Waking up, I realise I am alone in the bed yet again, Alexander must have got out of bed ahead of me. He says it is because he hates to see how sad I look when he leaves but it hurts me more to wake up alone. I thought the point of having a mate was to never feel lonely again.
He is overwhelmed with work as Alpha of this huge pack, following the battle with the Five Lakes Alpha’s everything turned upside down, including losing his father. These last months have shaken his confidence. Every decision he makes he worries will be the one that destroys his father’s legacy. It has been chaotic with the funeral, the coronation, strategic planning for the pack’s future, a never-ending list of things for a leader to do.My world has changed too. Now I am officially Luna I cannot just take off running or vanish into the library whenever I feel like it. The daily running of the castle has fallen to me, so I have my fair share of boring meetings to contend with myself. Wrapping an ivory silk robe around me and tying up my mess of brown curls I headed through the double doors of our suite into the study when my heart melted with sadness. Alexander did not wake ahead of me, he fell asleep at his desk after working late into the night. Head on the table, his arms splayed, it reminded me of an exhausted child. The kind who collapses asleep whilst insisting they aren’t tired.Softly, I rub his huge shoulders, lulling him out of sleep. I can’t help but stare adoringly at my handsome mate. Wrapped in a white shirt the muscles of his broad shoulders are clearly defined. His hair, still a long, unruly mess of black curls made my stomach twitch with longing.I gently stroked my hands through his locks until he gently stirred. His jaw was firm and masculine, everything about him oozed power, yet I could not wait for him to open his eyes. Those powerfully dark, almost black eyes of his still swallowed up every other thought in my head when he turned his hungry gaze upon me.
“Hmm, Hel…what time is it…” he grunted as he slowly came around.“It is just past nine,” I whispered, gently kissing his shoulder. He flew up from his chair rubbing his face, “I have a meeting in half an hour!” he growled in frustration and quickly vanished into the bathroom. I sighed and sat upon his now-empty desk. A few minutes later he peered out from the bathroom door, with a guilty look on his face. I smiled at him, throwing a clean shirt at him from his wardrobe. Why add any more stress to his day. Throwing his old white shirt off as he strode forwards, he pulled into his massive chest and squeezed me tightly. I wrapped my arms around as much of him as I could, surprised at how much I had missed his warm body against mine. Fyre, my wolf was doing circles of joy at being back in his arms.“I know this is hard, and it’s not what either of us wants It is short term I promise, once I have Beta’s I can trust enough I can drop a lot of this work.”“I know, I can’t help wanting you to myself though,” I murmured, running my hands through his chest hair. I looked up into his eyes and saw those little glitters of purple in his iris that I adored so much.“This is exactly why I have to leave before you wake you know,” he muttered. With a smirk as he held me closer, “those big brown eyes of yours…” he muttered as his head dived down to meet my lips. Collapsing into each other, we hungrily embraced. Heat spread throughout my body as he gently nuzzled the scar on my collarbone with his stubbled cheek where he had marked me whilst kissing my neck.I ran my hands through his hair then felt every bit of his bare chest and back that I could. I was like a starving animal at a feast, I desired every single bit of him right there and then. Annoyingly he sensed my eagerness yet broke off his embrace. His eyes glittered with even more purple shards and I knew his wolf was sorely tempted.“You are trouble, for a man with fifteen minutes to get to a meeting,” he grumbled, shifting some of my curls behind my ear softly.“Hmm, but what if I was very very…” The door knocked sharply before I had a chance to make him late. Alexander quickly threw the new shirt on, and I re-tied my robe and headed back into the bedroom half of our suite. One of Alexander’s Betas had entered to brief him for the day's events. The eventual bang of a closing door told me I faced another day on my own.Climbing back into bed I weigh up my situation with a pang of sadness. Alexander still doesn’t know who killed his father and it torments him. How can I tell him after all these months that it was Azalea? But that there is no proof, nothing other than a mind-link boast from her that I can't prove even happened.The only solution I could think of at the time was to recommend her and Ivan move away to Five Lakes, ostensibly as part of securing the new territory. Alpha Dex of the Rising Star pack was absorbing Five Lakes but there were huge shared borderlines that needed assessing and agreeing. The guilt of not being completely honest with my mate keeps me awake at night. My wolf Fyre doubles down on the guilt too and begs for me to confess what I know.Sinking into the soft pillows I am terrified of seeing that tiny little brunette and her uncanny ability to read my thoughts. Ivan is such a valuable Beta and one of my best friends yet I cannot confide in him either. I closed my eyes with the pressure of it all. On top of Alexander, how do I convince my best friend that his mate is a traitor to the pack?Another grey and pointless day of my shitty life begins. It has been almost eight months since what was meant to be Helena and Bram’s commitment ceremony. The party where my life completed its path towards self-destruction.As the only prisoner currently in the hold, all I can do is wait for my turn to be hung and paraded against the East Wall as a warning for others. It is the only fitting punishment for a crime like mine.In these desperate times, I seek the past for comfort. I can still easily picture Bram, his dark eyes and slicked-back hair, lying beside me, taking up nearly all the bed. He could paint the most fantastic images with his words.Worlds of balls, titles, prestige, power to make the world anything we liked, it was intoxicating. He would kiss me gently, pet me and reassure me that I was the most important person in his world.“Bella, you are my guiding star, you know. Everything I am doing is for you.&r
Things are going from bad to worse. Not only has Ivan written to confirm he is returning with Azalea in the next two weeks, but a new vision has also emerged. The last time I had such a strangely specific recurring dream every element came true. The blue four-poster bed of Bram's room, my feet being dragged barefoot through the grass as I was rescued from the burning ballroom and the silver blade stained with ruby-red drops of blood. Iwould have lost Alexander that day if it hadn't been for those visions, it made me realise he was in danger and I managed to save him from being crushed. My heart was in my stomach as I wrote down the details, fighting the urge to throw up as I urgently scribbled the remnants of my memory. -------- Bloods
I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling, just listening to the sound of my own heart and pulse. Half-eaten food litters the cell and at night the sounds of rats have started to keep me awake. It is half-eaten because it is disgusting and I would rather go hungry right now. Wallowing in self-pity doesn't require too many calories either. However, I know that a few more months of hunger and I will eat any slop they give me. My lethargy towards my own life does not extend to starving to death just yet. I try to ignore the fact that if I am treated mercifully, as they would describe, I could be in this room for another sixty years. Once more I cast my mind to a different location and try to evacuate reality. Laid on the narrow bed, staring vacantly upwards, my imagination took me to a better place. One where I still had Gitte and where Bram adored everything about me. I am like an untethered boa
The question hung in the air like a bad smell. Helena seemed surprised I didn't leap up at the bars like a pound dog snapping at her offer. Instead, I remained seated, silent. She forgets I have been the fool for someone else's plan before. "Well?" she hissed quietly. "I need to know more before I can make a decision," I replied coolly. "The goblet I showed you and the man... is from a vision I've been having. The last time I had these visions it was the night of the ballroom fire...everything came true." The ballroom fire. I had missed that bit of the evening, having been placed under arrest and escorted away by then. I did not see Bram, exposed for having blackmailed Helena into pretending they had a
New energy seeped into my bones last night. For the first time in eight months, I was edgy, alert and aware of my surroundings. The guards still paid me no attention, scattering my twice-daily bowl of support towards me as usual. The main difference was this time, I ate it. I felt as obvious as a glowworm, an aura of energy pulsing out of me. If Luna Helena intended to talk to them there I would need to be very nimble to not be seen behind her as I ran for the exit. Once past the guard's station, it is upstairs, into the main warren of corridors outlining the castle which I know inside out anyway. Being late at night only the Moon Goddesses goodwill is going to keep me safe from bumping into someone. In my pitifully ragged prison clothes, I certainly won't be pas
It's been three days since Bella's escape and Alexander is furious. Every spare Beta, Omega and child, have been put on patrol, every town notified about her appearance and notoriety. Late at night, when I am dressed for bed in my silk robe, Alexander finally returns from another meeting. Fyre warns me to swallow down my resentment at being left behind all day again. He paced the plushly carpeted floor of our suite quickly, his face drawn and sullen. It reminds me of when he was banished and his mind was a mystery to me. When Bram persuaded Bella to murder Luna Grace he didn't just get rid of his mate, he pinned the blame on his brother so he could move up the line of succession. As he silently sits at his desk I feel the tension building between us.
I don't know why I'm dawdling on this Alpha Alexander job. Normally I get my payment and set off like a missile and my neck is searingly bad right now. The focus and tension of hunting these people down have been the only thing easing the pain for the past few years. Even sex fails to dispel to constant agony, despite testing the theory with every woman who flung herself at me. I'm deep in Five Lakes territory, still a few hundred miles from Silver City where this new target is based. I've asked around a few rough bars about this guy. You can't trust a slavishly loyal Beta to tell you the truth. It's the omegas, the servant types who confirm if the guy is a piece of shit or not. So far though it seems he's an angel. Framed by his brother, banished for three years then the instant he gets cle
It's not like I'm directly disobeying Luna Helena's orders. I'll be keeping an eye out for this scarred psycho but starting as far as possible from White Forest. Twenty minutes after starting the bike I had my confidence but found myself heading south as fast as possible without stopping except for fuel. It was like an out of body experience, the route, the direction, everything just seemed right so I went with it, chasing the horizon. My conscience continuously gnawed at me, if I was to find this man surely I needed to be stopping in villages, taverns and asking some questions. The newfound taste of freedom was too sweet to give up though. As soon as the sun rose my escape would be known and my grey eyes and short dark hair would be distinctive enough for people to claim a reward on my head. So I rode. The sun shone and the nights were mellow, warm enough to sleep outdoors after all day tearing through the countryside. With the supplies in my bag, I could av