chapter 3

It took me a minute to respond back, not wanting Lawrence to get suspicious of my actions I immediately said uhh he seem like a nice guy from what I can see from meeting him earlier today. but I really can't say because I don't know him but into response to him I said why do you ask Lawrence said no reason just wanted you to get to know him better since he's a family friend and we will see him more in the future.

I know if people could read my mind they probably would say why are you thinking about this other man when you got a man already, little as they don't know I have an appetite for real burning lust I mean the lust that make you lose all sensible thinking, the lust that make you forget whether you coming or going the lust that change reality.

The lust that you think that's only fabricated in fantasies or in your dreams as a victorious woman I want that.

I need that but with Lawrence I only get the bare minimum so with that being said I am not deeply satisfied I yearn for more than when he can give me.

But I do not dare say or speak on what I am feeling or thinking because I do not want to hurt him we've been together for 10 years.

I do love him an he is a good man so with that being said I just keep everything bottled inside and never revealing my true self.

Me and Lawrence make our way to the bedroom and we begin to have a make out section after watching Jason lyrics I started to get a little flustered I couldn't resist having a taste of Lawrence while in my mind wishing it was Allen instead.