54TH HEARTBEAT

XAVIER ROCKWELL

If the universe will give me the chance to change one thing in my life, I’m pretty sure I won’t be able to think of anything to change. One, I have so many unwanted stuff that I would want to change. And two; I personally think that I’m already used to how life has been fucking me over and over that I’m basically not able to let go of every single emotion that’s pent up inside of me. But if I would rephrase the question, it would be a different thing. If there’s one thing that I won’t change with my current life, that would be my father. I was hoping that he would stay out of my life. He has already ruined everything for me and now he’s trying to wiggle his way back when I personally said I don’t want anything to do with him. Better yet, I would certainly change the fact that he’s my father.

I’m going to be honest with myself, I did not feel any single strike of relief when Coach Millstone revealed to me that my dad called the school to pay for my shit. I felt rather p