throat. "I have nothing to pay you with. I..." "Oh please. You paid us enough by responding to treatment. If it weren't for Alan who knows you from your former pack, no one here would care about any of that. Just stay. You will be fine in a few more weeks. The settlement is not much, but it is a place to go. I hope you wil be fine with it and us." I sniffed hard, my chest heaving hard. My lips trembled with the force of my emotions. I am going to be a mother. I am going to give birth to Alpha Cole's child. Some time ago, it would have been the dream. Now I am not even sure what it is. Lily helped me up to the bed, and she brought the tray of food closer. "We originally brought this for Alan who has been watching you day and night, but he can have another serving." I forced a smile, my eyes darting to Alan who was simply standing behind, an unreadable expression in his eyes. He was watching me keenly, his eyes unblinking, his hands clasped tightly behind him. I offered him a small, grateful smile, even though the initial feeling of my nerves unsettling around him did not disappear. He smiled at me too, but didn't look away. I turned away, my heart racing. "Were you also from Blackmoon?" I asked, my eyes darting across three of them, but I really intended to find out about Alan first. He knew me as Alpha Cole's bodyguard. He knew my name. I needed a logical answer as to how he did. "No," Mila said, moving closer. "Me and Lily are from grey fangs. We were kicked out for being useless old hags with no real healing powers even after serving in the pack's healing facility for thirty years since I was eighteen and she sixteen." My eyes widened. "That is awful." "It is," Lily agreed, bringing a spoonful to my lips. "But it isn't as awful as listening to her call me an old hag when I am two years younger." I laughed now, as Mila cackled too, almost as if she had done it on purpose. "Excuse me, you look older than me. And fatter." Lily met my eyes. "Tell her the truth, Selena." I laughed. "You are both very beautiful. I almost thought I was in heaven." They both chuckled, with Mila doing an exaggerated blushing face, her smile big. "I like her already," Lily said, and Mila immediately agreed. I turned to Alan, who was still silent, his eyes crinkled with amusement. "You?" I asked finally, making sure I did not sound half as skeptical as I felt. Alan gave a small shrug, but Mila spoke before he could. "Oh, Alan here is a little shy. He has been dedicated to taking care of you, however. Maybe because he knows you from the old pack." I turned to him again. "So he is from Blackmoon?"" "Yes," Alan said finally. "I am from Blackmoon." My brows raised. "I don't remember you." Mila and Lily exchanged glances, and Mila leaned forward. "He was a servant. Even below the omegas. He served in the palace and that's why he knew you." I met Alan's eyes again. The name rang a bell somewhere in a very distant part of my mind, but not the face. Not the way he was looking at me. I nodded slowly and turned away, my brows furrowed as I remembered one more thing. "Before I went unconscious, there was a man. He had the scent of mint and..." "You were alone," Alan said immediately, before I could even finish. I raised a brow. "I am sure I heard his voice. I am sure I smelled him." "Probably a soldier," Mila said with a shrug. "They were still looking for you even when we took you. We had to stay in hiding for a bit." I turned back to Alan. Something was off. Maybe it was my senses misleading me because I got betrayed by the last person I expected to betray me. Maybe it was the way he was looking at me and the fact that I knew every palace servant, omega and soldier by name and face to ensure Alpha Cole's safety and I have never heard of this man. But something was off. "You should rest," Lily said finally, putting the food away even though I could only manage to take a spoonful out of it. "Your child will thank you." 'My child,' I thought as I lay back down, my hands wrapping around my stomach again. I closed my eyes and hugged my stomach tighter. Maybe... just maybe... this child was my own gift. My own compensation for the mate bond that never was.SELENA'S P.O.V I rarely heard the rest of the things they said throughout the rest of the meeting. There was much less opposition now that Alphs cole had made it clear just how little patience he had for their nonsense.I blinked as the council members stood up. I looked up, unable to even remember what had happened. Alpha Cole have a wave of dismissal, and they walked away. Sylvia stayed sitting, Beta Alan stood behind her couch, the two men stood where they were."We have finalized everything, Alpha. We will start preparations immediately. Also, we have contacted the couture house in Silver fangs. They will arrive later, for measurements and your requirements." Alpha Cole simply nodded. "Good work, David. I appreciate you coming in at such short notice."The man, David, gave a small, almost shy smile. "You know I would stop whatever commitments I have for you, Alpha. You are that important to me."I raised a brow, and turned to Evan who looked almost annoyed. He met my eyes, then
SELENA'S P.O.V "Now that we have established that the entire pack will be invited to the two festivals and that the dignitaries will only be around for the main birthday banquet, can we have a full guest list? I have made a short outline of people we absolutely can not miss giving the gold scroll to."The man leaned forward and handed his tablet to Alpha Cole. Alpha Cole accepted it, his brows furrowed as he took in the list. He brought his right index finger and tapped on the screen, then seemed to make a few alterations before handing it back to the man.He accepted it, then looked down. For a tense second, he looked between Alpha Cole and then the rest of the council, who have still not managed to make peace with Alpha Cole's decisions yet."Alpha," the man finally said, his voice low. "Uhm... are you saying that the pack council are not to be invited?"I raised a brow in surprise, as a gasp filled the small space. Isaac leaned dangerously close, his brows drawn together in the so
SELENA'S P.O.V I lingered against the wall for a long minute, just listening. The room next door was quiet for a long while. I sat on the floor, my eyes closed as I listened to the sounds. Any sound would have satisfied me.I heard when Alpha Cole woke up. I heard when Evan told him to be careful. I heard the sigh he let out as the water hit his skin in the shower.As if compelled by a force, I pushed myself off the wall and went into the shower. I closed my eyes against the hot water, my chest tight as I felt the water run down my skin.I thought about how I would apologize to him. Do I go on my knees? Do I cry and break down? I thought of Amanda. She would probably be so disappointed in me for pushing her father away. It felt like my sins against the two of them were piling up, and I wasn't sure how much of it I could keep up with anymore. I wasn't sure how much of it I could atone for without losing my soul.I got out of the shower and changed into a simple dress. I left my hair
EVAN'S P.O.V.I let my hand rest under Alpha Cole's cheek, his warmth spreading through my palm, his pulse low but evident. A single tear still rested on his lashes, and I resisted the urge to reach out. Not just to his face or his skin. I wanted to reach out to his heart and kiss it a little better in the only way I knew how.But there was only one person that he would allow, and she was next door.I held my breath as I listened. She wasn't crying anymore. Maybe she had slipped into a restless sleep just like him. Maybe she had nothing else to cry out.I felt my heart clench, as my hand sank into his hair. I looked down. He was vulnerable. Not as vulnerable as he was when Selena had been nothing but a callback from the past, but vulnerable still.I leaned down close, my eyes darting across both of his closed ones. He was astoundingly beautiful. It was almost irritating just how perfect he looked under these lights, even with the thin red line that showed just how much the emotional t
ALPHA COLE'S P.O.V My head felt like it would split in two, and somehow, my heart felt worse. I sat on the edge of my bed, Selena's scent still engraved everywhere like a punishment, wrapped up in the last robe she had worn.I wanted to feel something. Anything other than the crippling fear that the ship might have sailed for us a while ago and she would never be able to trust me again.I wondered what I could do better. Explain better, allow her to have the mate bond back? Maybe have her around me all the time.My throat closed, the back of my eyes stinging a bit more."I think she trusts you. She is just... scared."I slowly looked up. Evan was standing close to the shower. His usual hood was off, his hair falling across his eyes. His arms were folded in front of him, his expression carefully blank.I looked away and took in a deep breath. "You should go, I...""I don't want to go anywhere. Not after I saw that."I met his eyes. "I am not that weak. I am not going to relapse and...
SELENA'S P.O.V I turned, my chest heaving. I did nothing to stop the tears that ran down my cheeks in slow, fast torrents. I hated myself for putting him through the hell of my own insecurities. Of my own distrust. My fingers gently wrapped around the door knob, and my knees threatened to give away under me. My body felt like it was supposed to belong somewhere else. Somewhere closer to him. I turned the door knob."Selena."My heart jumped, and I turned, my eyes widened with hope. Most of which crumbled the minute I saw his eyes. Still wet. Still exhausted. Still filled with the hurt I put in there.He took a step forward, then gently passed a first aid box, letting it fall to the space between us. I looked down, the tears tearing me apart from somewhere deeper than even I could reach right now."For the bleeding."I bit down on my lower lip so hard that I tasted my blood. Was it too shameless to say sorry? To say I was selfish and greedy and deeply, stupidly sorry, and that I nee
I woke up to an empty bed, and the evidence of last night's passion strewn all around the room. My clothes were on the floor, and Alpha Cole's white shirt was standing out amongst the black ensemble.My legs trembled, and my body felt used, and ached everywhere, in the best way possible. My brows
ALPHA COLE'S P.O.V Selena. Selena is in my palace.My eyes thinned as I looked between the women in the dungeon and the soldier still lying unconscious outside. He had been carefully tucked away, and he had a single hit to the side of his neck. Like the edge of a dagger.That was Selena's signatur
SELENA'S P.O.V The dance troupe proceeded to the palace, and I joined, quickly learning their chants as we made the short journey to the palace.Soon enough, the palace loomed in front of us. I stopped for a second to catch my breath, my chest heaving. I still knew the palace like the back of my h
Three events have shaped the woman I have become today.The death of my father, the seal that was handed to me as proof of my family's obligation to protect the alphas, and the day I was introduced to Alpha Cole. The first two had shaped my obligation to the pack, watching my father lose his life







