Wolfless

"Get up now" I woke startled at the loud voice of my father through my door. "If you are late again you will be punished!" He yelled before his footsteps faded down the hall. 

I sighed sitting up. My tiny closet sized room was getting even smaller now I was growing. Being a 15 year old living like a slave was beyond horrible, my whole family and the pack hated me. I was born wolfless, my mother was blamed by my father and she blamed me, everyone blamed me. I stood off my mattress on the floor and grabbed the light grey jeans and a black hoodie sliding them on before exiting my room. I walked downstairs and straight into the kitchen. I had to make breakfast for everyone, clean the dishes and wait until the house was empty before eating anything left over, but with 3 brothers that was never much. 

After everyone was done eating and ridiculing me like normal. I washed the dishes ate the left over bacon and the three slices of toast left before grabbing my school bag and heading out the door. I looked up from locking the door to see my brother closest to me in age, Tyler, joking around with Bruce - The alphas son. He was my age and would be getting his wolf this year too meaning his father Alpha Garry would be starting to hand over control to Bruce. They both sneered at me laughing under their breath. I didn't cry anymore because that would make my beatings worse later, but the sight of my own brother laughing at me still stung my almost fully numbed soul. We used to be close all 4 of us before they started turning 16 and figuring out why mum and dad hated me. You see wolves have a very noticeable smell and those born wolfless, even though it's very rare, will have a duller scent or even no scent. Tyler told me he would never act the way our oldest brothers did but sure enough after his 16th birthday he changed. I'm sure Bruce had something to do with that since he's, for a lack of a better term, an asshole. I shudder to think about the pack after he takes control.

I walked to school everyday. It used to be in silence until I started working at 13 and saved enough to buy myself an iPod. Music is an escape for me and I'm thankful for it or I might not have survived this long. I walk into History my first class of the day and already I know it's going to be one of those days. Lily my tormenter at school turned 16 yesterday and was already inseparable from her new found mate, my brother Chris. He may be 4 years older than us but the school wouldn't dare challenge why the future Beta would be in class with his mate. 

He must have smelt me since he pulled away from lily's face long enough to glare at me sitting down in my normal desk at the back. I kept my eyes down pulling out my work and text books. 

"Mr Neilson I realize you and your mate found each other last night but could you please leave so I can teach my class?" Mr Lucas spoke making me jump a little since I didn't realize he was there. 

"I'm fine right here." Chris shot back without taking his eyes off me. 

I finally looked up at him and was met with the cold icy blue eyes I see everytime I look in a mirror. Most times I like to imagine I'm not part of this cruel family or pack but unfortunately I look just like my family. I have ivory skin just like my mother, dark almost jet black hair like my father and every single one of us have bright blue eyes. I looked back down since looking at him too long would probably result in a beating since he would see it as a challenge. I may be part wolf but without my wolf counterpart inside me like everyone else I don't heal as fast, not quite as strong or fast.. 

The lesson started and seemed to drag as I felt Chris's eyes burning holes in me when he wasn't making out, very loudly, with Lily. The bell finally rang and I practically sprinted out of class down the hall to Math. Another period dragged but noone paid attention to me in this class. I had been a great student up until a year ago when Tyler finally broke me completely by going back on his promise and started abusing me like everyone else. My grades have bombed last year and probably will continue this year too. But I don't care anymore. Nana said once my 16th is over with I can live with her. I'll get a job over by her and save for my future away from my family. She is the only one in the whole pack who has ever loved me completely. 

By the time the bell rang for lunch my stomach was rumbling. Thank the Gods for my job or I wouldn't get anything. I work my ass off for minimum wage but it gives me enough to eat a good meal everyday and save for my future move. I currently have $6000 stashed at my grandmother's house where my parents can't touch it. She has been the light at the end of a long abusive tunnel. I grabbed a tray and waited in line. As I reached the front I feel a cold sensation down my back and yelp out of instinct. I spin around to see Chris and Lily in each other's arms laughing like hyenas. 

"Sorry sis didn't see you there. Hope that doesn't make you smell worse than you already do." Chris cracked a grin as Lily cackled.

I pulled the now wet hoodie off and heard kids behind me gasp. Chris began glaring again as I stood wearing only a singlet. He pulled his jacket off and threw it at me.

"Put it on NOW!" He growled at me through gritted teeth. 

I complied quickly. I had scars on my back from lashings with items my father likes to use on me. Being the beta of the pack wouldn't stop him from being punished for beating me to the point of scarring. Our pack Blue Crescent Moon have rules about hitting women of the pack and my family, even if I am a incomplete wold, have broke these rules everytime they have laid hands on me. 

"Father will hear about this." He hissed before turning and leaving with Lily, who looked pissed I was wearing my brothers jacket. 

I turned back around to start gathering my things and saw all eyes in line were on me. I blushed, I hated attention I always have. So I sprinted away from the cafeteria as fast as my human legs would take me. I found myself not stopping and exited school. Noone would care. I ran, my legs and lungs begging me to stop but I didn't until I reached a lake I love. It is situated in the middle of the forest out by the northern border of our packs territory. Noone ever distributed me here because the border guards knew my scent and knew to stay away from me by order of the beta and alpha. 

Flopping to the ground I sat on the grass watching the water. My mind drifted to happier days when my brothers would stand up to dad instead of joining him. When I told them they didn't have to worry about boys because I never wanted a mate. Which is still true especially if they are part of this horrible pack. Wolves mate for life and some wolves can have more than one mate, these are either; second chance mates, meaning the first mate died or in some extremely rare cases, wolves can have more than 1 living mate. The pull is said to be so strong some wolves have been known to travel thousands of miles off instinct alone. But that's not what I want. I don't want someone who was chosen for me I want to find love. Meet, get to know the person, fall in love. The chance of me having a mate is still extremely high since I am technically still a high born wolf but I want to reject that side of me completely. 

Lost in my thoughts I didn't hear the person approaching from behind me until I felt a hand wrap around my arm yanking me to my feet. 

"You know dads been looking for you! He was pissed to find out you left school again." I turned to be met with the face of my middle brother Sam. 

I inhaled sharply as Sam squeezed my arm. I shook my head trying to stop tears of pain from falling.

"I'm sorry Sam I lost track of time." I said as he dropped my arm. 

My hand shot up and began rubbing my arm where I knew it would bruise. He shook his head and then I noticed he had been crying. 

"Sam what happened? Why have you been crying?" I barely got the question out before his hand came up and wrapped itself around my throat. 

"I don't cry. Men, wolves, warriors don't cry don't you dare spread lies about me you pathetic worthless human. You want to know we are all looking for you? It's because Nana died this morning and dad wanted to tell you. He still includes you in the family. Goddess knows why. It would be better for everyone if you just stopped existing." He spat the last words at me with such hate and venom but I was focused on trying to breath. 

My hands were on his arm digging my nails so deep I made him bleed. My legs flailing, kicking, trying to get him to release me. Finally he looked at my falling eyes and let me go to crumbled to the ground. I coughed and sucked in deep long breaths trying to get the spots in my vision to go away. I looked up at Sam crying and shaking. Searching his face, pleading and begging in my head. Please please please let him be wrong. Let him being saying this to hurt me. He simply shook his head and turned away from me. In a moment he transformed into the giant grey and brown wolf he is and ran into the woods. 

I stood shakily and started running full speed towards Nanas house. I arrived to see the house in darkness. No no no I screamed in my head the tears failing faster now. I ran up and tried the front door. It was locked. She never locked her door. I fumbled around the rocks in her front garden until I found the fake one that hid her spare key and opened the door. 

"Nana! Nana please are you here?!" I screamed causing my throat pain but I didn't care. 

I went through the house room by room. It was empty. She hadn't spent a night away from home since my grandfather died 12 years ago. I walked back into her room and opened her bedside table with the key I wore around my neck. I saw the envelope with my money sitting in there along with her other keepsakes. The wedding ring my grandfather wore. Photos of us when we were kids and a silver knife she kept from her first fight against rogues. A wolf keeping a silver knife always made me laugh but she was one of the best warriors and the reason our pack repects woman fighters so much. She was only the third woman to be accepted as a true warrior setting in motion events that mean we are now one of the only packs that have as many females fighting to protect us as males. 

I curled up in her bed breathing in her scent. I drifted off into an uneasy sleep. Until a bang and heavy footstep jurked me awake. 2:30am is what the clock read. 

"KITTY! I CAN SMELL YOU GIRL!" my father's voice boomed in the house. 

Oh no. I grabbed the silver knife the picture and the money and slide them into my bag. I threw it over my shoulder before opening the widow and jumping out. I heard the snap and screamed from the instant pain shooting up my leg. My father came wondering out the front door laughing. 

"Well you've done more damage to yourself than I was going too. You should be able to make it home in time to make us breakfast if you start crawling now." He leaned down putting his nose on mine before he tapped my broke leg cause me to whimper in pain. 

I watched as my father left me, broken and hurting outside the house that was once my only escape. Now a fading memory. I know now my grandmother is gone things are going to get alot worse for me.