55TH HEARTBEAT

JORDI ADKINS

I sat on my usual chair during sex ed. and for the most part, Xavier and I kept on exchanging stolen glances between each other. It’s as if we were both secretly in love and we just don’t want to admit it. That’s crazy to think of but that’s how things are basically rolling off right now. It was pretty much difficult to be in the same room as the person you love but you can’t even express how you feel about that person. But what can I do? This is what I agreed to and while it’s restricting, I’m still glad to have Xavier in my life.

How would I describe this pulsating feeling? I was initially against the idea but when I finally understood Xavier, I finally realized it’s pretty hard to be so out and proud while the other one’s still pretty much hiding in the closet. It’s like a classic story of homosexuals falling in love while the world is completely against their entire existence. No matter how far the community has progressed in the recent decade, still, it isn’t enough