MasukHearing his last sentence, the last thin thread in my heart cut and I could feel the pieces of my heart falling into my stomach. Adrian wasn’t saying anything, he just stood there, watching me go through the last of my heartbreaks. I gulped, nodding, I wanted to reply to him, to say something, but I couldn’t form any words, I tried to walk away but he grabbed my hand to stop me. Funny enough, I let him, my heart was numb, my whole body was numb. His words were all it took to damage me to the very last. Somehow, I had been hoping that he was regretting it, that he was going to apologize to me with any given opportunity, but it turns out I was wrong, it was all my wishful thinking.“Do you know why?” He asked, I looked up at him with soulless eyes, “do you know why I don’t regret it? It’s because it got me to know you, it got me to understand you better other than what everybody was saying. If I am being honest with you Molly, when I first you saw you in class, I just thought you beauti
Hold on, did she just slap me? Oh no, that is not happening. I raised my hand and slapped her back, she clutched her cheek in shock, perhaps not expecting me to do that, “I may have wanted to say sorry before, but trust me, all I want to do now is dump the whole drink in this house on you. You should be happy I spilled my drink on you, at least no one has to be looking at you as the cheap slut you are.”People who were closed to us laughed, and Mia couldn’t take it, she smirked and folded her arms on her chest, “oh yeah? Could it be that you are jealous of the way I am dressed or is it the fact that Adrian is with me real and unlike you who it was all a bet?”That’s it, that was my last blow, I glared at her, thinking of a way to refute her but every time I was reminded of Adrian coming after me because of some stupid bet, it always renders me speechless and also hurts just as much. “You shouldn’t blame him though, is not his fault that you are not me and you lack what it takes,” she
When we got to my house, I could still see Mia kissing Adrian in my head and to be honest, it makes me want to barf. I got down from the car and went inside, then straight to my room. My parents had finally decided on the date they would be coming back, according to them, they said we should be expecting them anytime from next week. I’m looking forward to it because I am hoping they would announce one of their impromptu moving. I would gladly move now, as long as I would be able to stop seeing Adrian acting like I never stood in front of my house and tell him that I love him.Christy followed me into my room, she groaned when she saw me lying on my bed, “not again Molly, seriously, when is it going to end?”“When I stop loving him, maybe?” I answered, not looking at her.“I don’t understand you, you know, you are very confusing,” she said but it only reminded of a certain someone, he told me I was confusing too. “You know you will be missing him this much but yet you told him to stay
And so, that was how it went, from having a boy who makes my heart beat to being alone like I always used to be. Only that now, I don’t want to be alone, I don’t want to feel alone. Every night, everyday, I missed him, his kisses, his laughter, his voice, his playfulness, his smirks, his winks, everything. Sometimes I lay in my bed and imagined how things would have been with us if only it had gone differently. How amazing would that be? But no, it didn’t go differently, he didn’t approach me on his own accord but because of some stupid bet!It’s been two weeks now since Adrian’s true intention has been revealed, somehow, I don’t know and I don’t care, he had gotten the students to stop pestering me but that doesn’t mean some of them still don’t do so in secrets, like when I opened my locker to see papers pasted on it with ugly words written on them. And the one someone used spray paint to write nonsense on my locker. Christy had reported it but no one agreed to being responsible. I h
I ran into the bathroom and locked myself in one of the stalls, tears trailed down my cheeks uncontrollably. I heard the door opening and wiped my tears. “Molly,” it was Christy and it all gave me déjà vu, only that the pain this time was more and a few words couldn’t take it away. “Hey, come on, you told me yourself that you have to do this, you said so yourself that there is no avoiding it, so don’t start crying now and finish this off. You can do it, they are all going to get tired soon, it won’t last forever. All I’m asking is for you to be strong, let’s pass this storm, okay? Everything will be back to normal again, you will see.”Yes, everything would be back to normal, except my heart, it won’t stop beating for him like it did now just seeing him. But I will stop that, I don’t know how long it will take but I know I can, I will do it. He doesn’t deserve my love, I was right all along, no one deserves my love, absolutely nobody, so I will be okay, I can do this. Telling myself t
I hugged Christy tightly and I seemed to have found my voice back for I said to her, “I’m not blaming you Chris, I’m actually happy I told him, at least, this is out now and he is no longer fooling me. All it would take is a matter of time, I will be fine.”She looked up at me with tear filled eyes, “how could he do this to you, after everything?”I shrugged, “I guess I never worth to him like I thought I did.”“His is going to pay for this, he is the worst.”“Okay, can someone tell me what is going on here? Who is he?” Max asked.I glanced at him, not knowing how to tell him, he really liked Adrian, so much. I smiled to him, “I will tell you later.”He looked at Christy then at me, “promise?” I nodded, “okay. I’m going to go get ready for school.” I nodded again and he left.“What are you going to do now?” Christy asked.I heaved a sigh and fell on the bed, “I don’t know.”She lay beside me, “everyone in school knows,” I closed my eyes and tears sipped from the corner of my eyes, “Ke
Adrian looked at me with amusement in his ocean blue eyes, “you told him about me?”“Of course she told me,” Max said. With the look in his eyes, I could see that he liked Adrian and that doesn’t make me happy one bit, now he won’t let me hear a word. “You are even more than I expected.”“Really?”
I glared at him and he laughed, “your words, remember?” He reminded me.“Point of correction, it wasn’t my words.”“But you suggested it and she just said it,” he winked and walked to my bed. Falling on it, he picked up the novel I had no idea was still there, yeah right. “Hmm, romance, never knew
“What the hell?” I asked.“I have missed you,” he chuckled, taking a step towards me, “what’s hard to understand there,” he was now in front of me and he ran his fingertips on my cheek, “I missed you pigeon,” he repeated in a whisper.A shiver ran through my body and I took a step back, “okay, you
“No, I don’t want to join in anything,” I was saying to Christy on the phone as I climbed the stairs to my room. Max chose to turn in earlier and I only enjoy watching Netflix with someone, or at least start it with someone before being left alone. It was only eight o'clock and I didn't know what t







