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“You really think this is happening?” Ryder said loudly so the whole clearing could hear him. He laughed in a short, mean way. “Look at you, Sophia. That tummy hanging over your clothes. Those thick breasts. That ass that takes up half the space. You are not my type. Not even close.” My face burned hot with shame. I felt like everyone was staring at my body. My wolf whimpered inside me and curled up small, trying to hide from the pain. I opened my mouth but nothing came out at first. My throat felt tight. “Ryder, wait,” I finally managed to say. My voice cracked. “We do not have to do this right here in front of everyone. Can we talk alone? Please?” “Talk?” He cut me off and stepped even closer. Now everyone could hear every word. “You are a weak omega, you are half human. You would drag the pack down. I need someone strong. Someone who looks the part of a Luna. Not this.” He waved his hand at my body like it was something funny or disgusting. The pack started laughing. Whispers turned into loud comments. “Told you she had no chance,” one person said behind me. Another voice added, “Poor thing, but what did she expect? She is too soft and chubby for an Alpha like him.” My hands shook at my sides. My chest felt heavy and tight. Since I was a little girl in school, I heard words like this. The other kids called me the half-breed fatty. They laughed when I could not run fast in gym class. They pointed at my belly under my baggy shirts and whispered that I would never be good enough. I always tried to hide. I always tried to be small. But this moment hurt more than all those school days together. This was my mate. The one the Moon Goddess picked for me. “And with that,” Ryder continued in a loud voice, “I, Alpha Ryder, heir to this pack and this kingdom, reject Sophia as my mate and Luna. I never want to have anything to do with her.” The mate bond broke inside me. Pain exploded in my chest like someone had ripped out my heart. My wolf howled loud in my head, full of hurt and confusion. Tears stung my eyes and I blinked hard to push them back. I did not want to cry in front of all these people. My legs felt weak. My hands were cold even though the night was warm. “You do not know anything about me,” I snapped back. My voice got louder even though it shook with anger and sadness. “I work my ass off at the hospital every single day. I take care of sick people. I stay late to help them when they are hurting. I focus on their pain instead of thinking about my own problems. That counts for something, right? Or does none of that matter because I am not skinny enough for your ego?” Ryder just shrugged like my words meant nothing to him. He was already turning away from me. “It does not matter.” He reached out and pulled Solia to his side. She grinned wide and happy, like she had won the biggest prize. She shot me a look that said she felt sorry for me but also that she was better than me. “See? This is what a real mate looks like,” Ryder said proudly. The pack clapped and cheered for them. Something deep inside me cracked open. All the years of feeling unwanted came rushing back. I was the girl who was never picked. The chubby half-human who tried so hard but was always laughed at. I had stood in front of my tiny mirror earlier that day, tugging at my simple dress, hoping it would hide my arms and belly. I had whispered to myself to be strong. I had prayed the Moon Goddess would finally see me. Now that hope was gone. “Wrong?” The word came out of me fast and full of pain. “Or maybe you just forced it because you have been chasing him like a desperate girl who does not care about the Goddess’s choice?” I stopped myself, but the damage was already done. My chest hurt so bad I thought my ribs would break. My wolf kept whimpering and pulling back, like she wanted to hide forever and never come out. The laughter from the pack grew louder. It felt like knives in my ears. I could not stand there one more second. Tears ran down my face, hot and messy. I turned around and pushed through the crowd. People bumped into my shoulders but I did not stop. “Move,” I muttered when someone blocked my way. I kept my head down so they would not see me crying. I reached my car as fast as I could. I slammed the door shut and started the engine. The dark forest road stretched out in front of me. My hands were still shaking on the wheel. “Stupid, stupid hope,” I said out loud, hitting the steering wheel with my palm. “Why did I think this time would be different? Why did I believe the Moon Goddess would give me a mate who wants me? Ryder has been known for rejecting girls of all type, especially if they weren’t as skinny as models.” Inside, my wolf was restless and upset. Emotions flooded through me, and I felt the first prick of claws against my fingertips. A partial shift was trying to break free. “Not now,” I hissed through gritted teeth. The road curved sharply ahead. That’s when I heard them, low, threatening growls cutting through the sound of the engine. Not one wolf. Several. Yellow eyes glowed from the treeline. Oh no! Rogues. It had to be rogues. Word of the heir’s public rejection must have spread quickly. A lone, rejected omega driving through the forest at night? Easy prey. They were probably testing the pack’s borders while everyone else celebrated Ryder and Solia. Three wolves burst from the shadows, moving together with vicious snarls. The biggest one slammed into the side of my car. Metal crunched loudly. I swerved hard, heart pounding, but another leaped onto the hood. Its claws scraped across the windshield with a horrible screech. “No!” Adrenaline rushed through me. My wolf surged forward. Fur rippled down my arms as strength filled my body. My fingers slipped once, twice even as I reached for the lock, I could already hear them outside, too close, too many, their presence circling the vehicle alive and patient. These weren’t the ordinary rogues like people talked about . They were crazy werewolves who rarely came out of hiding, only showing themselves when they smelled weakness, fear, and humiliated omega blood. That was what drew them out of the dark. I locked it with trembling hands, but they were already there. They hit the door hard from outside, again and again, making the whole car shake. My strength was fading fast, my vision getting blurry as pain and fear mixed together inside me. I tried to hold on, tried to stay awake, but my body was giving up. My grip loosened, my head fell back slowly, and darkness started creeping in at the edges of my sight as I heard the car door groan under their force one last time. Then something slammed into the side of the car hard enough to shake it. Angry growls turned into screams. Then one of the rogues let out a sharp, painful howl. The pounding stopped. A fight broke out somewhere outside, but I couldn’t see who had come.Chapter 114 Sophia“It’s me,” I said. “Yes.”He stayed braced on one arm above me, forehead almost touching mine, eyes open in the dark. He waited. He did not move until I reached up and pulled him down by the back of his neck.His mouth found mine again, slower than before. The thin mattress dipped under both of us and the metal frame made a soft complaining sound. There was barely enough room. His knee slid between my legs and one of my feet hung off the edge. I felt the cold air on my calf and laughed against his lips.“We’re going to fall,” I whispered.“Then hold on to me.”I did. My arms went around his shoulders and my legs hooked over his hips and we stayed on the bed by sheer stubbornness. He kissed the side of my neck, then lower, then came back up like he could not decide where he wanted to be. Every time his hips shifted the whole bed shifted with him. I heard shoes in the hall again. A cart rattled past the door. I pressed my hand over my mouth and he kissed the back of
Chapter 113Sophia"Are you sure?"He whispered it with my fingers on his third button, and he didn't move to stop me, and he didn't move to help me either. He just stood there with his back against the locked door and his arms at his sides, breathing like it hurt, and let me decide."Ask me again in a minute," I said."I will.""I know you will."I undid the third button, and the fourth, and the last one at the bottom, and I pushed the white coat off his shoulders. It slid down his arms and dropped onto the floor between our feet. Under it he was wearing the faded blue scrubs I'd seen him in a thousand times, standing at the nurses' station charting at two in the morning, and they looked completely different in the dark. He looked completely different. His hair still wrecked from my hands in the stairwell. The crack across his glasses catching the light from the little high window.He still didn't touch me.I understood then that he wasn't going to. Not until I told him to. Not after
Chapter 112 Sophia "You know about my mother now. Tell me something nobody knows."I thought about it. I thought about what I'd never told anybody. Not Kellan. Not Mia. Not my aunt, standing in her yellow kitchen holding me."When I was six," I said slowly, "the first night in the omega dorms. They put me in a room with four bunk beds and seven other girls, and they were all older, and they all knew each other. And I didn't cry. I lay there in the top bunk by the window all night with my eyes open, and I didn't cry, because I thought if I didn't cry, somebody would see how good I was being and come back for me." I swallowed. "I did that for a year. Every single night. I was so good, Harland. I was the best kid in that whole building. I made my bed every morning. I never talked back. I ate everything on my plate. And nobody came."He didn't say anything. He didn't tell me he was sorry. He just reached over and put his hand flat on the concrete step next to my foot, not touching me, j
Chapter 111Sophia"Breathe with me."He said it so softly I almost didn't hear it over my own heart. He was still crouched on the step below me, both his hands still locked around the metal railing, and my fists were still knotted in the front of his scrub top, pulling, and his face was right there in front of mine with the brown back in his eyes and something steady in them now that hadn't been there five minutes ago."I can't," I said. "I'm telling them to let go and they won't.""I know. That's not what I asked." He didn't let go of the railing. "I asked you to breathe with me. Just like you did for me. In. Four. I'll count."I breathed in. It shook."One," Harland said. "Two. Three. Four. Hold it."I held it. My hands didn't move."Out. Slow. One, two, three, four. Hold."We did it again. And again. His voice stayed exactly the same every time, low and even, the voice I'd heard him use with a little boy in the ER last spring who'd put his hand through a window and was screaming b
Chapter 110Sophia I grabbed the front of his scrub top and pulled him down off his step onto mine, and the kiss stopped being careful. His glasses went skittering off the concrete and down three steps and neither of us looked. His back hit the metal railing. My knee hit the step. I didn't feel it. I had both hands in his shirt and his hands were on my face, my jaw, the back of my neck, and he was kissing me like he'd been starving, and I was kissing him like I'd been waiting, and somewhere under my ribs my wolf was making a sound I'd never heard her make before. Not a whine. Not a growl. Something deep and warm and steady, almost a purr, like a cat lying in the sun after a long winter.He pulled back an inch. Breathing hard. His forehead against mine."Do you want me to stop?" he whispered.I didn't answer. I pulled him back.His mouth went to my jaw. Then under it. Slow and open, his breath hot on my skin, and every place he touched went quiet, all the noise I'd been carrying for w
Chapter 109SophiaI'd been standing at the north wing nurses' station for almost a minute, holding my bag against my chest, trying to think of what I was going to say when I saw him. Something calm. Something a nurse would say. I've been sleepwalking, I need to know if it's connected, I need to know what's happening to me. I'd practiced it in Kellan's truck in the parking lot for an hour while the sky went dark, and every time I got to the end of it I thought about the envelope Elina said the palace guard brought to the house this morning, and I couldn't make myself turn the key and drive home.Then the north wing nurse looked up at me and said, "Dr. Harland's on break, he went that way," and pointed toward the stairwell door at the end of the hall, and before she even finished saying it my wolf lifted her head and I could smell him through the door. Soap and pine. And under it something sharp and sour and frightened, the way patients smell when they come in at night and don't know y







