23. Parents and Expectations

Can't wait to grow up

Can't wait to have relationships

Can't wait to avoid settling down

- Jacqueline

Since I was a teenager I modeled, busying my days, filling my bank account with money that I don't need. Mom had been adamant that I use my time wisely, education, social gatherings, and occupation where I can make a name for myself. Be noticed, be admired, be a valuable woman who one day men will want as their trophy wife.

Just like her.

I would look at mom and imagined what will my future be. I was confident that I don't want to be like her. I didn't want to be married to a husband who wants their wife as a decoration to his mansion, married to the kind of man who cheats every time, just because they can. In a way, I think mom loves dad, and it saddened me that I don't think he's on the same page as her.

Looking at myself now, I realized that I'm nowhere near content with my life. I'm in my early twenties, I'm gorgeous, almost finished with my degree. I'm rich and I like my job. Bu