Chapter 30: Let the woman speakNikolai's POV"This is all my fault" I mutter to myself as I stand from the plastic chair for what feels like the 50th time this last hour.Sierra went into surgery 4 hours ago. 4 hours of painful waiting. Not knowing what's happening."Son. Don't go beating yourself up over this. What's done is done and that lass has overcome so much more than any 24-year-old should endure. She will pull through this"I don't want to think about how this is tearing me up inside. How Rex, - being the asshole he is - is retreating until we know more. For once, I'm glad I have control over that wolf otherwise he would completely ruin this hospital and the last thing we are currently needing to be having is a wolf going on a rampage in a human hospital."So what? What is all of this for if she doesn't survive surgery? She was beaten the fuck up! Glass everywhere, unconscious! THIS is my fault! MY FAULT!" I'm not shouting but I can't seem to stop.The almighty Alpha Nikola
Chapter 29: Sweet, Sweet SierraSierra's POV (Right before the accident)Pain laces my heart. I don't want to feel this weak. Vulnerable. Useless. But when someone makes you think those things, hurting or not, it sticks. The pain and humiliation stick and I have a very hard time allowing someone to take that control from me now. I didn't want Nikolai to be one of them. To be a creator or torment toward me but here I am. Naive and alone. Even after I started talking to him, opening up - more than what I have done in over a decade with anyone - I could feel the burning sensation behind my eyes. I feel the sting of Nikolai's rejection, even though I wasn't physically rejected. The thought he must have put into that sentence makes me think that blow's all too well.I wanted to protest. Stomp my foot like a child not getting her own way. Demand that he listen to me and how I felt too. But I couldn't. At the time I tried to stand there with my guard up and tell him to shove his mean commen
Chapter 28: Where is she!Nikolai's POVI've reduced myself to be exactly what they said I would always be.Cold.Ruthless and untouchable. When I re-emerged from my bathroom to find her gone, I was relieved. I didn't want to look at her. I didn't want to have the guilt of what I said lingering in the air but as the minutes go by and I don't feel her in here, I begin to get anxious. Paranoid is what they call it nowadays right? I head out of my room, freshly showered and now ready to talk to Sierra when I bump straight into my sister."Hey..." she says but she won't look at me. Continues to look down at her feet."Mila..." I say as I side-step her. "Are you okay?" she asks and I wonder what Mom has said to her. I have never been one to tell them anything but the state I must have looked, walking in beside Sierra who refused to talk to anyone and headed straight toward my room - Our room - and away from everyone who was looking our way."Yeah, I'm good, thanks, sis," I say, trying
Chapter 27: I think you should leave.Sierra's POVI don't remember much about my mom anymore. As the years have passed, I have found that everything I remembered slowly vanishes. I remember her as a person. I see her every time I close my eyes. When I needed her the Most. I remember how she would read to me and sing me songs but I don't remember her voice anymore. I have no recordings of her voice from before she died and as the years went by and the abuse at my previous pack got worse, I slowly started to forget all the major details of my parents. Voices.Favourite things.Colours.Touches.I miss waking up and feeling her hand rest against my hair when I refused to get up. When I was young enough not to understand the importance of school. I don't remember how I went from being such a happy child with the best friend I ever had, a loving family and a life I took for granted, to being useless and royally screwed over by her pack. Abused and cheated on in life. I'm in Nikolai's ro
Chapter 26: This is my faultSierra's POV"I don't think- I mean- that's never-" I can't even finish my sentence that's how powerful he made me finish. I've never had the sex talk. Christ no one's ever given me anything remotely sexual as that.I've been a prude and closed off from ever feeling anything that could bring me joy, but here, right here and right now, Nikolai has made me feel so good while also being respectful and calm.His chuckle brings me back to the present and it's only then that I feel his hand move from inside my leggings and the aftershocks do something to my insides."Easy there" he whispers into my hair. "It's so sensitive but it feels so good!" I whisper into his hair. "Yeah?""Too good!" I say on a moan. A noise I never thought I would do, a noise I never expected to come out of my mouth but with his playing me into another orgasm and his teeth nipping at my neck, I can't help my hand movements when I try to touch him. Give him something for showing me how g
Chapter 25: Keeping her close.Nikolais POV"Yeah?" She asks so softly. "I don't want to cross any lines here baby""You're not. I promise I'm ready. I need you! I want you!"Like my hand really doesn't give a shit, I find her already warm and wet. "Christ baby-girl"I'm rewarded with a soft little moan. Thankfully every room in the pack house is soundproof and I'm now very thankful for that purchase seems how I would hate to have to make someone go deaf just because they were able to listen to my girl down here.My fingers connect with her flesh and her back arches off the floor. Every instinct in my body is telling me this is a bad idea. The angel on my shoulder is telling me I need to be more careful. To give her time and to help her through this in a different way.But the little shit of a devil on my shoulder is urging me forward. Pushing the good out of me and making me feel feral. Making me believe that it's okay."Christ Sierra! You're tight baby" I say as I slowly push a si