My Shift

I woke to the sun beaming through the window. I laid there and thought of the previous night floated through my mind. I moved my fingers to my lip and gently moved them across. I remember the gentle kiss my mate Conner placed upon them, the way that he held me and whispered sweet nothings in my ear. I thought of our mating last night, how he was so gentle with me especially as it was my very first time.

I knew he had girlfriends in the past but they never lasted. Conner was the future alpha of our pack and when he didn’t have a steady girlfriend, he had lots of one-night stands. That’s what I heard around the pack. I turned my head on the pillow and looked at where my mate had laid. I reached over and the place where he had laid was cold, which meant he had left a while ago. I laid back down and remembered how excited I had been.

I knew I couldn’t stay in his bed all day so I threw the bed covers back and got out of bed. I looked down where I had laid and saw a patch of blood on the sheet. I stripped the sheet off and carried it with me to the bathroom. I went to step forward but my legs nearly buckled, the pain between my legs ached where he had taken me all through the night. I stumbled into the bathroom placing the soiled sheet into the hamper that was beside the shower.  I turned and looked in the mirror and was shocked at the sight of me. My body was covered in Hickie’s.  

They were covering most of my neck, down along my chest and a few were placed on my breasts. My fingers ran across them and some was sore. A smile spread across my face. I walked to the shower and turned it on. taking off his t shirt and stepped in under the hot water that cascaded down over me soothing my aching muscles. I took the cloth and shower gel and started to wash myself. As I washed between my leg’s memories of our night together and how he touched me down there sent a shiver down my whole body. I was so happy it felt like I was on cloud nine.

After I rinsed myself off, I took the shampoo and washed my hair. Once I felt clean, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around me, stepping out of the shower and drying myself off. It was only then that I remembered I didn’t have any clean clothes here with me. I took Conners t shirt that I had just taken off and put it back on. My panties were totally ruined. I just hope I can borrow some joggers from him till I got home.

I didn’t live in the pack house; I lived in my mum and dads house where I was raised. I couldn’t bring myself to leave after my parents’ death. All my memories were there. I missed them so much I just couldn’t leave I just felt close to them staying there. After the funeral I closed their bedroom door as I didn’t want anything moved. Sometimes when I go in there, I can still smell my mum’s perfume and dad’s aftershave.

I smiled as I can still see their faces and the smiles they used to give me. I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard the bedroom door slam open and then hearing giggling and talking. I moved over to the door and gently opened it slightly.

I couldn’t believe what I saw. My eyes seemed to be deceiving me. I rubbed them and looked again but it was the same. My mate was entangled with another she wolf kissing and groping each other. My hand flew to my mouth to stop myself from screaming. My wolf howling in utter pain seeing her mate betraying us with a female I couldn’t see as his body was blocking our view of her. My heart instantly ached painfully. They were laughing and the sounds of lips slapping against each other, moans started to pierce my ears, I didn’t know what to do. I wanted to run, wanted to get far away from them as quickly as I could.

I watched as they started grabbing at each other’s clothes, just then a knock on the door sounded, they fumbled with their clothes before heading back out closing the door behind them, leaving me there shaken and my heart in pain. My eyes stung as I tried to fight back the tears but it was no use, they came heavy and fast streaming down my face. I made my way out of the bathroom and I stopped and looked at the bed that I thought I would be sharing with my fated mate for the rest of my life. I grabbed my ripped dress and pulled it on not caring I was showing more than I wanted. I pushed myself forward and left his room.

I made my way down the stairs as fast as I could, checking around and making sure the coast was clear surprised that I hadn’t seen Conner. I checked once I got to the bottom of the stairs there was no one around. I ran out of the door and down the steps, sprinting as fast as I could until I got home. I rounded the corner of the road and slowed down. Tears still running down my face. How could this of happened? What did this mean for us?

I saw my house and started to run again. I climbed the steps 2 at a time just wanting to get inside and shut the world out. I got inside and slammed the door. The house was silent, to silent and it was then that I really wanted my mum. I got upstairs and ran into my room slamming the door shut then throwing myself onto my bed. I grabbed my pillow and cried. My wolf still howling no matter how much I tried to stop crying the tears just continued to fall.

I reached under the pillow next to me and pulled out a red cardigan. Instantly the smell hit me Lavender and summer breeze. I snuggled it into me and cried even more, cried for my broken heart, cried for my wolfs broken heart and cried for the loss of my parents. I don’t know how long I had been crying but I felt the vibration of y phone. I reached into my front pocket and pulled it out, my best friends name displaying on the screen. Ashley. I wasn’t in the mood to talk with her so I shut my phone off and threw it down beside me. Somehow am not sure when I must have cried myself into a deep sleep.