Chapter 59I have no idea how much time had passed since I got shot, but I was sure I was dead. My eyes fluttered open but I couldn’t see anything. The strange thing is I didn’t even feel dead. I had cognitive thought but I was just in complete darkness. I couldn’t see anything in any direction but I could tell that I was lying on the ground. I sat up and instantly gripped my chest. The hole was still there, but I couldn’t feel any pain from it. I pulled my hand away and it was covered in blood I assumed. I could feel it and smell it, but I just couldn’t see it. I attempted to stand up and was able to successfully but it did me absolutely no good because I couldn’t see anything. Not even a foot in front of me. If I took a step in any direction I could fall to an even worse fate than what’s already happening. I had never thought about the afterlife, in fact I had no idea what happened after you died. Where did you go? Apparently nowhere, as I am finding out. But why was I still here? W
Chapter 60 I had all but given up hope of finding a way out of this place when the room started to fade away. It was almost as if Damien was giving me back my memories, but he wasn’t even here, I was alone. I watched as the room came back into view. I was in the movie theatre, I have no idea what movie I was watching but I was here with Xavier. He had his arm around my shoulders and I was leaning my head on his shoulder. I remember he asked if he could take me to a movie for my 23rd birthday. I felt guilty watching myself and Xavier. The memories flooded back of him barging into Damiens room. The hurt on his face and in his voice was so apparent, I don’t know if I would ever forgive myself for it. It looked like the movie was halfway over when I saw Damien enter the theatre. He spotted us instantly and walked over. He took a seat next to Xavier and then leaned over and whispered something to him. Out of nowhere Xavier got up and left the theatre. He didn't say a word, he jus
Chapter 61“I know, Snow. I honestly know. It doesn’t make any sense at all. I have been trying for years to figure out why they would do this, but there has to be a reason.” He said. His words calmed me some. It was nice to know that he really was as confused as I was. It made me feel like he wasn't trying to take advantage of me or the situation. That led me into my next question of why we aren't together? “So, why aren’t we together?” I asked him, just as the waiter came to take our orders. We ordered and then Damien poured me another glass of champagne. I sipped it while waiting for his reply. “I really hurt you, Snow. I haven’t shown you the memory yet, so you don’t understand the emotion behind it. But the reason why we aren’t together is because, besides the heartbreak and your emotions, you haven’t been ready to give up your entire life to join me yet.” He said. I raised my eyebrow at him, and then my eyes widened as I realized what he meant. “Oh… I truly would have to give u
Chapter 62I was trying to figure out a way to fight and try to get out of my own mind when the darkness started to fade away and I knew it was throwing me into another memory. I still had 3 years that Damien visited me that I didn’t have my memories back of yet. I had a feeling that I needed to see them all before I could take whatever the next step was in getting out of my mind. I was surprised to find that it didn’t throw me into a memory, it put me in a perpetual state of darkness fading. Like it was stuck and couldn’t go any further. I suddenly got the feeling that I needed to calm down again. I stopped and took a few deep breaths to calm my mind. It worked, and I was able to hyper focus on the world beyond the darkness. I could feel my body where it lay. I could feel the temperature of the room, and the presence of bodies walking in and out. I could feel my mind, as if I were outside looking in and my mind was its own entity. I could feel my lifeforce hanging on by a thread. I
Chapter 63I could feel his snake-like silky tendrils retreating from my mind as he went. The further away he got the more I realized that I was still lying in Damiens bed. I had gotten myself this far, but couldn’t seem to go any further. “Ok Snow, in order to accept your fate of becoming a Vampire. What do you need?” I asked myself out loud, hoping that it might help me get some kind of idea. Suddenly the room started to fade out and when it faded back in I saw myself with Xavier. We were in Florida, and he had taken me snorkeling for my birthday. We were just putting our gear away when I saw Damien walk up to us. He said something to Xavier, who promptly got up and walked away, leaving me alone with a Vampire. Before I could even grab my knife, which wasn’t on my leg because I was in a bikini, Damien grabbed me and pulled in for a kiss. Watching from the outside I knew he was showing me a memory, it was the memory from last year. Once he pulled away, I smiled at him. “Damien! Hey,
Chapter 64I was expecting another memory, but I didn’t get it, which I thought was strange. It made me wonder if Damien had just not visited me that year, but I knew he did. He visited me every year. He wouldn't have missed a year. “Damien!” I heard Jericho's voice call out, and that snapped me from my thoughts. I heard Damien rush in immediately. “What is it?” He said. “Look! What are these on her hands?? They just formed in front of my eyes.” Jericho said. I could hear the awe in his voice. “Damien smiled and looked down at me. I could see him but my body wasn’t reacting. “She’s waking up. She’s going to wake up.” Damien said. “How do you…” Jericho started to say, but was cut off when I started to stir. I had been begging my body to let me in, to just listen to my commands, and to my surprise, it did. I suddenly felt as if my consciousness and my body had reconnected. I could no longer see anything from the outside, and I knew exactly where I was. I took a few breaths in and exhale
Chapter 65“Stop, you don’t owe me anything. If anyone owes anyone anything, it’s me owing you. I never should have led you on all those years. Never. It was selfish and unfair to you. Not that I knew why I couldn’t feel anything towards you before now, but if I didn’t feel anything I should have just said no. I honestly wanted your company because I was tired of always being alone. It was selfish and I'm sorry.” I said. “Snow, don’t apologize. I don’t care what happened, I wouldn’t change anything. I would do it again in a heartbeat, just to be close to you. I know Damien isn’t going to want to hear this, but I love you, Snow… I love you so fucking much. And even if you will never love me back I don’t want to lose you in my life. Vampire or not. So please, feed from me so you can complete your transition. Because a world without you, is not a world I want to live in.” He said. His emotions were plain on his face, and I couldn’t help the guilt that pooled in my gut, but also the happi
Chapter 66“Damien, I need to tell you something.” I said. He turned to me. “What is it, doll?” He said. I exhaled a slow breath just trying to regain my composure as the gravity of what I had agreed to started to hit me. I could feel myself starting to spiral and the room started shaking again. I closed my eyes and pushed the stress from my stomach. I needed to calm down. Once I was able to regain my composure I opened my eyes and locked them on Damien. “Sorry, I lost it for a second. So Max visited me, as I'm sure you know because he said you contacted him.” I said. Damien looked completely confused. “Who is Max? Oh wait, you mean the council?” Damien replied. I nodded. “He said he spoke to you, which I’m seeing that this might be untrue…” I said. I instantly looked down at my hand, not even caring that Damien and Jericho were both looking at me like I was mad. I sighed in relief when the amethyst ring was absent from my hand. But I was surprised to see that the back of my hand was