The wind that was blowing helped us as we both breathed heavily. Nasa leeg ko ang labi ni Darius, I could feel his warm breath there. Halik pa naman ’yon pero para na akong nanghihina. I rested my forehead on his chest. Nasa likod ko ang kamay ni Darius, supporting me from falling.“Let’s go inside,” bulong niya sa leeg ko. I felt him graze my flesh there.“Yes,” I whispered.Hinigit niya ako papunta sa bahay niya. I was still in a haze kaya halos hindi ko na namalayan kung paano kami nakarating sa kwarto niya.Pagsara ni Darius ng pintuan ng bahay, we resumed kissing. Hinawakan niya ang dalawang hita ko at saka niya pinalupot sa bewang niya. I instantly felt his hard-on poking my already throbbing center.“Ohh God! Darius,” I whispered. Gusto kong idiin ang sarili ko sa kanya.I felt his hand inside my blouse. And he unclasped my bra. Naramdaman kong nahulog ang strap no’n sa balikat ko.One moment he was walking me to his room, I was wrapped around his waist. The next moment, nasa k
Walking to the resort is weird. Not weird in a bad way but I felt weird. Hindi ko alam kung bakit. Maybe because of the changes? Lumaki na ang resort at mukhang nagiging five-star na siya.Pagbukas ng glass door, nakita kong maraming tao. Lumaki na rin ang lobby; it had expanded and was more modern now than before.Agad akong lumapit sa front desk. Magaan ang ngiti sa akin ng babae nang nakalapit ako.Bahagyang akong ngumiti. “Hi. I have a reservation under Salazar.”The girl nodded at mabilis na nag-type sa computer sa harap niya. I waited for her to confirm my reservation… but then I saw her look at me. Kung pwede lang ay gusto niya pa sigurong tanggalin ang hoody ko at ang sunglasses ko.She was speechless for a second before she snapped out of her thoughts.“Yes, Ma’am. But the management has already arranged a special accommodation for you. We’ve upgraded you to our Executive Oceanfront Suite, complete with a private terrace and exclusive butler service.”Medyo tumaas ang kilay k
For two weeks, sinubukan kong magsaya gaya ng gusto ni Darius. Hindi ko na sinubukang magbukas ng account ko dahil hindi rin naman niya ako kakausapin.Pero kahit gaano pa kasaya ang trip, may mga oras pa rin na sumasagi siya sa isip ko. Like there were places where I’d wish na siya na lang sana ang kasama.And I damn miss him! Two weeks without communication makes me long for him.“I'm sorry, Tita, emergency siguro,” sabi ko kay Tita Savannah.Nag-iimpake na ako dahil mauuna akong umuwi sa kanila. Hindi ko na kayang manatili dito. I need to see Darius. Well, I could probably see him if only I tried calling him, but I want to see him in person. Not on the screen.“It's sad that you have to return early, hija,” ani Tita Heather.Bahagya akong tumawa. I don’t feel sad at all.“Don't worry, Tita. Enjoy niyo na lang ang remaining two weeks niyo. Narito naman sina Claire at Danielle.”Hindi sila tumuloy sa agenda nila ngayon at narito sila sa kwarto namin, pinapanood akong nag-iimpake. Sin
“Jessica,” Darius called.I looked at the screen, tears streaming down my cheeks.“I’m sorry. I thought you wanted to think about us, so I gave you space,” he said hoarsely.Tumango ako. “Akala ko galit ka.”“I’m not,” he said, chuckling. “But I miss you,” he whispered.“I miss you too,” sagot ko rin.Kita kong pumikit ng mariin si Darius. “Why didn’t you message me then? I was just waiting for it, baby.”“Kasi hindi ka rin nagme-message.”He snorted. “You just ignored my previous message. I don’t want to force you if you don’t want to talk to me, Jessica.”Umiling ako. “I want to talk to you,” agap ko.“Stop crying then. I’m here.”I inhaled a deep breath. Pinunasan ko ang pisngi ko. I then smiled at him.“Hindi mo na tinitignan ang mga status ko,” nagtatampo kong sinabi.“Did you post that status just to update me?” he asked. “If you did, you don’t have to. I want you to enjoy this trip without thinking about me.”“Paano naman ako mag-e-enjoy kung inaalala ko kung galit ka o hindi.”
I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard them laugh. Nakatitig ako sa window sa gilid ko at pinagmamasdan ang dagat sa baba. It looked calm from up here but I knew there might be something happening deep down there. There might be chaos deep in the sea and you couldn’t see it on the surface.Ganyan ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Akala nila masaya ako sa trip na ’to. I laughed when they laughed but deep inside me, I was in chaos. My mind was in chaos.“Jessica, kakain na,” tawag sa akin ni Mama.I smiled and took the food she handed me. Another laugh erupted from Tita Savannah and Tita Heather but I didn’t know why were they laughing. Lumipad na naman ang isip ko sa ibang bagay.“Ang saya niyo naman pala dati, Mommy,” sabat ni Danielle.“We were, hija,” sagot ni Mama.Tumango ako. Pinag-uusapan nila siguro ang buhay nila noon. Interesting sana kaso hindi ko magawang makinig sa usapan.At para hindi sila makahalata na wala ako sa sarili ay nagsimula akong kumain. I focused on my food.
“Jessica, na-impake mo na ba ang lahat ng kailangan mong gamit?” tanong ni mama sa akin.Tumango ako. “Mama, asikasuhin mo ang sa’yo. Tatlong maleta ang dala ko. Lahat na nandoon.”Umupo ako sa kama nila. Ngayon kami pupunta sa Italy. Papa won’t be coming. Wala naman kasing aaasikaso sa business kung sasama siya, considering na apat na linggo kaming mawawala.I watched mama mentally check the things she needed. Humiga ako sa kama nila habang pinagmamasdan siya.Umuwi ako para sabay na kami ni mama na ihahatid sa airport. I used to look forward to this trip. Masaya ‘to dapat kasi kasama sina Tita Savannah at Tita Heather. Pero parang hindi ko magawang maging masaya dahil sa nangyayari sa amin ni Darius.Heck! I don't even know who's fault this happened! Ako ang nangunang umiwas. Hindi ako gumamit ng social media for days. Ngayon naman siya!Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyayari o kung busy ba siya pero hindi na niya ginagamit ang account niya. Hindi na niya navi-view ang mga status ko at