LOGINPOV SOFIA
I made it through the first week by pretending. It wasn't difficult. I had been pretending my whole life pretending my parents' coldness didn't hurt, pretending I was fine when I wasn't, pretending the quiet of my apartment felt like peace rather than loneliness. Adding one more thing to pretend about was simply a matter of practice. I went to work. I submitted reports. I smiled at the right moments and nodded at the right moments and performed the version of Sofia Brennan that the world expected to see. Nobody noticed anything. Nobody except Claire. She called every day. Sometimes twice. I picked up every time and told her I was fine and she said okay and I could hear in her voice that she didn't believe me and was choosing to wait rather than push. Claire always knew when to wait. By the second week the morning sickness arrived. I didn't recognize it for what it was at first. I told myself it was stress. Bad eating. The anxiety of carrying something I refused to look at directly sitting on my stomach and making everything difficult. Then the third morning I barely made it to the bathroom in time. I sat on the bathroom floor afterward and pressed my back against the cool tiles and stared at the ceiling and thought — very quietly, very carefully, like approaching something dangerous — about the last time I had seen my period. I couldn't remember. Claire showed up at my door on a Saturday morning without warning. She took one look at my face and walked straight inside. "How long," she said. "How long what—" "Sofia." She turned to face me. "How long have you been sick every morning." I opened my mouth. Closed it. Sat down on the couch. "A week," I said. "Maybe more." She sat across from me and looked at me with those eyes that had always seen more than I intended to show and said — very quietly — "When last did you see your period?" The room went completely silent. I looked at my hands. "Sofia." "I don't know," I said. My voice came out strange. Small. "I can't remember." Claire stood up immediately. Grabbed her bag. "Get your shoes," she said. The pharmacy was quiet at that hour. Claire went straight to the correct aisle without hesitation — picked up the test without ceremony, paid without making eye contact with anyone, steered us back outside before I had fully processed that we had stopped moving. We didn't speak on the way back to my apartment. What was there to say. Claire sat on the edge of the bathtub while I stood at the sink holding the test in both hands. "I'll wait right here," she said. I nodded. I followed the instructions. Set the test on the edge of the sink. And waited. Three minutes. One hundred and eighty seconds. I counted every single one. I bargained with nobody in particular. I made promises I didn't know if I could keep. I told myself that whatever the result was I would handle it because I always handled things — I had been handling things alone since I was old enough to understand that nobody else was going to do it for me. Sixty seconds. Ninety. One hundred and twenty. I looked away from the test and looked at myself in the mirror instead. At the face looking back — tired, bare, stripped of every performance. Who are you now, I thought. What are you now. One hundred and eighty seconds. I looked at the test. Two lines. I stood there for a long moment. Just looking at them. Two lines that changed everything. Two lines sitting there on that small white surface completely calm — like they hadn't just rearranged my entire future without asking my permission. I opened the bathroom door. Claire was on her feet before I finished opening it. She looked at my face. Then at the test in my hand. She crossed the space between us and put her arms around me and held on without saying a single word. And I let her. I pressed my face into her shoulder and felt the tears come — not the dramatic collapse I had expected but something quieter and more exhausted. The tears of someone who had been holding something at arm's length for weeks and had finally run out of strength to keep holding it. She held me until it passed. She always did. We sat on my couch afterward — knees pulled up, the test face down on the coffee table where neither of us had to look at it — and the apartment was very quiet. "Who is he," Claire said finally. I looked at my hands. "I don't know," I said. She was quiet. "I don't remember his face," I said. "I don't remember his name. I don't remember anything about him except—" I stopped. "Except waking up in his hotel room with a note on the nightstand." Claire turned to look at me properly. "What note." I exhaled. "It said for your time," I said. "He left money Claire. Like I was—" I couldn't finish it. I didn't need to. Claire's expression said everything. She reached over and took my hand and held it and we sat there in the silence of everything that had just been said and everything that was waiting on the other side of it. "Okay," she said finally. Just that. Okay. Like she had taken everything I had just handed her and was simply — deciding to carry it with me. "What do I do," I said. She squeezed my hand once. "One thing at a time," she said. "Just one thing at a time."SOFIAI got to the office at eight fifty-nine.I was supposed to be there at eight.The moment the elevator doors opened, I knew I was already in trouble.The office was busier than usual. People were moving between desks, phones were ringing, and the sound of conversations filled the floor.I lowered my head slightly and walked toward my desk, hoping I could make it there without attracting attention.It was a stupid hope.Ethan Cole was already in the office.I knew because his office door was open.And because I could see him through the glass wall, standing beside his desk with a file in his hand while Daniel spoke quietly to him.My stomach tightened.He had probably been there for a while.Of course he had.Ethan was never the kind of person who arrived late.I reached my desk and placed my bag down as quietly as possible.I sat.Opened my laptop.Pretended everything was normal.My hands didn't agree with the act.They were still slightly shaky.I stared at the screen and tried
POV SOFIA My mother's text came in again. Your father is not feeling well. Come home. I stared at it for a moment and thought, Is this how badly they wanted the money? Then I grabbed my bag and left. Because no matter how many times they had taken from me, no matter how many phone calls had ended with me feeling smaller than when I picked up, they were still my parents. And some part of me that hadn't learned better yet still responded to that word like it meant something unconditional. I went. The house looked exactly the same as it always did. I stood outside for a moment before knocking, taking in the familiar door, the familiar window, the exterior of a place that had never quite managed to feel like home no matter how many years I spent inside it, and told myself it would be quick. Check on my father. Make sure he was okay. Leave. I knocked. My mother opened the door. She looked at me like I was nothing to her. And strangely, that didn't bother me.
SOFIA POVHe still hadn't looked up.I had been standing in the middle of Ethan Cole's office for four minutes and he had not acknowledged my presence once.I looked at the bookshelves.Actual books — not decorative ones placed there to look impressive. The spines were worn in the way spines got worn when they had been opened repeatedly. Someone actually read these.I moved my eyes across the titles slowly.I had nowhere else to be."Ms Brennan."I looked away from the bookshelf.Ethan Cole was looking at me from behind his desk — finally — with an expression that gave away absolutely nothing. Not irritation at being kept waiting. Not acknowledgment that he had made me wait. Just — looking. The way he looked at everything. Like he was processing information and hadn't decided yet what to do with it."Mr Cole," I said.He gestured to the chair across from his desk.I crossed the office and sat down and set my notepad on my knee and looked at him with the same direct calm I brought into
POV SOFIA I arrived at Cole Enterprises at eight fifty five. Five minutes early. I was always five minutes early. It was one of the few things in my life I could consistently control and I held onto it quietly — simply because it was mine. The building looked exactly as it had the first time. Enormous. Deliberate. The kind of structure that had decided long ago it owned its piece of the skyline and had never once reconsidered. I looked up at it for exactly two seconds. Then I walked in. Daniel was waiting in the lobby. He greeted me with the same efficient precision I remembered from the presentation — nodded, checked his watch, confirmed I was on time and led me to the elevator without unnecessary conversation. The doors opened on the thirty eighth floor. I stepped out. Floor to ceiling windows running the entire length of the corridor. The city spread out below like it existed purely to be looked down at from up here. Glass walled offices where people moved with the foc
POV SOFIA I had prepared for every question.Or so I thought.Ethan Cole had other ideas.He stopped me four times during the presentation — not aggressively, not rudely, just with the quiet precision of a man who had heard every pitch and knew exactly where the weak points were before you finished your first sentence."The third quarter projection. You've assumed twelve percent market growth. Justify that."I justified it."Your competitor analysis. It doesn't account for the eastern expansion announced last quarter.""Yes it does." I clicked forward two slides. "Page fourteen. I addressed it here."He looked at page fourteen.He Said nothing.I kept going.By the time I reached the final slide the room had the particular quality of a space where something had just happened that people were still processing. I set the clicker down and looked across the table and waited.Ethan Cole was looking at me.Not at the screen. Not at his notes.At me.With an expression I couldn't read — unr
POV SOFIA The announcement came on a Tuesday morning. Marcus called the whole team into the conference room and stood at the head of the table with the particular energy and trying very hard to contain something significant and not quite succeeding. "Cole Enterprises," he said. The room went quiet. Everyone knew that name. You didn't work in finance and not know that name. Ethan Cole billionaire, his very cold and his kind of man who built empires while other people were still drawing blueprints. His company had been untouchable to firms like ours for years. "They've agreed to a meeting," Marcus continued. "One meeting. One chance to present our partnership proposal." He paused. "If we land this account it changes everything for this company. The contract alone would be the biggest we have ever signed." Someone asked about the bonus. Marcus named the figure. The room exhaled collectively. I sat very still and did the math in my head. That number — that single number — was







