“Mommy I don’t want to go home” Sandra whispered to me habang pinapatulog ko sila. Today is our last day sa resort. As usual, we tried surfing and diving. Habang ang mga bata naman ay nasa pool. Maghapon kaming nagbabad sa tubig kung kaya’t pagod na pagod ang mga tao ngayon. Sina sander st Sandro naman ay tulog na. kitang kita ang mga pula nilang mukha at braso pati katawan. Dahil ginaya si mavis na mag topless maghapon.“hmm… we’ll go on a vacation soon. Okay? You really love swimming huh?” I caressed her hair as hummed a lullaby song. Maya’t maya ay nakatulog na ito. Naisipan ko lumabas muna para magpahangin sa may tabing dagat. I really love the sea breeze at night. Ito ang bagay na hindi ako magsasawang gawin kapag nag outing sa dagat. I sat by the sand as I always do. I put my airpods and played my favorite song. I was humming with the song when someone sat beside me. kinuha nya naman ang right airpod ko at nilagay sa tenga nya.“I knew you’d be here. Ahaha did I disturb you?” m
I was busy checking documents for the café when Amelie knocked on my door. “Sis, may bisita ka.” She said at bago pa ako makasagot ay umalis na ito. Kaya wala akong nagawa kundi ang lumabas nalang. Napabuntong hininga ako nang makita ko kung sino ang taong naghahanap sakin. “Zane” I said and he looked at me blankly. “can we talk?” he asked and I nodded. Wala naman mangyayari kung iiwas ako ng iiwas. I motioned him to follow me sa office and I saw Amelie giving me the “What-the-hell?” look. Nang makarating sa office ay umupo ako sa office chair ko at sya namang nasa harapan ko ay umupo. “Talk.” I said coldly. “did you cheat on me?” I was taken aback on his question. I never thought that he will be asking me that question. “really? You’re asking me that?” I said gritting my teeth. “Don’t you think I deserve the truth after everything that happened. These past 5 years was a hell for me.” he’s mad and hurt. I can see it in his eyes. “let me ask you, Do you think I cheated on you?”
“Love, I’m sorry. Our flight is cancelled due to heavy rain. I’ll be there tomorrow I’m sorry” Zane told me over the phone. I sighed as I look at the surprise that I prepared for him.“It’s okay Love, I understand take care of yourself there okay?” he chuckled a little“I know you’re disappointed but I’ll make it up to you tomorrow. Happy 5th anniversary love, I love you” I smiled“I know. If ever na tulog pa ako just come in my hotel room. The code is 2568. See you. Happy 5th anniversary I love you too. “ I ended the call and my tears start falling.Alam ko namang hindi sadya yun but the disappointment in me is in chaos. Napatingin ako sa nagkalat na mga rose petals at ang candle lit dinner na hinanda ko. Today is our 5th anniversary. We promised each other na we won’t engage in any sexual activity until marriage. We’ve promised each other na kapag kinaya naming umabot ng 5 years, we will get married. This is my surprise to him.I am now willing to give myself to him Afterall magpapak
(5 years later) “what do you want for breakfast kids?” I asked my babies while preparing my coffee. “I want some pancake with maple syrup mom” Sander said while yawning “I want pancake with strawberry syrup mom” Sandro said “I want some pancake with chocolate syrup mommy” Sandra said while manang delia fixes her hair. “Alright kids, coming right up!!” Nagsimula na akong magluto ng pancake at sinangag na may spam at hotdog para samin nila manang. It’s been 5 years since that incident happened. Nagpakalayo layo ako sa tulong ng aking bestfriend dahil hanggang ngayon ay wala parin kaming kontak ni mama. She didn’t believe me when I said I was raped. She’s very disappointed in me. That’s why humingi ako ng tulong sa kaibigan kong si bri. Nakakahiya man but I have no other choice. Thankfully, she lent me her condo unit and gave me a job in her father’s company. For the past 5 years, wala akong ginawa kundi ang magtrabaho at magipon. Nakatulong din ang monthly groceries ni briana samin
“GIRL! May good news ako sayo bilis!” nagulat ako sa bungad ni Amelie, ang bestfriend slash chef ng cake&coffee shop na pagmamay ari ko.“spill it” I said while signing some documents. Madalas pag day off ko lang sa kompanya nakakapag focus ditto ng maayos. Kapag may free time ay dinadaanan ko ito para masigurong maayos ang shop.“may malaking order tayo. You lknow the TIB-C? Tao Int. Broadcasting Corp? magkakaroon sila ng founding anniversary next Sunday. They ordered a thousand pieces of cup cakes at 5-tier Cake. Imagine that?”“so how are we going to do that? Kulang tayo manpower. “ I sigh magandang opportunity sana to for publicity. TIB-C is no joke. Isa ito sa pinakamalaking business dito sa bansa. They also manage hotels and broadcasting stations. 
“Mommy I want this dress pretty please” napatingin ako kay Sandra na may hawak na dress at nagpapacute para bilhin namin ang gusto nyang dress.“okay. Put it in the cart” she smiled happily. Nandito kami sa isang local store ilang minute lang ang layo mula sa resort. Ang daming tindahan at mga souvenirs na pagpipilian. Meron ding mga pagkain, key chains, native bags and slippers at kung ano ano pa. napagpasyahan naming magikot ikot ngayon upang mawili ang mga bata.Si Sandro at sander naman ay tahimik na nakahawak kay noah at tumitingin tingin.Si manang naman ay namimili din ng mga pasalubong. Nakakita ako ng lut-lutuan na laruan na gawa sa clay ata to. Meron akong ganito nung bata pa ako. Maaring magamit ito ni Sandro kung kaya’t binili ko ang buong set. May iba’t ibang size, sandok na gawa sa kawayan, mga plato at kutsara at kung ano ano pa.“Mommy” napatingin naman ako kay Sandro na karga n
Everything feels surreal. My kids and noah playing under the sun feel so complete. I know it’s wrong to lie but my children’s smiles are priceless. Buong Pamilya. Ito yung bagay na alam kong hindi ko maibibigay sa kanila. Ever since they were born, yan na ang nasa isip ko. Like what would they feel if makikita nila ang ibang pamilya na buo at masaya. Wala namang magulang ang naghahangad ng isang magulong pamilya. I never dreamed of a broken family. I was longing for my dad when he died in a car accident when I was 7 years old. I can barely remember his face. lagi syang wala sa bahay pati si mom. Lagging si manang delia ang kasama ko sa tuwing may event sa school. But whenever dad is at home, he always makes sure to spend time with me. kasama ako sa car accident and I have selective amnesia na until now hindi parin bumabalik ang iba kong ala-ala.“hon, I want you to meet my parents formally as my girlfriend”“don’t you think it’
“Sis parang ang ganda ng bakasyon mo ah” pang aasar ni Amelie habang pinapakita sakin ang picture namin nila noah nung nagbakasyon kami. Pinost ni noah sa Instagram at facebook lahat ng picture nung bakasyon. Alam kong maingay na naman mamaya sa office dahil sa nangyari. Dumaan muna ako dito sa shop para icheck ang cake at cupcakes na kakailanganin para sa lingo.“shut it Amelie. Ang dami ko pang pinoproblema.” Minasahe ko ang noo ko dahil sumasakit ang ulo ko kakaproblema sa cake at cupcake. Pati si mom problemado ako.Tumulong na ako sa pag gawa ng mga flower fondant na gagamitin para sa mga cake at cupcakes. Buti nalang at maraming kakilala tong si Amelie kung kaya’t marami syang nakuhang tao para tumulong samin ngayon.Tumagal ng mahigit dalawang oras ang paggawa naming ng mga flower fondant. Napagdesisyunan ko munang magpahinga ang lahat. Narinig ko namang may tumatawag sa cellphone ko kaya agad ko itong sinagot.