20TH HEARTBEAT

JORDI ADKINS

Whatever happened to the hate that I have amassed for Xavier was slowly being drained by his simple apology. And somehow the weirdest part of this plot twist was all me becoming weak on my knees around Xavier when I’m clearly aware that it’s not healthy. Whoever thinks that being all sort of forgiving towards the person who bullied them for quite a long time is an insane person. That’s exactly me, I am an insane person and honestly, I’m okay with it. This seemed to be leading to something that would change the course of my life and to be perfectly blunt with myself, I’m ready for an adventure.

I just don’t have any idea if Jane and Nikki would really understand me. Maybe they’re okay with it, maybe they’re not okay with it. It’s really up in the air. If they’re both trying to be their own woke selves, then I’m horribly fucked.

I may have my own reasons for accepting Xavier’s apology and I’m going to stick by that. The hate that I used to have for this ginger head was slow