Pulling her in tight, wrapping my arms around her and kissing the top of her head, "I love you too Chilli". How could I let it get so bad, how could Logan, how was he so blind, how did he not see what was happening to his own daughter? Or did he know deep down and just look the other way? Jeopardising our chances of having a family, which he also doesn't seem to care about either. He just cares about what slut whore is warming his fucking bed! If because of her we can't, Chilli can't carry, I will hold him accountable for bringing that bitch into her life and home, for trusting that evil shitting monster with what should be most precious to him!Yes, I still blame myself and Pauline, but I also blame Logan and unlucky for him, because as I can't get my claws on that bitch or Thoran, he's up. "How did he not see what she was doing too you?" "Who?" Chilli asks, looking up at me, still in my arms."Logan." I growl through gritted teeth, the urge to shift is strong as I feel panic spike
Father severs the mind-link as I let Chilli in. She steps towards me, keeping her centre of gravity low and unthreatening. 'Elias, please' she Pleads, stepping closer. 'Elias,' she calls to me again in my mind as I watch her come, but still keeping an eye on Logan, not trusting him. A slight growl escapes me completely by accident, 'Okay, okay', she echos apologetically. I look down on my wife as she lowers her head, remaining still. 'What am I doing? What am I doing to her?' I think to myself, feeling a different type of pain along with sadness and guilt in my heart. I let my body relax trying to let go of my fury with a deep breath as I look my Chilli in her eyes, which still only hold love and warmth for me. 'It's okay' her voice whispers in my head, I can feel she wants to run to me but doesn't, for fear of overwhelming me. She's so close to me, just one more step and then I'd feel her fingers running through my fur. A sudden movement behind her pulls my eyes away from her beaut
Lowering Chilli's naked body into the roll top bath, the calming, soothing scents of the essential oils washing over her. She only just let me put her down to run the water. The blanket and father's jacket skattered across the floor, as I crouch down holding my mate's hand, her knees brought up to her chest, tucked under her chin. Her heart breaking, her anger melting within the hot waters, becoming sorro and disappointment at her father's actions and the events that have transpired these last few days and weeks.This week has barely begun and yet there is still so much that can still go wrong for us.I realise the time by how hungry I am, I don't want to leave her but we need to eat, she needs to eat. We missed breakfast due to my wild behaviour and although I know food is the last thing on her mind and she'll say she's not hungry, but I can feel she is. Can feel how weak her body is and how much it wants and need substance, I just hope I can get her to eat something, this difficult
The next day.Chilli POV "For fuck sakes!" I curse under my breath. Luckily I got to the hospital early, because the directions on the map that was enclosed with my appointment letter was wrong, so I got lost again. First time I got lost was my fault, I went to the wrong building, I just saw MAIN ENTRANCE in big letters and went in, not realising I needed the building next door. But the second time I got lost was the maps fault, it had me walk to the other side of the bloody hospital only then to be told I was in the wrong place, and I needed to go somewhere else which was right by the entrance. When I showed the very helpful desk atendent the map, all I got is, 'oh yeah, don't know why they put that in there', as I said, helpful. "Stupid fucking place", I mutter to myself, as a kind nurse notices me walking back the way I just came and asks if I need help and am I lost? He points me to the right unit which says x-ray, 'fucking hell', I think to myself, lost again as I'm here for
FridayChilli POV "So doc, what's the verdict?" Sitting in his office, my hand in Elias's, as he asks the questions. A mixture of fear, anxiety, impatience and doubt flooding us both, weighing us down like boulders underwater. Elias squeezes my hand as Dr Jones shuffles through his paper, not sure how much longer I can sit waiting, this week has felt like an eternity."Well, you see.." coughing, the doctor clears his throat, "I'll get straight to it shall I? Won't beat around the bush." Our silence seems to answer that suggestion, so the doc carrys on as I hold my breath, trying not to fear the worst. "It will be difficult but there is a chance you will get pregnant again, but you will struggle to get to full term." Silence falls upon the room, I feel stunned, like a ton of bricks are pressing down on my chest, as Elias keeps asking the questions,"So it's possible? It's possible we will have a child? A baby?" "Theoretically yes, but as I said it won't be easy, and conceiving will o
Elias POV Driving home from the hospital and I'm lost for words, unsure on how to help or what to say, what to do. Desperately trying to keep my anger and hatred for those who's fault it is, under control. I keep gripping Chilli's hand in-between changing gear, heartbroken every time I have to let go. Chilli looks like she's seen a ghost, as she just sits there, unmoving, silent tears falling into her lap. I just want to hold her and tell her it will be okay, but I can't keep saying that, I know it's driving her up the wall, plus I get the feeling she doesn't really want to be held, not right now anyway. So what else can I do or say? Nothing, it seems. Dr Jones said to keep trying, any opportunity we get, but I'm worried Chilli will think I'm only wanting her for reproducing reasons now, which I understand may sound silly, as that's what sex formostly is for. That now she will associate sex will failure and stop enjoying it, because to the contrary, I just want to be with her, to ho
Elias POV Knock knock, at our front door, I freeze, mid way through towel drying my hair. 'Hu, wonder who that could be?' Thinking to myself, dropping my towel into the hamper, then calling out to Chilli, who's finishing up in the shower, "I'll get it!" Then, "coming!" To whoever is at the door, as I glance at the time, it's late, and because of that my parents are the last people I expected to be knocking on my door at eleven o'clock at night. "Hi?" I say, well sort of ask, confused by their presence."Hey son," father speaks first, "sorry to intrude at this hour, we're not disturbing anything are we?" Silence and stillness falls over me, till the sound of the shower shutting off snaps me back to reality."Hu? No, no, of course not." Opening the door wider, gesturing for them to enter, inviting them in. "Is everything okay?" Closing the door behind them."Everything is fine, sorry. We just wanted to check in on the both of you, see how today went. Where's Chilli?" "Just getting ou
Chilli POV A tingerling sensation, makes my nerve endings wake up and come alive, way before I do, as I purr, still semy asleep as Elias pulls me close and into his arms. I snuggle in deeper to him under the duvet, purring in my limbo state of sleep, not quite awake but not completely asleep either. Until that is my phone deeps repeatedly at me, alerting me to messages, texts. Groaning as I reach for it, unwanting to open my eyes as my hand paws at the side table, blindly searching. Elias growls softly in my ear at my movement to retrieve my phone. Finally having it in hand, the screen lights up as I turn it towards me, the brightness hurting my unadjusted, tired eyes. I blink at the name shining back at me, somewhat in shock, Elias feeling this, nudges and kisses my shoulder, "What hun?" "Dad" I simply say, "a text, it's from my father, or at least his phone.""Hu?" Elias lifts his head to look over my shoulder, confused and concerned by my words. "What?" I'm as confused as he is,