LOGIN"Care to explain why you're here?" Hail asked the moment we left the room that Eros was occupying.
Nilingon ko siya gamit ang matalim na tingin. I am basically calming myself because of what just occurred. Sinimulan niya pa. Nabuksan ang daluyan ng inis at galit ko na kinimkim sa loob ng mahigit isang buwan na wala siya.
"And how about you explain to me now what's making you so busy that you can't even give a damn update every damn night, huh?!" I hur
"I brought Rolly's gifts," she murmured."What is that?" I asked hoarsely as she continued rubbing her femininity at my hardness.She giggled seductively."Toys we can use for our one week play?"I groaned at that.She and her naughtiness."Let me kiss you," I begged her.Umahon siya sa paghalik sa aking dibdib."Why not my tits?" she grinned before leaning down to give me what I begged for.I kissed her more passionate. With certainty that I will only kiss her and nothing more. I held her waist, claiming that she'll be safe in my arms forever.I praised her that night. In every position she wanted, in every place she wants me to take her. I love how she's savoring every damn minute with me on our honeymoon."Let's try sixty nine tomorrow, hmm?" she hummed
Okay, sweetie. I will give you this. Isang pangako lang ng gagong 'yon nagagawa niya na ulit ngumiti. Isang sorry lang, nagagawa niya na uling magtiwala. Ganoon siya sa akin noon kaya anong karapatan kong ialis sa kaniya ang ganoong ugali ngayon?"I'm always the competitive one, sweetie," I tried to strengthen my voice.My heart is beating uncontrollably in pain because I'm going to lose her again.Kahit magmakaawa pa ako, hulog na hulog na siya roon. Hinding-hindi niya babaliin ang pangako niya sa asawa kahit pa ito mismo ang unang bumali noon.She looks so sad as she looks at me. Nakikitaan ko rin ng paghihinayang. Was it because it's too late for me? Na kung naging mas maaga ako, baka hindi niya kailangan masaktan pa ng ganito dahil nasisiguro ko sa sarili kong hindi ko siya lolokohin matapos ang reyalisasyong mahal ko rin siya. Na kung nagawa ko bang mapanatili siya sa akin, hindi ko kailangan ma
She probably cried to sleep that might endanger the babies. Yet she's still here with them. She managed to bring them both to life. She probably has a lot of cravings to satisfy our babies but... who's there to give that to her? Her morning sickness... everytime she becomes clingy or moody... who's there beside her to keep her at ease? Her husband?Sinapo ko ang ulo sa dami ng iniisip. I really do fucked up! I don't have a time machine to bring back the time so I could take her back to where she belongs. To me.To know that I throw her away when she needed me the most is same as thousand cuts in my heart. To learn that my kids probably hates me for not fathering them is a million one and finding out another truth makes me want to succumb to God and asked for great forgiveness because I know Avaya can't lend me that one. Hindi na niya ako mapapatawad sa dami ng pinagdaanan niya sa akin.I killed our child.&n
He looked at me with distance on his eyes. His eyebrow twitched. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko sa pagsipat niya sa akin."You're a racer, too?" he asked.I nodded. "I am. I am."Saka ko lang naalala kung anong kaso at narito siya."Why did you fell off your bike?" walang kwentang tanong ko."You're training to become a racer?"Umiling siya."Nah! The big bike isn't mine. Not used to it. I won a couple of times," he boasted.I smirked at that.This is my son. I used to talk like this. He has the right to boast, though. He won a couple of times. I am so happy to know that but fuck realization when it hit me.He's six years old. Sa anim na taon na 'yon ay wala ako sa buhay niya. Bitbit ang apilyido ng iba at hindi ako nabigyan ng pagkakataong makilala.Suddenly,
Tinaliman ko siya ng tingin."Bakit hindi mo subukan? Huwag mo sabihing hindi mo kaya?" balik ko sa kaniya.Mom made a disappointed sound."Tyron," tawag niya. "May mga anak na ang mga kapatid mo. Ikaw na lang ang wala. Your life will be better with kids," ani Mom nang makalapit.I know it would. Sa dami ng inosenteng batang naging pasyente ko, alam kong magiging masaya magkaroon ng isa na galing sa iyo but I just couldn't do it with any woman.Nakakatanginang pakinggan na kung kailan wala akong pananagutan sa kahit na kanino, saka ko hindi magawang gumalaw ng babae katulad ng ginagawa ko noon. I feel like I am forbidding myself to do that and it is frustrating that I know why."Paano bubuo ng bata kung walang babae, Mom?" sulsol ni Troi.Sinapak ko siya sa balikat."Women are everywhere, Tyron," si Dad na tinabihan a
Fucking fuck! Kung alam ko lang na hindi totoong may emergency sa bahay, hindi na ako dumiretso rito at nagtungo na lang sa ibang bansa. I won't be able to stop her wedding if I'd stay in this goddamn cellar!"Mom! Come on!"I am not drunk. I didn't use drugs. It's the beast inside me that wants to wreck the fucking world and take Avaya with me. There's no way she'll get married! We haven't talk yet!I haven't told her I need her with me. I need her for me to function in a fucking nice way! I need her to know how I value her and that I am just messed up and didn't know that before.Avaya... she will accept me with her everything. She is the only one who can forgive me from all of the bad things I did. Who can hush me and tell me I still have time to correct all my mistakes. The only one who can understand even the worst part of me.Isa lang naman ang hinihiling niya noon sa akin. Ang mahalin siya. Kay







