CHAPTER 28

Aurora

“I want you to give yourself to me, not just as my breeder…” I kept pondering on that statement. “What does he mean by that?” I thought to myself. I felt a heaviness in my heart as I continued to think deeper into what he said.

“Does he think I’m only with him as his breeder?” I clenched my fists as I continued my sparring session with Raven. Today, she joined me to observe my progress. For the few weeks, I have been training alone to get in shape with my routines, and it has shown in my overall fitness and durability.

So I was eager to show all what I have learnt on my own as she has been busy training the new recruits who were formerly rogues into the army. The situation along the border has gotten more intense so everyone is on high alert.  

 Unfortunately, I seemed to be off with my rhtym today. Instantly, I found myself face flat on the ground after a quick manuver she did to me.

“You seem distracted today, like you have forgotten all your training. I have gotten report that you have really improved, but yet you’re not fully present here today. What’s troubling you? Is anyone still given you a tough time here?” Raven’s voice became serious, she clentched her hands as her eyes were wide open waiting for a response.

“No…actually I have getting along with everyone in the palace. They are all friendly and more approving of me.” I replied feeling exasperated. Yet, Raven was still insistent on getting to the bottom of my troubles.

“As your trainer, it’s my duty to make sure you’re in top shape. I promised to make you stronger so you can achieve your goal…” Raven suddenly had a mischeivous smile on her face like she was waiting for me to finish the sentence.

“My goal…” I said sarcastically, Raven was taken aback with my response. But she regained her composure quickly.

“Are you no more interested in being by the side of the Alpha. Pls don’t tell me you have already given up like the others.” She waved her hands in disgust as she walked away from me.

Immmediately, I felt a wave of regret washed over me. Raven was someone who I respected so much and to see the glimmer of hope in her eys dimmed out. It was something I couldn’t just imagine in my mind.

“Not like that Raven, I haven't giving up. In fact, the opposite I have never been more sure of myself like ever.” I replied in conviction. Immediately, her demenaor shifted back into a postive manner.

“That’s what I’m talking about, you can do it!” Raven said with a tone of pride in her tone. I could sense she wanted me to succeed to become their Luna. I never allowed myself to ever dream of such of possibilities. But, over these past weeks. Spendinfg time with Darius has only made me more eager to win his trust and accept me.

He was by far better and more loving than Damon, who derived pleasure in making me sad and unhappy. I started allowing my heart to gradually accept him finally.

Yet, something crept into my mind. “If I may ask Raven, what did you imply by saying the others.”

Immediately I said that, her face turned pale like I just uncovered a dark secret. After several minutes, She finally mate my gaze and started talking.

“The Alpha made me swear not to tell you, but there are others who still reside in this pack who want to have their way with the Alpha. Some saw it as an avenue to build political alliance. While others are only interested in his looks and status. This had made him reject all their proposals to become his mate.” Raven took a weary sigh as she gazed intently in my eyes.

Her eyes welled up in tears giving her a sympathetic look. This was the first time I saw Raven like this. She was known as the ‘Ice queen’ for her unbothered reactions to high-level complications. She was known to be always calm every during battle but now she was different

Yet here she is, almost in tears talking about her Alpha. “This pack is one big family”. I thought to myself. As if though she read my thoughts, she immediately got her composure back.

“All I saying is this the first time I have seen the Alpha show any type of  interest in a female the way he does to you.” Raven said in a soft tone. Her words were so moving that I couldn’t control the tears rolling down my cheeks. It felt like that huge burden in my heart has been lifted.

I remained sitting on the ground as she followed suite to sit close to me. She placed her hands on my shoulders in a effort to comfort me. I took a deep sigh as I met her gaze.

“Sometimes I feel, he only sees me as an obligation. Like I was just brought here to serve only one purpose. But hearing you today, re-ignited my will to prove to him I’m more just a breederr. I’m here to stand by his side against his enemies.” I said it with resilience in my voice.

Raven curved her lips slightly as she gazed at me. “ One thing about the Alpha, is he has a tough exterior as he has faced a lot before he got to this position. But I assure you, his not someone who can be forced. You’re only here because he wants you here.” Her hand on my shoulder felt re-assuring. Like that was the exact thing I was meant to here at that moment, I felt my resolve surge up like never before. Just, as I was cleaning the tears on my face. We heard a deep baritone behind us.

“I hope you’re not talking about me, Raven.” My heart beat skipped a beat as we turned around to the familiar voice of Alpha Darius.