Chapter 24: Helping herNikolai's POV"She walked into me and was talking to herself—the freak!" one of the younger males said. I usually keep myself to myself, and my mother is the same, so with her arguing with Lucas Gallard, there must have been some form of trouble."What's going on?" I ask as I approach. Sierra's phone is in my back pocket, ready to be set up for her, but this commotion between my mom and Lucas is something."Nothing" the kid says and I see the way he cowers back. He has never been rude but his parents are going through a nasty divorce and he's been dragged into it."Mom?" I ask as she moves toward me."Sierra. She's been in some form of daze all week, hasn't eaten a great deal and will only talk if she's spoken to. No one here respects her because nobody knows who she is and what she means to the pack but she bumped into Lucas and he started getting a little mean" she says but when I look at the 15-year-old next to her I try to feel some of the sympathy I usuall
Chapter 23: Will I ever be like her?Sierra's POVDear diary.I've been thinking a lot lately. Considering my past with people and how things usually don't go the way I need them to go, considering how unhappy I used to be in a world where all I knew was violence since my parents died, I can honestly say, I am feeling calmer.When I say calmer, I don't mean everything is perfect—it isn't, and I'm far from calm—but I mean the aura here is smooth. Everyone has their own things they do. Most of them work both outside and inside the pack.I enjoy watching the world go by but recently my mind has been preoccupied. I wanted to start working but my anxiety hit the roof every time I considered even looking at jobs. I had never had experience and the last thing I truly needed was for someone to ask me something and I freeze or I get touched and I lash out and maybe hit someone or bite them.According to Google, those are very frowned upon and would mean I would get fired straight away.But the
Chapter 22: The scoreNikolai’s POV I don't even know what time it is, but I listen to my woman tell me how she got into coding and hacking and how she fixed Joey’s phone. I listen as she tells me that it helped her when she didn't think it would ever help her. When she knew she had done something wrong at the old pack, she would vanish to the library and send a message to Alpha Zade, pretending to be someone else in his contacts—to help with jobs so she could sneak in unsuspected. I am impressed, and I find myself wanting to hold her and be close to her.I lean my head on top of hers and kiss her hair, I didn't think I'd be a romantic, With Natasha it was always her wanting sex and it was always on her terms. After a while I guess it got a little boring but I stayed in fear of being alone.But now that I have found her...I don't want to ever think about what my past could have held me on. When Sierra looks up at me I find myself dipping my head just low enough that she can still pu
Chapter 21: Since when?Sierra’s POV“Woah...”Okay, this guy is huge and I have never seen him before!“I'm sorry I wasn't - I wasn't looking where I was going that's my bad I'm so sorry” Instutter. I look over my shoulder and see that Nikolai has also returned to his human form as well. Crap. I really need to get out of here and away from him.“No worries. What's your name?” mystery guy asks but I'm not up for talking right now I need to get my bearings before I face anyone here. I've not met anyone except for his mother, sister and a little bit of his dad. It was a quick brief, ‘Hello sir’ and dash away moment.“Joey don't even think about it. Sierra, come with me” Nikolai says without giving me a minute to think.“It was really nice to meet you, Sierra” the guy I now know as Joey says and backs away. Nikolai is already across the hallway and I truly don't want to be in his company right now so I make a quick excuse to visit the bathroom and dash I go my room like a coward.“Get
Chapter 20: I understandSierra's POVIf I sit facing away from him then he can't see the turmoil inside me. Can I allow him to kiss me? Can I allow myself to have this one chance to find out what it would mean to have his lips touch mine?“Yes”, I tell him even though I can't turn my neck to look at him.“Sierra - you need to kind of look at me for that to happen” he laughs behind me. I feel my cheeks warm so I can only imagine the colour coating them too.“Sorry. I-I have never done this before so I don't know what is expected of me. What if in bad? I'm 24 and have never kissed anyone” I tell him my biggest insecurity. That I’m terrified of failing. I'm scared of someone telling me that I have failed them and that it's of no use to help mend something broken. Something not worth fixing.“Baby, you can't fail in my eyes. You hung on to every ounce of strength you had left to survive a pack that didn't see your value. I see your value.”He does?“You do?”“I do” he laughs as he takes
Chapter 19: I wonder.Nikolai's POVRemi: Are you good to swing by my place in the morning? My mom decided it was great to order a furniture set that requires two people to assemble. I would know this because I tried to put it up myself and fell on my ass.Nikolai: You want me to help you put up some furniture when you have a dad who can do it? How's the ego? Bruised as well as your ass?I add my message with a laughing-crying emoji because it's only Remi that could do something as stupid as work alone when he knows it probably isn't going to end well and injure himself.I'm halfway through my episode of Grey's Anatomy - Don't even question it. I'm such a sucker for this show - when there's a quiet knock on my door. My mom would have gone to her room with my dad by now and Mila isn't dumb enough to knock on my door at 11 o'clock at night.I pull it open not even bothering to hide my annoyance until I find her.She's standing a little further back from the door but she's dressed in on