LOGINMy stomach churned but I don't feel like eating today."Gatas na lang," paos kong sambit.Tyron's eyes pierce through me, disagreeing with my words."Kakain ka, Avaya. Kung kinakailangang subuan ka namin ng mga anak natin, susubuan ka namin," seryosong saad niya.I looked at Eros when I felt his hand holding mine."Mom, please eat. We don't want you to faint again," pakiusap nito.Wala akong nagawa kundi sumunod sa kanilang gusto. Tyron made sure I wouldn't do anything but to eat all the types of food he's putting on my plate. Ang nakakagulat lang ay sa dami noon, hindi sumuko ang tiyan ko sa pagkain.I just found out I am really famish but my system was just ignoring it because I am more focus on the pain on my chest. Nakalimutan kong kailangan kong kumain.Iope told me she like to bath with me. I couldn't break her
This is the same feeling when Hail did everything to make up excuses for not holding me every night that I am asking for us to make love. This is the same pain of rejection I am feeling now.I heard him gasped."You felt me, Avaya," he bellowed, every words laced with emphasis as if I should know how much he wanted me yet he can't.He continued what he's doing. I felt the gentleness of him the way he cleaned my private area. Even my breast, neck, and continued removing the makeup on the left side of my face.I shut my eyes tightly."W-what if I don't?" usal ko, nakapikit pa rin. "I'll be divorce by tomorrow. This... is not c-cheating, right?"I heard him groan. When I felt him done with me, I opened my eyes to see him. Mistulang panaginip ang itsura niya dahil sa panlalabo ng aking paningin dahil sa antok, pagod, kalasingan at mugtong mga mata.
I arched my back in response to his kisses, which slowly moved down to my jaw and neck. Feeling quite vulnerable, I couldn't help but react to the gentle movements of his fingers. They traced a path from my back down to my butt, and with each touch, a delightful tingling sensation coursed through my entire body.Ang init na nararamdaman kong dala ng alcohol kanina ay mas nagtutumindi dahil sa bawat kilos niyang puno ng ingat at kapinuhan kahit pa ang akin ay agresibo at 'di makapaghintay.Hinihingal ako nang bumaba ang kaniyang labi sa aking dibdib at ang dila ay pinaraanan ang tuktok noon. He cupped it with his right hand and gave it a gentle yet knee-trembling massage that took my body to feel all the goosebumps.I couldn't focus on grinding my lower body to his growing erection because of his skillful tongue on my breast. Kinagat-kagat niya iyon nang marahan na lalong nagpaliyad sa akin.
Gusto kong tawanan ang sarili sa naiisip pero naiyak na lamang ako. Ganoon ba talaga kaming mga babae? Mabilis palitan kapag pinagsawaan na? Na kapag 'di na ganoon kaganda, iiwan at ipagpapalit na? Nasaan iyong pinangako sa altar? Na ako at ako lang? Na wala ng iba bukod sa akin? Am I not satisfying him now?Kaya si Beverly na? Mas magaling ba siya? Mas masikip? Ano?! Bakit walang maging sagot sa tanong ko? Mas maganda na ba siya sa akin kaya pinili siya? Mas masarap ba siyang humalik? Mas masarap ikama? I saw Tyron coming back from the bathroom with all my makeup remover. He shut his eyes and shook his head. Hilam ang mga matang nakatingin ako sa kaniya. Inilapag niya ang gamit sa kama at umupo roon sa harap ko. Pinanood ko ulit ang ekspresyon niya. Walang kahit ano roon kundi galit at kamisteryosohan. Umaasa akong makikitaan ko siya ng reaksyon ngay
"Mommy..." Eros mumbled, sounding shock and mad.Iope ran to me and hugged me. She started crying too."What happened, Mommy?Why are you like this?" she asked while crying on my tummy."Shh... n-othing!" I drunkenly said. "M-mommy's just happy! Can't Mommy be h-happy?"God knows how I tried to lighten my voice but it faltered after I asked that.Tyron cursed violently."Kids, go to your room first. I'll take care of her," aniya sa dalawa sa mahinahong paraan.Umahon si Iope sa pagkakayakap sa akin."She'll be alright?" she asked.I heard Tyron assuring her I will. I shook my head and put a wide smile."M-mom's alright!" I said, so drunk.Tyron's tsking resounded. I watched my kids made their
"Hail!" I cried his name while shaking my head, not wanting to believe all of this.How dare he hurt me again? How could he ruin me like this? Alam niyang asang-asa na ako. Alam niya kung gaano ko pinaghandaan ang pag-alis at nang maging mas maayos pa ulit kami sa ibang bansa tapos...niloloko pala ulit ako?What Tyron said... It's all true. Lahat ng sinabi ni Tyron...totoo. Kung nakinig ba ako kanina sa kaniya maaabutan ko pa ba si Hail? Magagawa ko pa ba siyang pigilan sa pagtakas niya kasama si Beverly at ang anak?"Ma'am... kalma po kayo," ani Krystal na nanginginig ang boses.Umiling ako. I hugged his letter. She took away the envelope containing the divorce paper."G-gustong-gusto niyang iwan a-ako..." sambit ko.I cried more when she hugged me."Ma'am, m-may gusto po ba kayong tawagan na kai







