Going Shopping

I forced myself awake due to the feeling of a pressure pushing on my bladder. I shot up and raced to the bathroom. After I had relieved myself, I stood Infront of the mirror. I couldn’t even recognise myself. My eyes were red and swollen, my nose was red with snot hanging from it, I grabbed some tissue and blew my nose. I turned on the cold tap and rinsed my face with some cold water.

“Azelea. Can you hear me?”

Nothing she was silent. I threw my wet tissue away in the bin and grabbed some more to take back to bed with me. I walked back to my bed and grabbed up my phone to check the time. I knew it was late as it was dark outside, I hadn’t even eaten anything but I wasn’t hungry. I powered my phone up and instantly had notifications coming through.  Messages from Ashley in fact all the messages were from her, not one from Conner. My heart sank and I could feel my tears welling up in my eyes again.

I noticed the time on my phone it was 11.20pm. I felt weak from crying so much but I wasn’t tired, I was angry, actually no I was more than angry I was seriously pissed off. I realised I was thirsty I hadn’t had anything to drink since yesterday so I went down to the kitchen to get a drink. I stood in the kitchen and made a drink of juice I drank it all. Still feeling thirsty I knew I was dehydrated so I had 2 glasses of water. I gulped them down. I wasn’t hungry so I went back up to my room.

My room was in darkness but the moon light was shining through. I went and sat on the window sill and opened my window. Infront of me was the woods in the distance but you could see people sitting around the camp fire in the clearing. I closed my eyes and lifted my face to the moon, hoping it would give Azelea some strength to help her. I seriously wanted to know who that woman as. The more I thought about it the more pissed off I became.

I could feel Azelea still whimpering quietly in the back of my mind. I sighed as I opened my eyes. I could hear the music coming from the camp fire site and I could see people running and messing around in the distance. I looked down and realised I was still in my ripped dress. I stood up and went to the walk-in wardrobe taking my pjs out of the drawer and walked into the bathroom to take another shower.

I had a Luke warm shower and didn’t wash my hair. I just wanted to feel fresher and more alive. I got out and dried myself, I did my evening routine before I put my pjs on, I picked up the ripped dress and threw it in the bin as I walked back to my bed. I know what you’re thinking I should be a mess right? Wrong. Yes, I’m pissed off and yes, I feel like crying all the time. But I was raised by warriors. Top warriors of this pack until last year. I’m not going to fall apart my parents raised me to be strong and strong I shall be.

Thoughts of my ripped dress came to my mind. I remembered how excited I was when I woke yesterday morning. I woke up to my phone ringing and Ashley’s name showed on the screen.

“Birthday Girl, get your glad rags on were hitting the shops.” She yelled.

I laughed. “Good morning to you to.”

“Make sure you’re ready, I’ll be outside in 45 minutes.”

“Ok, ok I’m getting ready now.” I chuckled.

“Ok, love you babe. Kiss kiss.” She ended the call.

I looked down at my phone and smiled. Ashley had been my best friend for 16 years. Her family moved to our pack when I was 2 years old. We played together, went to kindergarten together right through to college. She had always been there for me. I quickly got up ran into the bathroom, showered and washed my hair. I dried my hair with the dryer and got my clothes on. I grabbed my purse and my id from my bedside drawer put my converse on and headed downstairs.

I had just poured cereal into a bowl for breakfast when a car horn was beeping madly outside. I smiled as I placed the cereal box back down and ran through the living room to the door. When I opened it, Ashley was standing on the outside of the car, her arm reaching in beeping the damn car horn constantly. I laughed as she then broke out into a Happy Birthday song. Singing well if you could call that singing, I laughed and made my way to her.

Once she had finished her song she skipped over to me and hugged me.

“Happy birthday bestie.”

“Thanks, so where are we going?”

“First stop lunch, then into the mall for some serious shopping before we go to get your dress for the party tonight.”

“Sounds good.” I smiled as I opened the passenger side door and got in.

Ashley got in and started the car, playing with the CD fast button to get a song for us to sing to. The song started playing and the volume got turned up then BOHEMIAN RHAPSODY by Queen came blaring through the speakers. Both of us screaming as we broke into the song. We both sang our hearts out, banging our heads to the best bit of all the guitarist then the build-up. The bass thumping. I looked over at Ashley as goose bumps came popping up on my arm. There is just something about Freddie Mercury’s music that just puts you in the mood.

We pulled up outside of a little café called Nellys. My mum used to bring us here for breakfast sometimes. It is a quiet little café that makes the best waffles in town. The café is owned by a lovely old couple that has been here for years. We parked up and went inside finding our favourite table in the back. We ordered chocolate pancakes and a chocolate milkshake. By now my stomach was rumbling especially with the fresh smell wafting in from the kitchen.