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Sometimes, no matter how much you are innocent, you would always be in the wrong and one way or the other, people are always going to see you as the bad one.
The world had its own standard, and somehow, I just never seemed to meet up to them.
“you can’t keep doing this Anya” my father scolded, looking at me with a bit of distaste before he continued scolding me. “You knew it was wrong and you decided to continue!!”
“but he is mine” I said, nearly breaking down into tears
“it doesn’t matter!!!!” he said, the look of distaste slowly turning into one of anger. “it is disgusting and everyone is going to avoid you if you keep doing things like this!! “ he yelled. You could already tell that he was at his wits end already.
“I am sorry” I said, saying it in the most practiced way. I had done this a lot of times to know what exactly I was to say in times like these
But that was the truth.
I was sorry.
Sorry that I was caught by my parents. If I had practiced a little more stealth maybe he would not have known. But I was definitely not sorry for my actions.
“no” my dad said, looking at me with this knowing gaze. “That is not enough anymore. Starting from today, no more magic” he said, looking at me sternly.
“Ethan!!” my mum called from the other side of the room.
“she has to learn, or one day, it is not just going to be Ethan we would have to worry about.
“no more magic! Until you can learn to control yourself!!” he said, with a stern gaze.
I sighed, marching into my room like I was angry.
Time and time again he had yelled this way at me, so now was definitely not new.
I sat down, looking at the mirror right in front of me
*no more magic* my father’s words rang in my ear as the thought crossed my mind.
‘it’s not like he is going to know’ a little voice whispered in my ear, making it more and more difficult to even think straight
“it’s going to be harmless” I whispered to myself, standing up from my spot to get closer to the mirror.
With ease, the words flew from my mouth as I looked straight into the mirror, making it turn almost liquid before it turned hard again.
I let out a breath, looking at the man at the other side,
Ethan.
I smiled as I looked at him, the smile immediately leaving my face as I understood what was happening.
There, the man I was sure was my mate was… touching himself rather inappropriately. I watched as he threw his head back, stroking himself while he moaned with pleasure.
I gulped, my mind racing a million miles per minute while I stood there, fighting the urge to enter the mirror.
“so close” he muttered, his pace increasing by the minute “Lucy” he called, moaning the name like it was some sort of prayer he dared not say out loud.
I paused for a moment, looking at the boy that I was ready to sacrifice my life for.
‘was my name Lucy? Had mother suddenly changed my name and I was not aware of it?’ I asked myself over and over again, looking at the mirror then I felt it.
Rage filled my whole body, shaking me to the core that I entered, not even doing the usual protection spell before crossing over.
“Ethan!” I boomed, looking at him with anger.
“what the fuck is wrong with you!!!” he growled, rushing to cover himself as he growled.
“no, what the fuck is wrong with you!!!” I screamed back, taking a step forward. “Who is she” I continued, not even giving him a chance to speak.
“you are one bloody psycho and if you don’t get the hell out of here…”
“WHAT!” I cut him off, looking at him still with the rage burning in my chest “I am your bloody mate, and the fact that you are not getting that into your thick skull!!...” then I felt it.
His hands connected with my cheeks, shocking me into fear.
“I am done entertaining your nonsense” the anger in his eyes were for lack of better words “I, Ethan, son of Alpha Tobias would never even think of getting a disgrace like you as my mate” his voice was resolute, making it almost impossible to ignore the stinging feeling.
The anger washed off of me in an instant, being replaced by sadness. “Ethan…” I called softly, looking at him through my lashes. “look” I took in a deep breath, “I am sorry okay? I just…”
“No!” he cut me off, which genuinely shocked the hell out of me. He had never once tried to refuse my apologies before.
I would cross a boundary, he would blow a fuse, then I apologize, sincerely and then that would be the end for a while but now? This was something I was definitely not used to.
“what?” I blinked, looking at him with wide eyes.
“I am sick and tired of your tricks Anya and honestly, today? You have gone too bloody far!” I could have sworn that I saw a tear at the corner of his eyes, one which he blinked back “you have harassed me in front of my friends, you have given me no breathing space since I was fourteen! And you have basically made me not have a life!!!!” he was breathing heavily at this point, almost as though he was ready to pass out. “and now… you… you…” if this was some sort of animation, I was damned sure that he would have had smoke coming out of his ears by now.
“Ethan, relax” I tried to calm him down but that seemed to do the opposite.
“relax?” his voice was a whisper “you do not see anything wrong? You do not see how messed up this is?!!” he was roaring by now “I fucking hate you!!” he words stabbed through my chest
“you don’t mean that” I called but it was lost on him.
“I mean it, I mean every word!! I wish you had just died in the accident!!!” he screamed, stomping out of the bathroom and leaving me all alone in the bathroom…
i finally calmed down, my mind finally settled enough to think of the embarrassment. I tried to pull away, forming an excuse of needing to use the restroom, but he was not buying it. His hands wrapped tightly around me, stopping me from going anywhere. “i was a fool, i should not have done that, i am sorry” he said, making me to look up at him. “i just… i was thinking.” he started, going to sit on the chair, gesturing for me to go and sit on the other one. “it was stupid of me to not want to ask why and immediately jump into conclusions.” he said, bowing his head, slightly and lowering his gaze. “i want to know.. why?” he sounded like he genuinely wanted to know, like he was ready to fix what ever was the issue even though he was not the one at fault. “i just want to know, if it was something that i did so that…”“no!” i cut him off. He blinked, not expecting that to be my reaction, but i needed him to understand. “it had nothing to do with you” i said, looking at him with the most
“is there… is there a problem?” she said, looking at me with a bit of slight worry in her eyes. I shook my head no, trying to force a smile, but it just felt impossible to do. It felt as though i could no longer control my facial muscles. “i..” i cleared my throat, making sure that my eyes were dry as i spoke. “i just need to lay my head down, i have a headache” i said, turning back before she could even say anything. I ran. ‘fuck i am so stupid’ my thoughts continued as i ran ‘all these for someone who does not even care to me see after a fight?’ i nearly laughed out loud. Pushing the door and slamming it behind me. It made a thud, almost removing from the hinges with the amount of force i used in closing it but i did not care. I stripped out of my clothes as quickly as i could, wiping the tears from my eyes rather aggressively. “so stupid” i said, letting out a laugh. “my lady?” a knock came from the other side of the door. “my lady is all well? Should i get a physician?” her
It was dead silent, neither of us saying anything after that, then i felt it. He was moving away from me. The heat of his body could no longer be felt. It was replaced by the cold the night brought, then the sounds. I heard his footsteps, they were sounding further and further away. “where… where are you going?” i looked back, completely startled. He was by the door now, his hands on the handle as he was about to open the door. “i am going to sleep in the pack house tonight” I should have agreed, should not have been bothered by that, but i was. I looked at him like he had grown a second head. “and why is that?” He let out a sigh, this one sounded a bit frustrated. “look, what you just said…it kind of hit me. I thought you were with me because… i don’t know, maybe you wanted to be by myside” i could have sworn that i heard his voice crack but then i might have imagined it. “well i would not have come back to the pack if i did not want to be by your side now, would i?” i said
lANYA’S P.O.VI turned, watching the door open. I already knew who it was. For some reason, i found myself smiling as i rushed to him, a skip to my steps as i made my way to him “what took you so long, you said you were going to be gone for a few…” i stoped, looking him from head to toe. There was blood on his shirt, like he went to bathe in blood or something. “what… what happened, i rushed to him. Whose blood is that, why…” he smiled, shrugging like it was not a big deal.“ We were attacked by rouges so i had to take care of it. You know how it is” he said, removing his shirt before coming to hug me “i missed you” he muttered in my ear, kissing me as he spoke. “i dealt with the situation as fast as i could just so i could see you as quickly as possible” he said, smiing. I ruffled his hair a bit before i kissed his forehead. “i am proud of you” his face lit up as i spoke“are you just saying that or…” i laughed. For some reason, his face made me laugh harder than i intended“i
The tears threatened to fall from my eyes but i did not let them. I honestly was not going to let them drop for someone who did not care enough. “Anya… anya wait” he said, rushing after me but i did not stop, i did not slow down, i continued walking not slowing down for him one bit. I was already feeling stupid, there was absolutely no need to add to it. “if you would just let me explain…” he said, sounding much more closer to me now, making me want to break out into a run. “hey!!” he said, the panic in his voice as he held my hand just as i was about to run. “i am sorry okayy. I should not have done that. I should have…” he scratched his head, looking absolutely nervous. “i should let you handle it when you said you will, i should have been true to my words, that was stupid of me to go behind your back and do stuff” it was silent for a while, me standing with my face to the ground as i waited for him to finish speaking. “what was it? The thing she told you about.” it felt like ti
He kissed me like his life depended on it, deepening it with his tongue when i gave him an entrance. “that thing…” i said, my voice small. Very far from the bold talk earlier “what thing?” he said, the look of confusion in his face as well as hunger stunned me. “that thing you did with your tongue” my neck felt hot. I wanted to crawl up a hole and melt in itHe looked at me, still not understanding what i was on about. “i want you to do it again.” i said, my voice low. I watched his face lighten up again as he looked at me “your wish is my command then” he smiled, leaning down to kiss me when he looked at me straight in the eyes. I was breathing heavily, trying to catch my breath as i opened my mouth. He looked at me, mirroring me with his mouth also opened as he was trying to catch his breath. His hands snaked their way to one of my breasts, cupping them in one hand effortlessly. “my favourite color…” he said, his voice low but just enough for me to hear him. “is bright pink, w







