Chapter 5

KIERAN DARKHOWL

“oh fuck off Kieran.” My wife yelled. “Just fuck off. If you really cared, you’d take time off and put more effort into trying to try for a fucking cub. But no, you’d rather go off to some fucking god knows what project,” she mimicked quotations, “just so you’re away from me. That or you’re lost at the bottom of a bottle!”

“Don’t speak to me like that.” I yelled back, grabbing her by the neck.

“Or what?” She looked at me daringly.

She knew there was nothing I’d do to her. She knew she was my weakness. The only person that would push my buttons and I’d let her.

“Don’t dare me Aurelia.” I commanded.

“Don’t make me hurt you.”

She scoffed but didn’t say anything.

I abruptly turned her such that her back was to my front. I buried my nose in her hair and inhaled deeply. I loved the smell of her hair. She smelled of earth after rain and forest. Her dark brown hair smelled exactly like her fur. I loved that smell. I sighed as I wrapped my other arm around her waist, as the other hand remained gently caressing her neck.

“I hate fighting with you.” I whispered in her ear, nibbling it gently.

“Then don’t fight with me. Make love to me . Please. Let’s make some babies.” She pleaded.

“I can’t. You know I can’t even if I wanted to.”

“If you truly wanted to, you’d take the viagra and get it up.”

“I told you it doesn’t work on me. It’s meant for humans.”

“And animal viagra? Try the one for bulls at least.”

I withdrew from her. “I’m not doing any of that shit.”

“See that’s your problem Kieran. You let your pride get in the way.”

“Aurelia if you want cubs, we will adopt. But I’m not doing anything weird to my body. You either embrace me as I am or don’t. I don’t care.”

She started crying. I felt bad.

We had this fight at least once a month, ever since my body had shut down a year ago and simultaneously, Aurelia had starting craving cubs.

This happened most especially before the mating season.

Sometimes I wish we had bred earlier in the good glorious days when we had just mated. But we had foolishly and blindly decided to wait two years before trying for cubs. Then this had happened to me.

“I’m sorry you’re married to a useless alpha. I really wish I could help myself and give you what you want but you know I can’t. My body just can’t.”

I hated myself because as her fated soulmate, she was stuck with me forever and would never get want she wanted.

She looked at me for a moment before saying, “your body can. You just despise witches.”

“Don’t.” I said sternly.

Fucking witches killed my father.

I took in a deep breath to get back my composure. “I’ll be back from Willowbrooke in 3 days.”

“Great. Just before the full moon mating fever begins. What do you think that communicates to the pack?”

“That I am a hardworking alpha, that knows how to balance work and play…”

“Does it? Or doesn’t it just communicate that the alpha has abandoned his Luna? Atleast take me with you.” She pleaded.

“No. I need to concentrate Aurelia.”

“See! I knew you just wanted to get away from me.” She said, her voice accusing.

“Don’t be dramatic.”

“What did you just say to me?” She asked angrily.

“I’m sorry.” I apologized, realizing my mistake.

“I don’t see how me having no libido is going to help you anyway.”

“You know what. Just leave.” I could see I had hit a nerve again.

“Hey,” I gently took her in my arms and lifted her chin. “When I come back, I promise we will go see the witches okay?”

“Promise?” She held out her pinky.

“I promise.” I intertwined my pinky with hers reluctantly.

Her eyes were tearing up again. I kissed her lightly on her lips and on her forehead.

“I love you.”

She just nodded.

I found my beta Alex, and told him I was leaving the keep in his hands, and I needed him to take care of my wife while I was gone. Then I joined the rest of the five pack members that were already seated in the Cadillac Escalade.

“To Willowbrooke we go.”