Serine
"It's so quiet here and I feel so cold. This house no longer feels like home,"-BEN COCK, So Cold
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~Present~
Previously:
"I'm sorry mama," I whispered and I was welcomed by the darkness.
"It wasn't my fault, it wasn't my fault!" I yelled throwing the stone in the mirror and the sound of the mirror breaking filled my ears.
Pieces of glasses were lying everywhere. I didn't know what to do. I didn't know who the person in the mirror was, the one with fresh tears, the one who's reflection was distorted, the one who was a complete mess. The goner.
I was nothing but a nuisance to everybody who had to deal with me on a daily. I was nothing but a monster. A stupid teenager who doesn't know how to solve her own problems.
"Dad! Dad, help me I'm not okay!" I yelled looking at my reflection.
"Someone please help me. Anyone."
I woke up with pain from both my forearms, I glanced down to both of them seeing them a smaller amount of blood than I expected. I wasn't much of a "bleeder"
Trying to refresh my brain, I sat upright and winced at the pain that shot in my spinal cord. I took in my surroundings, I was in the bathroom, sleeping. Remembering a lot of nostalgia and cutting. And a very short nightmare.
I need to stop doing this. After cleaning up the bathroom tiles, I cleaned up my cuts and just covered them with the sleeve of my hoodie. Once I was done cleaning everything that had a blood stain, including washing my face. I walked out of the bathroom and made my way to living room where I heard voices from the TV. I saw my dad sleeping on the sofa, he looked so peaceful. Grabbing the folded blanket on the sofa and covered him with it, whispering a good night and switched the TV off.
I walked into the kitchen to see if I had any chores that had needed to be done and there was none. He washed his dishes... what a stubborn man. I sighed a little more calmer and made my way upstairs to my room.
Snapping my eyelids as I saw nothing but the color black.
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"Ms Williams? I'm waiting on an answer" I snapped out of daze when I realized I was in class.
When and how did I get here? What time was it? I didn't even know what class I was in. "Excuse me Mr Michaels? Could you repeat whatever was said please?" I looked at him absolutely dumbfounded. "I asked you Ms. Williams, what year did Galileo invent the telescope?" He repeating for God knows the amount of times.
Oh I was in art... this shouldn't be bad.
It's just art.
"Uhhh.." Was all that came out of my mouth. Could someone magically make me disappear? I'd be eternally grateful. Worse thing was, I knew the answer. But my brain had simply given up on me and deprived me of knowing any Galileo information.
Everybody's eyes were off me when the door shut closed and non other than Alexander McCann stepped in.
Drooling were all the girls and I just simply snickered. "I could answer that," he surprisingly said.
He was not, no he was not, over my dead body prove that he is smarter than me. He isn't anyways.
He most probably is. My subconscious interfered.
A McCann smart? I was born at night but not last night.
Your underestimation of him is extreme.
His underestimation for women is worse.
"Care to share McCann?" My eyes widen at Professor Michaels statement. Was he not going to bother asking why Alexander was late? What kind of person gets that kind of privilege?
Alexander. My subconscious answered to which I rolled my eyes.
"No, I can answer it myself, thank you." I forced a tight smile. "I wouldn't mind Ms. Williams." He smirked. What's with the "Ms Williams" today?
"It's okay. Thank You." I tried my hardest not to glare. "Professor, "
"The answer is 1609," we answered in unison.
My eyes widen, shocked how we said the exact same thing, at the same time. How was that even possible?
"Professor," I heard the door shut again with a familiar voice this time. "Sorry, I'm late. I had to go to the sick bay, wasn't doing okay."
"You may take your seat Levine," he nodded. He was really one soft professor. Levine took her her seat on her desk that was beside mine.
"Are we still doing Romeo and Juliet?" She asked. "Yes," Ms Michaels answered. Levine grimaced at the response and whined. "No, no, no. Please let's choose a different romance. Pretty please."
"We'll make sure it's still ancient professor," Harper said from the back. "No promises," Ryanair smirked as we all looked at him giving him the 'what the fuck' look. "We promise Professor." He shook his head looking down at something on his desk.
"Whatever the choice is, there has to be romance." She pointed out. "Serine you will be the protagonist as well as Alexander. It's just an awesome combination." She smiled and my eyes widen.
"No, no Ms Michaels, you know I'm not good at those things. I don't mind at least playing the servant or any other role available." I try to reason. "Fine, Stephanie, would you like to play as the protagonist?"
"I don't mind Ms Michaels!" I heard a screeching voice. Kelly. "Okay then, Kelly you will play Juliet while Alexander plays Romeo." I smiled victorious. Luck was on my side this time.
The dismissal bell rang and we all got up and grabbed our bags.
One more class then lunch time.
One more class then lunch time.
One more class then lunch time.
One more class t-
"Now would you look who it is." A voice knocked me out of my hope. I look up to see the person I least expect to see and roll my eyes. "Alexander what do you want?"
"Why are trying to avoid me?"
"Avoid you?" I chuckled. "Why would I try to avoid your insignificant existence? Why do think you're so special that I would waste my time talking to you?" I crossed my arms. "You're talking to me now aren't you?"
"I wouldn't be speaking if you weren't blocking my way. Now would you step aside?" I asked trying to walk past him but only to feel his palm connect with my forearm. Foreign shivers ran through my entire body and my eyes fluttered closed.
"Let go of me." I tried my best sounding unfazed but an unfamiliar warmth was brought to my ears.
"I'm not even touching you, princess."
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Serine"My momma always say "girl your trouble" and now I wonder would you ever fall for a woman like me?" -LITTLE MIX, Woman like me***"What did you just call me?" I snapped my eyelids open, oddly missing the warmth of his palm on my skin. Wait, what am I even saying? I should be insulting him for touching me without my consent!"A princess," he chuckled and I snapped my eyelids shut trying to suppress a glare. Suddenly, I felt so nauseous but nothing seemed like it wanted to come out. I snapped my eyes back open seeing that no one else was here, it was only Alexander and I.I forgot it's class.How long had my eyes shut?I shook my head when everything became fuzzy as I tried focusing on one thing only. But everything kept spinning, playing games with my head. "Hey, what's going on?" I immediately felt like I was high, his voice was kind of distant yet close.What did I drink? Did I eat something? "Serine? Serine what's happening?" His voice becoming so much louder and my head s
Serine***One month later"Ms Wilson is really doing it with these prom dances," I sighed looking at all the other students who were just ecstatic. It was that time of senior year,Prom. And truth be told, I did not want to go. But when you have a friend like Levine, you can never get an ounce of freedom. Prom wasn't until the next couple of months and she was here, having all of us gathered in the school hall, and instead of giving us a heartfelt speech of us leaving, she couldn't care less. Her voice echoing through the school hall with all the chatter of the students who were absolutely restless.I sighed."Students, settle down." She spoke."Did you bring my ear muffs?" I cocked my head to left. "As always," Sarah answered softly and handed me a gray pair of ear muffs and I smiled as if she had just saved my life.Well- she had. She saved me from listening to a horrific speech about the prom and whatever else there was to say. I discreetly planted my AirPods and covered them wi
Serine***One month earlierOkay I was seriously not having it. At all.Slamming head into the notebook, I was drained. Have you ever just felt like... dead tired? 'Cause I was beyond exhausted and I needed sleep.Serine"Speechless, speechless, that's how you make me feel." - Micheal Jackson, Speechless***One month later"Ms Wilson is really doing it with these prom dances," I sighed looking at all the other students who were just ecstatic. It was that time of senior year,Prom. And truth be told, I did not want to go. But when you have a friend like Levine, you can never get an ounce of freedom. Prom wasn't until the next couple of months and she was here, having all of us gathered in the school hall, and instead of giving us a heartfelt speech of us leaving, she couldn't care less. Her voice echoing through the school hall with all the chatter of the students who were absolutely restless.I sighed."Students, settle down." She spoke."Did you bring my ear muffs?" I cocked my he
Serine***It was now detention.And I could've sworn I was half dead.My body was about to give in, God was finally taking me to a much more better place, and he arrived at the right time. I didn't mind dying in my sleep- "Ms Williams!" My head shot up and that was a huge mistake because I felt a strong pain erupt on my neck. Straining it. I winced and placed my palm there as Mr Jackson looked back to the pile of pages but not before giving me a knowing look.I rolled my eyes.You are the cause of the pain in my neck, idiot.And oh my, so much would've happened if I ever said those words out loud. I wasn't taking note of anything until I felt a piece of material hit my cheek. I glared at the poor piece of paper and looked around the room to findYes, people. This was Mr Jackson's detention ways. Because there's nothing more painful than being stuck in a classroom only with 5 people and only one was occupied. I glanced towards the one girl who was chewing her gum silently looking o
Serine***"Hey there," I heard a familiar voice and I felt my heart stop. I looked at the lifeless body that had their eyes closed and looked at peace. "What did you do to him?""Oh you're not going to greet your old dear friend?" He asked stepping closer and I took a step back."Did you miss me Serine?" "Don't come any closer," I hated my voice for sounding so fearful but I didn't have time to lecture myself. I proceeded in taking more steps back. "Why are you walking away?" He tilted his head to the side getting closer. "I won't hurt you," he whispered and that's when I felt my back hit the wall."No please," I let out a shaky breathe when I felt him caress my cheek."NO!" I head shot up and I found myself staring at my own reflection. I found myself trying to steady my breathing and calm myself down.Relax Serine. I told myself.It was just an hallucination. I reminded myself.I sat there and removed sweaty hands from him. It's had been a week since my dad hadn't woken up. He nev
Serine ***I stared at the girl in the mirror and I shook my head, disappointed. What happened to me? I was okay, I was completely fine.But I just had to be pushed down once again. I just had to let myself be hurt again, I just had to see him.Dream about him and have nightmares with only him in them. Why didn't I do something? Why couldn't I speak up? Why was I weak? Why did I have to fluctuate? Why did I pay the price at such a young age?Why did I leave my dad on my own? Why? Why did it have to be me.I hopped into the shower and allowed the hot water burn my skin. I never felt bothered as I saw some parts of my body become a darker shade of pink and allowed my muscles to relax.***"Everybody please welcome your new classmate. Serine Williams," I shyly looked up and felt more than a dozens of eyes staring at me and nobody said a word. "Why's everybody so quite?"Ms Pillar seemed to have spoken to soon when everybody began laughing.Their young mirths were like knives stabbing m
Serine ***The rest of the day had gone fine but I was not my usual self because of everything that happened with my dad. I wrote down the last words of my notes and then closed my book tiredly.Sinking down my seat, I closed my eyes and rubbed my temples."Alright students, your assignment is due next week-" Ms Blue wasn't able to finish her sentence when an army of groans were heard. "Do you want me to make it Friday?" She raised her brow and everybody else kept quiet."That's what I thought. So for this assignment no group work will be needed." I internally sighed and thanked the heavens. The last thing I needed, was to be surrounded by a group of people speaking, spilling and suggesting. "You will have to do this on your own. Due date is Thursday and it should be completed."And right on time, the bell rang. I tiredly got up and shoved my spare notebook inside my bag and got out after the other students had left. I wasn't even three steps out yet and a familiar pair of eyes met m
Serine ***Previously: But Kelly then did something that I never expected her to do.She kissed him.But that wasn't the reason only why I had even acknowledged it. It's because he didn't stop her, he let her. I looked away once he pushed her away. I watched at Sarah and Levine watched as the drama unfolded in front of their eyes. "Serine I-""You don't need to explain anything," I simply said and walked away.And that was just every single day.I ignored him. I'd cross paths with him, not saying a word, not giving him any reaction, nothing. He'd ask me something and I'd stick with one word answers.Like right now. I was busy sketching something. An alley.I didn't realize how much time had actually gone by but it was only at the sound of someone else's voice that I snapped out of it. "Serine," I quickly slammed down my sketch book along with my pencil. I didn't respond nor even spare the source of the voice a glance and just stared into space."What was that drawing?" He sat down