Life is playing its dirty game with me.
It is fucking me up.
Again.
The thing is, i really was happy for a while, the past year was perfect in its own way.
I finally felt okay.
But why did I believe that it would last forever. Why did I believe i was getting better.
Why it didn't cross my mind that in a span of seconds, i can lose it all.
Lose everything.
But - Why ?
Before you start i just want to make sure everyone understands that I definitely disagree with what Alex did in the last chapter or what he'll do in this one. I surely don't encourage self-harm in any way, and i am 100% sure it is never the way to overcome anything, there is always a better way to move on from any problem you may face in life. Just put in mind, the character's choice is their own and not mine. Oh and btw, it's not edited XDHappy reading ! *****
Alex's POV I directly pulled my arm away , "Don't start." I said."The fuck i'll start." He snapped angrily, i ignored him as i again pulled the sleeves of my sweater down.He looked shocked, why ?Didn't he think i will do it again. Wasn't it obvious-I was hoping that at least no one will notice, but damn, it's hard - so fucking hard to keep a secret when it is written all over your body."Why ?" He asked, his voice came lower this time."Why not." Was all i said."Alex, what the fuck, do you wanna go back ther
Alex's POVA small smile crossed my lips as i walked inside the house. I stretched my arms above my head and a yawn escaped past my lips as i leisurely made my way to the bedroom.I sighed heavily as i plopped down on the bed. Ah - Finally.Home sweet home.Hotels can be such a pain in the ass. Like literally, in the ass.I closed my eyes preparing myself for pretty much needed sleep, but guess what, guess what, that stupid electronic thing they call a phone started ringing.With my eyes still closed, i took it out of my pocket, i opened one eye to take a look at the caller's ID, with a sigh i pressed the a
" Our eyes met and hands touched,Lights dimmed as our eyes clashed. Mask covered our faces but our voices heard,Two years without you weren't roses on bed.Eyes remained unblinked, both yours and mine,Touches ignited the calming inferno again.I stand confused, bewildered and betrayed,Is it really you or am I dreaming again?Masks came off, faces uncovered,It was really you, still beautiful like the old days. They said you were no more,How did you come back, fighting rage and gore?Tears flowed as our gaze melt,
Cara's POV I stared at my phone screen seeing Nikolas's name flash through it, I couldn't help the way my stomach tightened in knots.I swallowed hard and debated myself whether I should answer it or not-Roman said that he left, he doesn't know i am here, he thinks i am at the hotel, right ?I think i should answer, for him not to get suspicious. I took in a deep breath and pressed the answer button. I placed the phone to my ear and no words were able to form out of my mouth.I heard his low breath before he lowly said, "Hey."My eyes closed, my other hand fisted around the blanket.
Cara's POV"- But you'll never be able to heal the scars over my arm."His words hit me hard, so hard. My eyes traveled to his arm and my chest tightened.I saw them before, i did.They are clearly craved over his skin making it hard to ignore and not observe. Not one or two, much more, way more.I saw them but I didn't think it through. I saw them but i ignored them too.Because it kills me, it rips me apart knowing that this time, i am the reason behin
Cara's POV"Are you scared ?" I asked Lilly as I crouched down in front of her and buckled her seatbelt.Her wide eyes looked at me and she nodded, her fingers wrapped tightly around the belt. Her small knuckles turning white from her very tight hold.I gave her a smile trying to sooth her, "It's okay, i am sitting beside you, don't worry." I said as i stroked her cheek before i stood up and sat down beside her. I buckled my seatbelt as well, then took her small hand in mine.She looked around the plane in fear, her eyes glistened with tears, her lips pressed in a pout, she sniffled and one tear trickled down her cheek.When we came from London, she was so scared as
Alex's POVI had this very little small hope.That things would be fixed, that we can get back together again. That the past can be forgotten and moving on is a real thing.But now, now her very few words smashed that hope into very tiny pieces.I had this hope, that they didn't-That he didn't-Fuck- the thought alone kills me.This burn in my chest, when will it stop ?For god's sake, i thought he didn't touch her.