Lux
I’m eighteen.I can’t believe I’m actually eighteen.Something is off this morning, but I’m not sure what. Kodi is in my head and it feels like she’s stirring around anxiously. Will I meet my mate today?I sigh softly to myself and roll over as I try to get comfortable in my bed before one of the boys comes to wake me up. But something is still off. I just can’t figure out what. Nothing exciting is happening today. I turned 18, but we won’t get our wolves until the next full moon, which, from what my parents said, it’s two weeks away. A small part of me wonders if I’ll shift early. I already have shifted before, but it’s been about 8 years since my last shift. My wolf, Kodi, only came out when I was young to help heighten my senses and teach me how to cope better with my blindness.She scared the hell out of my family, though. No one expected to see a five-year-old shift into a wolf pup, it was unheard of. And my family made sure that it was kept a secret. My mom has always been scared about people abusing me for their own personal gain.She never told me that directly... she wants me to believe that I’m a strong woman and capable of doing anything that a person who can see can do, but I overheard her crying to my dad and grandparents about it once. I never told her I heard... I know it would just make her guilt worse.Kodi has always stayed in the back of my mind, though. I can occasionally feel her presence, but typically only when I’m doing or eating something she really enjoys. Otherwise, she stays back because until I’m of age, anytime we shift, it was painful and took a lot of energy out of us. She told me when I’m old enough, she’ll be able to always be around. A part of me looks forward to the companionship and the other part of me wonders if I’ll miss being on my own and having my own thoughts without someone else being able to pry into them.There’s a knock on my door, and it quickly opens and shuts. I take a deep breath and recognize my brother’s scent. I smile as I say, “Happy birthday.”My bed dips as he lies down beside me and he responds in a melancholy tone, “Happy birthday, Lux.”I’m surprised by his tone. I know he’s been excited about our birthday for a while. It means he’ll get to meet his mate; he’ll get to shift into his wolf, and he’ll really begin taking responsibilities as him being King won’t be too far behind. I ask, “What’s wrong?”He sighs, “Everything is about to change. I’m just nervous about the changes. What if I’m not a good King? What if I can’t handle the challenges that come with being a mate? I just... I want to do a good job.”I chuckle, “I don’t think you need to be worried about doing a good job, Kai. I’m sure it’ll come naturally. Plus, it’s gotta be easier for you than it was for our parents.”He chuckles softly in response, but he knows that I’m right. Our mother was the only daughter and heir to the throne, but she had been separated from her parents at a young age. She knew little about royalty until after she gained her wolf. She and dad had to learn everything within a couple of months before taking the throne. Kai mutters something under his breath and I didn’t catch what it was before I hear my door open and can smell the boys as they walk in. I can hear as their feet all run towards us and they all plop on the bed, eventually making all of us smushed together because my king-size bed isn’t big enough for 4 full-grown men and 1 full grown woman. I laugh at their antics and hear them all say, “Happy birthday, Kai and Lux!”Everyone talks about different things at once and I just smile happily to myself. I love my boys and being crammed in my bed together making me reminisce about our childhood when we would have sleepovers like this is the best way that I could’ve started my day.I just hope Kai will loosen up throughout the day and be able to enjoy it. SilasWhen David, Calvin, and I stood outside of Lux’s door, I already knew that I must not be her mate.If I was, then her scent would’ve been stronger, beckoning me to come closer, just like my scent would’ve done to her. But that wasn’t happening.The other guys seem oblivious to my sadness as they burst into her room. I’m a few steps behind them, but we all get onto her bed with her brother and make ourselves as comfortable as we can. We all say, “Happy birthday, Kai and Lux!”We all laugh at our situation in her bed. We must look ridiculous. I’m closest to her and as I see her beautiful smile, my heart breaks even more knowing that I am not hers and she is not mine. I try not to let my sadness show, though. I want her to have a good day. She is very in tune with everyone’s emotions, especially those closest to her, so I know if I don’t put on some good vibes, then she will see right through me.We all get off the bed and pick something for her to wear and wait for her before we go downstairs, just like we do every morning. I wanted to escort her downstairs, but I saw Kai take her arm and I knew it was best for them to have one another today.When we get downstairs, I smile whenever I see that Alpha Zane and Luna Lilly came into town along with their kids, Amber, Christopher, and Iris.Zane and Lilly are close friends of all our parents. They were the people who took over King Archer’s original pack since he had to move away to be with Queen Rieka and for them to take their places as Alpha King and Luna Queen.Iris is the only child that Zane and Lilly had together since Lilly had Amber and Christopher before they were together. It’s been over two years since I’ve seen any of them, but Iris is the closest to our age and I must admit, she looks good, a lot better than I remember. Not that she was bad looking before, it’s just now she looks... grown up. Before I can take another step down the stairs so that I could go greet her and hug her, I hear a growl from behind me, “MINE!”I get shoved to the side and watch as Calvin rushes up to her and brushes her hair away from her face. Her eyes are glued to his face, and I can hear Lilly, his mom Olive, and all the other moms in the room gushing about the fact that one of us kids finally found our mate.I hear Lux mutter to Kai, “Calvin and Iris?”“Yup.” Kai responds, letting the ‘p’ sound pop.Kai and Lux’s parents, Archer and Rieka, walk over towards them and I move out of the way and let them have their privacy. I get ready to sit down where I normally would so that I could be by Lux until my dad came beside me and said just soft enough that only I would hear him, “She’s not your mate, son, should you really continue to sit beside her?”I roll my lips together and nod in response as I follow to sit beside my brother, David, who is next to Christopher and Amber, near the end of the table.I glance over here and there as everyone gets seated and I can’t help but notice that Lux looked in the chair beside her, the one that I normally occupied, but it was now being taken by Iris, with Calvin right next to her.Lux leans towards Kai, who is on her other side, and he nods in understanding at whatever she said and I notice his eyes glaze over, showing that he mind linked someone, more than likely Lux so that they could continue their conversation in private. I wish I could be beside her right now, but now that I am officially not her mate, it’s time that I make some distance between us.It’s for the best, no matter how much it may hurt. My wolf, Jax, makes his presence known as he whimpers in my mind from me sitting away from Lux. He surprises me when he does this and then I wonder, why is he sad?I look over at her as she laughs at something someone said. She’s so effortlessly beautiful, and I want her to be mine. Jax mumbles in my head, “Mate?”My eyes widen at his comment and I ask, “Do you feel tingles, Jax? Can you smell her scent the way we’re supposed to? I don’t think she’s our mate.”He grumbles something in response, and I look back at Lux. Why did Jax call her mate when the mate bond isn’t coming out to us?This doesn’t make any sense. But I’m scared to say anything to anyone because I don’t want to hear that it’s just my wishful thinking.Lux Breakfast passes by quickly and Calvin and Iris left as soon as they were finished eating and I would bet by the time we have dinner that they will be fully marked and mated. My nose crinkles at the thought. Not because I don’t want them to mate, but because it will change Calvin’s scent. I find his scent comforting and I don’t like the thought of it changing. David went off with Amber and Christopher. It’s not surprising whenever they come to visit, the three of them hang out a lot. Amber and Christopher are a few years older than the rest of us and I think that since David is the most mature out of the five of us, it just causes them to bond more. Kai went off with my dad, Uncle Zane, and our grandpas, and my mom asked me if I wanted to join her and Aunt Lilly, but I denied. I love Aunt Lilly, but she and Uncle Zane don’t visit often, and I know my mom really enjoys the time that she gets alone with her. Normally I would go off with Silas, but I’m not sure where he is right
Lux From what I was told, surgery only took an hour. But I felt like I was descended into darkness for hours. I got shot by a hunter using a bullet laced with wolfsbane. It wasn’t enough to kill me, and we believe it was only meant to subdue me and my wolf, but because of Silas pushing me into the water, it ended up hitting my side and it caused lots of bleeding. The doctor stitched me up and gave me painkillers and put me in a room to recover, but now that I’m eighteen my wolf is closer to the surface and once, they got rid of the shards of the bullet that were in me, my wolf began to heal me. It was a slower process since I haven’t officially shifted yet, but they expected I should move around just fine by dinner. Everyone has been visiting with me and right now I have my eyes closed, so they think I’m sleeping, but I can’t sleep. All I can think of is Silas and how he kissed me. Why did he do it? I don’t understand. I thought he thought of me as a sister. I’ve only ever kissed
Lux By the end of the day, I was completely healed and feeling fine. I can’t wait to talk to my wolf, Kodi, and express my gratitude to her, but I know that’s not supposed to happen until the next full moon, which is in 2 weeks. I know Kai is eager to shift. He’s eager to take his place and to find out what his wolf looks like. It’s a luxury he talks about constantly and doesn’t recognize how hard it is for me to hear because I’ll never know what I look like. As we finish up eating our cake, I hear Kai whisper softly to me so that no one would notice us, “Hey sis, you wanna go for a walk?” My eyebrows furrow, surprised by his request. It’s already so late. I ask, “This late?” “Yeah, come on you’re going to be with me, don’t you trust me?” He asks teasingly because he already knows the answer. “Of course I do.” “Then come on.” He responds as he takes my arm and excuses us. I wasn’t fully paying attention, but I know his excuse had something to do with hanging out with his favori
Kai From the moment I allowed Loki to take control, I didn’t know what happened. I knew nothing until I saw my dad standing in front of me, looking frustrated. We sit in his office to make sure we have privacy, and my mom just gave us each a cup of hot chocolate to help calm us all down. She also sets out some peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and some popcorn. It reminds me of days when we were in elementary school, and we practically lived off of that all the time. I think that’s why she did it, to give us a bit of nostalgia and help us relax and honestly, it seems to work a bit. As we eat, I explain to them what happened and how Loki asked for control, and I gave it to him and then he completely shut me out. My dad is leaned back in his chair with his hand on his chin as he thinks about everything I said. This isn’t normal. Wolves aren’t supposed to block you out like that until later, when you have complete and total trust in one another. On top of that, why did Lux and I shift
Silas By the time Lux and I finished breakfast, everyone else joined us and we all started talking about the fact Lux and Kai shifted last night. It’s crazy, but I imagine it has something to do with the fact they’re royalty. Kai seems frustrated as we all talk and doesn’t say many comments, but I notice that both his and Lux’s eyes cloud up multiple times, showing that they are mind linking and, more than likely, they are linking each other. I want to see what Lux’s wolf looks like. When we were kids, I vaguely remember seeing her shift into her wolf. I glance over at Lux. I bet she has the most beautiful wolf ever. I feel my shin get kicked and I wince in pain, then look across from me to see my brother, David, glaring at me. He knows about my crush on Lux, and he’s never approved of it. But now that we know for certain that she is not my mate, my crush on her just pisses him off. Lux scoots her chair back and stands up, but before I can even try to accompany her, her brother
Lux There are certain times I’m grateful that I’m blind. And as birthday party preparations are in full swing, this is one of them. I could hear my mom, aunts, or grandmas flipping out over some insignificant details like the color of the napkins and it just made me grateful they couldn’t ask my opinion. My opinion only mattered for food, and that had already been picked out over a month ago. We are only a couple of days away from our birthday party and I am so nervous about it. It’s going to be an enormous party with tons of visiting packs, which means the chances of me or one of the boys finding their mate were extremely high. Things haven’t been the same since my birthday. Silas and I haven’t been as close. Calvin and Iris are attached at the hip and both their scents changed which has been a change for me, and Kai is struggling to control his wolf and every day is working towards gaining control over him. I try to help. His wolf seems to respond well to mine, almost like t
Lux I don’t know what came over me that would make me bold enough to straddle Silas. Oh yeah, my aggressive wolf. While I waited for Silas to respond, I yell to her in my head, "What are you doing? Why?! He’s not our mate and he’s my best friend! This will ruin everything." She huffs, "I’m drawn to him and his wolf. Let us have just one day, Lux. Tomorrow, both of us may meet our mates." "And if we don’t?" "... Then maybe we’re meant to be mated to one another." I’m surprised by her statement. I’m surprised she wasn’t appalled at the thought of just being physical with Silas. From what I’ve understood about mates, and everything is that the wolf side of you shouldn’t be attracted to anyone except your mate. But here she is, attracted to Silas, and I can’t help but wonder, what does this mean? I suddenly feel self-conscious because Silas still hasn’t answered me, and his lips are so close to mine. As I feel his breath on my face, I feel desperate to close in the gap between us.
Lux When I get home that night, I swear I am on the highest high. Spending the day with Silas was perfection. Bungee jumping was the biggest thrill, and afterwards we went out to eat at a small bistro that neither of us had ever been to. It was a family run place and had little business, so we talked with the owners for a while. They were human and were pretty old, but they talked about how they knew each other as children and went their separate ways at college, but ultimately found their way back to each other. I secretly wonder if maybe the moon goddess, Selene, matched them together, but I felt jealous that Silas and I wouldn’t be able to have the same outcome. I make a mental note though to send them an anonymous donation. It’s obvious they were struggling to stay afloat, and their food was great, and I want to go there again. When Silas brought me to my room, I asked for him to come in. We need to have a proper goodbye without worrying about who could be watching. And as sa